A Mens' Group

A Special Springtime

2006-09-03T12:19:00.000-07:00

Jan. 6/03 Monday, Sunny and warm, +6
I am starting a new file for the year 2003 although I have written a few days in the April file.
A warm front has come in from the Pacific and parked itself over Alberta so we are enjoying summer type weather.
Did not get a chance to write during the week end because of laziness, playing with the solitaire game and just did not feel like it.
Today I have a different attitude.
I talked to Susan last night after five or six days because she called. She was feeling quite left out and lonely. I am keeping busy but still do not feel relaxed; my back is hurting a little. She has been busy with Christmas activities and is going back to work on Monday. I was not very enthusiastic in our conversation. We talked about other people, Fred and Sue and not very much about us. Her dad is OK and her brother is off on holiday down south. I did not bring up the stuff for the security in her condo. She will have to ask about it.
The meeting on Thursday with the guys, except Everett and Jim was the same old, same old. Peter is complaining about Linette and her not understanding things.
Sometimes I wonder.
Cory called to chat last night. He has had a difficult time with the bank and their workings. He was a little frustrated and all I did was say the appropriate things and did not offer to fix it. I think that it was all he wanted. I will have to continue to be aware that I cannot fix his money problems. This is something Cory will have to learn to do.
Work was quite busy and the time went quickly; I arrived at the show home at five in the afternoon.
John still does not have cell phone and I have to meet with him. Met with Raj Singh about the new home he wants to build with his sister. I took some pictures of a lot for a client from Vancouver and spent some time with John bringing him up to speed on the clients that I am working with. Some clients are coming in this weekend and I am doing a quote for them for a bungalow.
I called out to get some new prices for items from some suppliers. It will show John that I do not want to depend on him for the pricing all the time. I am leaning toward getting a PDA for storing all the information that I am starting to accumulate about suppliers and product. After the next pay check, I will look into the devices more closely.
Dana and Stephanie are off to the south for a week. Margaret is still getting migraine headaches which are starting to wear on Cory. I did not ask him about his friend from Rosedale.
I am thinking about pushing back my massage for a week and going up to the mountains at the end of January
I had a short but pleasant conversation with a couple of women at the coffee shop while waiting for Raj to show up. It was silly but fun, I guess women will still talk to me.
I will consider Susan Ruddick for the job of hostess at the new show home when it opens in March. I have had a short conversation with Chris and John about the situation but will have to fill in the details further along the way.
Ron played squash with Warren and me on Saturday. Ron is still getting very angry when things do not go his way. Warren is starting to confront Ron about his playing style.

Wednesday, Jan. 8. The warm weather is blowing away with the strong North West winds.
Mother and I had lunch today. She is in fine form and feeling a little better after the Xmas activity. She is complaining about the hectic rush of people coming and going. All in all she is doing fine saying that she is not going to Terry’s for Ukrainian Xmas when Lesel comes down at the end of the month. I am arranging for Cheryl to take her down since she will eventually change her mind.
Gillian called tonight to suggest that she would fly down to arrange a birthday party for mother’s 85th birthday. Gillian is feeling a little bit down after some of her friends have passed away during the last few months. She does not want to miss out on any time that could be spent with mother. I suggested that now was not the good time to come down; perhaps in the end of summer or fall. Gillian is going to Europe for two weddings in May to June.
I pushed back my massage a week and have booked two nights in Jasper at the end of the month to get out of town. I may go skiing or I may not.
Jim called mother to chat and passed on that all is well with his family.

Sunday, Jan. 12/03, Sunny Very cold - 21, quite bright and sunny
Finally got to stay home last night.
Went to see Devin play hockey on Friday, dropped over and had a beer with Shirley at her place after the hockey game. It was interesting to watch the little guys and girls suited up and playing hockey. There was quite a bit of enthusiasm from the parents and coaches. Since the game took place outside I had to lend Shirley a hat to keep her head warm. She said that Susan Scott, a writer from Calgary, was pleasantly surprised with my ability to converse at the dinner party that Shirley had created several weeks previous. Those present represented the literary side of Shirley’s life. Friends, acquaintances and fellow workers that she had made over the years that she had spent in the journalism field. I will have to make a point of calling her to have coffee when and if she is in Edmonton.
Talked to Cheryl at the hotel a couple of days ago; had lunch and caught up on her escapades. After dinner we made sure that we coordinated our activities for the Xmas dinner at Terry’s place in regards to mother and her participation and transportation.
Work activity has continued with all the financing in place for the new homes but the lot availability is still in question.
My client from Vancouver wants to move to another lot because of the electrical box on the front of her property. She is in discussion on lot 15 in the new area. Canyon Springs, another home builder, is talking to her. I will have to talk with John about getting the lot from Western Living if Canyon Springs is interested in it. We should have an answer from Lucy and Homexx on Monday. Jeff Johnson will tell us about the lot 6 for Mersereaus. Raj will want a quote for his sister on Lot 24 and I expect he will not be pleased with the prices. I am meeting with Andy Ho and his brother for lot 24 and a house, for which he has plans, on Tuesday evening.
Dana and Stephanie should be back from their vacation today. I expect he had a good time all tanned and happy. Terry called to make sure I would come to the Xmas party. He wants me to bring my home design stuff along so we can create some plans for the new home he wants. He does not want to let mother know what is going on. She will probably think that he is spending her money.
Everett was very talkative on Thursday about being in the present and how his thinking has changed since read a new book. He had Warren talking a great deal. Hector is recuperating nicely and is starting to get more movement in his arms. He was meeting with some doctors to go over his contracting for the research project. He is getting more comfortable with the idea of a consultant work process.

Saturday 25, Cold, much snow in last three day, and cloudy today
Two weeks have passed quickly.
• Several clients came in to begin home construction with me.
• I am in the final stages with my client from Vancouver to build a home in new Potter Greens. All we have to ensure is that Western Living will get the lot for us. Dianna, the owner, is sending all the paper back to us with the correct signatures.
• Drury is going to build a Pinehurst on a lot a couple lots down from the show home. He is getting financing with Deb, who could foresee no problems.
• I was told that Lucy came in with the money on Friday and I will be able to bill on Monday.
• I am working on a plan and quote for Kevin B from Sherwood Park.
• Andy Ho’s brother has not responded yet.
Shirley and I had coffee on Friday catching up on her activities over the past few weeks. She and Devin are going skiing this weekend if the weather is nice. It has been very cold and has snowed 10 inches over the past several days with more snow to come.
Gillian arrived on Thursday for mother’s birthday party on Saturday. She was in quite an agitated state over her next door neighbor’s actions. I spent some time calming her down. We all had lunch at Cheryl’s hotel with mother on Friday. Terry picked up Lesel and Mother and drove them out to the farm on Friday. I will be driving out after work if the weather is OK. Jim may be coming down; I am not sure. Gillian seems to be staying in control and not interfering with everyone’s activities.
Warren and I had a beer after last Monday’s squash game where he informed me that he met his 23 year old son for coffee on the previous Saturday. He had never mentioned this to the men’s group before although he knew of his son’s existence. He was seeing a woman who got pregnant while they were together, wanted to get married, Warren decided he did not want to and parted company, She had the child, got married, had two more children and raised the child in the family. She contacted Warren who agreed to meet with the boy.
Hector did not get the contract with the Doctors for the research project I was informed. I have not talked with him about it but Warren said Hector is processing the information and will handle the rejection well.

Sunday, Jan 26, cloudy and snowing, -13
The Xmas / birthday party for Mom, Lesel and Cheryl was quite successful last night. Jim and Marion and some of their family, Derek, Quenton drove up from Calgary and Edmonton to be at the events for the evening. Merci put on a good spread and everyone enjoyed themselves. Gillian was even a little restrained in moving people around for the pictures. Merci’s eyes flashed with anger occasionally but the event moved on nicely. I drove mom and Gillian back in the night. The south wind was blowing snow onto the highway and making small drifts. They kept mother’s attention as we hit them. It brought back memories of the truck accident she had many years ago. Grace was there with her son Wade. She was in a good mood and there were a great many laughs and stories shared. Cheryl even brought along Darrel who was in a quiet but happy mood. I am not sure why Cheryl brought him along except she was asked to by Terry and Mother. Lesel and Kalle showed pictures of their trip to Mexico last November. The photos showed a beautiful place. They are doing a great deal of hiking and trail climbing when they travel. They bought a jeep to get around and are enjoying the used vehicle a great deal. Cheryl is bringing them back today to catch a flight to Vancouver and then back to San Francisco. They invited me down to San Francisco in the future. I am looking forward to going.
Gillian had some good discussions with Terry and Jim. Quenton has delayed his flying lessons because of medical concerns.
Wade is enjoying his work at the welding shop but does not see it as a long term place to work because of the conditions.
Anyway the day progresses, the traffic is starting to get larger in numbers, more comments later.

Sat. Feb. 1/03, Cloudy, warm, -2 Feb. 2, Sunday,
Got back to the show home safe and sound with only a few aches and bruises.
The trip up to Jasper was great. The skiing in Jasper was average to poor. Even on the green runs, I had to look for the rocks and the ground that was barely covered by the snow. There were very few people around on Thursday and Friday. The hotel and the businesses were not doing well. The people started coming in Friday night but it never got busy. I had a drink at the Jasper Park Lodge, the lounge was empty. Some groups were having meetings but there were only a few people around. Jasper has very little snow on the ground and only a small ground cover in the ski areas. The staff is very friendly and helpful. I chatted with several guests at the hotel who were skiing in the area and sightseeing. This area represents some of the most beautiful natural landscape in the world most out of province travelers confirmed.
Terry and Merci had lunch with Gillian, Mother and me at the Mirabel on Wednesday and everyone got along.
Mother was concerned about me going skiing but she was quite calm about it.
Gillian continues to restrain herself about the goings on in her life. The decision about her neighbor’s home variance meeting was to happen in the afternoon so I still do not know the result or the impact on Gillian’s home.
Jeff was asked by Victoria for a divorce after they came back from their skiing holiday. She is moving the children back to Edmonton for the remainder of the year. Jeff is in a state of shock and is having a difficult time dealing with the decision by Victoria.
Warren and I are to have a squash game on Sunday, before I drive him to the airport for his trip to see his mom in Europe.
I will be driving Gillian to catch her plan early Monday morning.
The traffic at the show home has been slow but the serious people are coming in and deciding to build home. Ed called to say that he wanted to continue with the Cascade in the West end. I am to meet him in the week and discuss his needs. Walter wants to start in March and does not seem to realize that we have to start with the blue prints now. I will be meeting with him this week also.
I got paid for Lucy and was able to cover off all my bills with a little money left over. I will have to start on the RRSP before the end of the month and then let the income tax take care of itself in the months of March and April.

Sunday, Feb. 9 Sunny and warm +1,
Only light traffic on Sunday. Drury’s came in to confirm some ideas; possibly a walk out basement to match the neighbor’s homes.
Iona M came in to take some photos of the house.
Cory called last night and we chatted. He is getting along with his calendar design and work for Greg. Nothing is happening in the film industry at the moment. He will be filing his income tax to get some money back as soon as possible. He chatted about Eleanor, a previous girlfriend from the Rosedale area, who was saddened by the events in her parent’s life. He said that Eleanor’s parents are splitting up and it is hard on her but he will help her through it.
I picked up Gillian and stopped by Cheryl’s place for a bit, dropped Gillian at the airport before heading home and crashing for the night.
Played squash with Warren in the morning. Had a great set of games and was fortunate to win the final game. He is in a strange mood because things are not moving as fast as he would like in his business plans.
He and Hector were the only ones at the group session. He had a good talk with Hector but said that without me there not much happens. Jim did not come back, so I guess that he is gone from the group. Too bad.
I am meeting Walter and h is wife on Wednesday to get the information to do up the blue prints for his new home.

Saturday, Feb. 8/03 Cloudy, -2, snowing a little Sunday, Feb. 9
The week has been productive.
Kent Smith and Janette came in to do a deal on a bungalow. Mike and Michelle did a deal on a 2 storey in Strata, showed them Scott B’s home on Saturday to allow them to get a sense of size and space. Ed continues to look at the Cascade in either Lewis Estates or Donsdale. On Friday he asked me to send him some more information on the lots and prices in Donsdale for building in Aug. I was told that Canyon Homes controls everything in Lewis Estates at the moment and are not releasing any lots. John will talk to Nick at Western Homes to confirm the lot for Man. I met with Walter and Vanessa Rayne to get some more info about the bungalow so we could do up blue prints which should be done by next week. Debbie has come in and is still confused about the house they want to build on the corner lot. No hurry here.
I dropped by the Galleria for a drink to see what the bar was like; a great deal of music, body movement and heat.
Warren is in Europe and will be back on Thursday.
Gillian is safely in Toronto and I have not heard from her yet. I am sure that she has talked to mother. Lunch with mom is coming up on Wednesday.
Derek and I have completed plans for the RRSP season that ends at the end of the month.
I dropped by the Ed Flying Club to see what changes have occurred during the past month.
Kristine has moved on the dispatching at Morningside, an Aviation Company, and is enjoying the stability of a pay check. Dennis is retiring from the club. They have a perky young blonde marketing agent that is spreading the word about the club. Still no word about the new proposed Government landing fee that is going to apply to all aircraft that land at the airport. Cheryl has gotten her strength back and caught up on her sleep after Gillian has left. She said that she was a little depressed at her father’s attitude.
Cory is changing his logo for the company and asked for some suggestions.
Life is good with everything considered.
Susan and Fred are doing nothing different with Kelsey so nothing will change until Kelsey decides.
Cory called last night to chat and discuss his web page. He had a head cold and was feeling a little down. He said that Dana was working on some puppet shows and was keeping busy
It continues to snow which will make a lot of farmers a little happy because of the potential for wet fields this spring. The weekend warrior townspeople on their snow machines are also happy.
Had a good sleep last night and feel quite relaxed today.

Saturday, Sunday, Feb. 16, cloudy and warm - 1, snowing lightly
Week went by reasonably well. Attended to the deals that were written.
Warren was in Europe so I was not playing any squash. Booked some appointments to go flying but the weather was snow and clouds and mist for the week, except on Wednesday. I rebooked for next Thursday but the forecast is for snow. I did some studying on the Piper, a new airplane and learned a few things.
Susan R sent in a profile to allow her to do some home sitting for me when the Starter homes are open in March.
Had a coffee with Cheryl, she shared her frustrations with quitting smoking and her family. We had a good talk and she was able to vent a little.
Cynthia called for a lunch date on Tuesday. She wants to talk about her guy and some of his antics. Shirley called to wish me a happy valentine’s day before she went skiing on Saturday to Lake Louise with Devin.
I picked up Warren at the airport on Thursday evening and delivered him home. We played a round of squash on Monday, short series and then hit the steam room. We discussed his good trip to see his mom and family. He had a good time and is happy that he went. Now he has to get back up to speed in Edmonton.
The lot swap came together for my Vancouver client in Potter Greens. We are getting the blue prints ready to show her next week.
Cory has sent me some e mails about the cars he is designing but I have not heard from Dana.
Monday is a family day holiday. I will be having lunch with Mother on Wednesday to catch up on her discussions with Steph and Gillian.
Cheryl was saying that Terry is still living in the past and angry about what has happened and continues to blame things on other people. Steph is the same way, Cheryl said and she is getting tired of it. She really does not want to see her family for a while and feels a little guilty about it. She asked me for the name of Dr. Tom so that she might arrange to talk to someone. She is trying to quit smoking and feels quite out of control.
The weather continues to be winter. Slow traffic on Sunday.
Gillian called last night and left a message while I was at the movies. She was going to send me a fax about a letter that was sent to someone about the problems she is causing in the neighborhood. She was sounding quite out of it and I doubt if she will remember calling me. I received no fax so we will have to wait and see.
Cheryl and I will spend some time together discussing the amount that she is drinking. It will be a major change for Cheryl to slow down her drinking considering how central it is to her lifestyle. She will have a great deal of pressure from her people to continue drinking.
I will have to take a trip down to San Francisco to see Lesel and Kalle sometime this year and get to enjoy their lovely city.

Saturday, Feb. 22, Cold, Sunny - 21 Sunday, Feb. 23, winter has returned
This week has been one of winter. Snowing with winds, then the cold weather came in. Today is bright and clear. Heavy snows were reported in Red Deer when the two weather systems met. Traffic has been slow during the week but I have been busy with paper work on the deals that were brought in.
Chris has left for a week of skiing down south.
John and I met with Walter and Vanessa at Cam’s home to go over the blue print moving forward on their home. The print turned out well and we are meeting with them next week to redo the print and get some pricing on the house. We should start construction in April.
Smith signed off on the bungalow and I sent a blue print to my Vancouver client.
Novakowski’s blue print is ready and they will sign off this weekend.
I had coffee with Shirley on Friday and talked about Devin and some of the events in her life. Shirley commented that she was very moved that I said that I cared and missed her when she moved to Toronto. She was moved more than she expected. Her ski trip with Devin to Sunshine was great fun and has encouraged her to set a trip to Spain to see her sister in March during spring break.
Dana called to say that he is still not working but is doing things around the house and keeping busy.
Cory is proceeding with his calendars and will send me some when I send him the money.
Lunch was quick and easy with Mom, Terry and Merci on Wednesday. Terry and Merci dropped by at the show home and we drew up and discussed plans for a bungalow with a walk out on the property back home. He has created a strange mixture of trying to build an inexpensive home and spending money on expensive items like a furnace, metal roof and walk out with a great deal of windows.
Coffee with Cynthia was pleasant with her giving me a small gift.
She is moving away from Bill and his antics. She has changed the locks on her home doors and regulated how much time he is spending over at her place. She seems to be moving on and is contented in doing so.
The men’s group was uneventful.
Peter talked about how great his kid was.
Everett said that his inability to take a holiday came from some very deep issues from his growing up days.
Hector was taking night courses to become more educated to get a job.
Warren made the point that he was going to have to change his way of thinking if he wanted to get a job. I listened and said everything was alright.
Warren was asked if another guy could join the group by Dr. Joe. We all said yes if Jim from Nait was not coming back
The weather was cold on Friday and I did not feel like going out. I had bought some sweats and lounged around the apt. in the evening. I woke up feeling more tired than if I had gone out. I played squash with Warren on Saturday morning with Ron joining us. I had some good games but am in no mood to beat Ron. He displayed a great deal of restraint and it was enjoyable playing against him. I felt better after the games and may go out to movie tonight.
I had a look at some two bedroom apt. on the south side of the river that might work with Derek and me. I will discuss it further when we meet to do up the RRSP’s this coming week.
Cory called last night and we discussed the calendar he has created. I ordered 10 and he will send them out for me to pass onto the interested people. Work is good for him with Greg. There is still nothing with the film industry but it is not a high priority for him. Biking has not been that good with the terrible weather in Toronto but with March coming, things should get better.
I called Gillian last night to get the latest information on her house problems. She continues the hectic activity and has been able to get many more people involved with the decision making process. The letter to the people and city department has taken on a life of its own and has many people falling over themselves to be involved in the final draft. It is interesting how her energy makes so many people run around in frenzy. The neighbors continue to play their word games to frighten the block of people.
Simon is coming back with Katie to take charge of the situation and should be a stabilizing influence.
I am not sleeping well and have not been laughing enough.

A Year quietly ends

2006-08-08T14:51:00.000-07:00

Sunday, Nov. 24 -Monday, Nov. 25- sunny -3, Grey Cup day is over

Both Montreal and Edmonton’s football teams played well on a field that was slippery because of the ice and snow. Edmonton never led in the game although they tried to come back but fell two points short. People in Edmonton were disappointed but there is always next year. I closed early and watched the Grey Cup game at home.
I successfully resisted the urge to call Susan
The following afternoon John dropped by the show home and we got caught up on what was happening in the house building industry. He is feeling better after his recuperation in the hospital and looks OK.
We talked about our families and how they grow up. He expressed the feeling that he should have gone on his own before settling down into the family business.
After he left I contacted the clients I am dealing with.
Warren is in Vancouver so I will be playing squash with Hector tonight.
Traffic is slow and will continue this way till January. I have enough deals in the process I will be alright.
Warren called Saturday before I got home and we went out to Brewster’s for supper and talked about the events in our lives over the past two weeks.
He talked about Jeff possibly coming to the group meeting.

Sunday, Dec. 1, Sunny with clouds, + 6
The week went by quickly with a couple of people interested in building homes, touring the showhome.
I did up a floor plan and price quote for Ryan. He came in and looked over the numbers and plans. He decided that $500k was a bit much and would like a quote for a home about 2000 sq. ft. and $300k. He is a nice fellow to deal with. Things should move along quickly until he goes on holiday in the middle of the month.
Played squash with Warren on Saturday and won in spite of the sore toe I had.
Lil called and left a message. I called back but have heard nothing so far.
The weather has been very warm, in the plus 10’s over the week but a cooling trend is forcast for this coming week. Toronto has been getting a great deal of snow because of the moist air brought in by the jet stream.
Derek is golfing in Vancouver this last week and will be getting back on Monday; tough life.
Dana called last week to ask for some money to settle some debts with his phone company and assorted debts before he moved into Stephanie’s place. This will be the last of the money that is available for him now that he is moving in with a woman. He will have to work for his rent and do other things for his spending money.
Now that I am on my own, my feelings about past relationships are changing as I knew they would. I am thinking of the type of woman that I might become involved with and really have no concept of what she might be like. Will it is always this way? One never knows who might turn the corner but I am smiling at everyone.
I am spending some time for the Christmas bureau sitting at the Westin during the month of December.
Even the fine weather has not increased the showhome traffic flow.
John and his brothers are doing well but had a hectic week catching up on small items before the Christmas break.
Carol is a little calmer than she was when I left but only because her sister, Gloria, is not around.
Everett displayed some anger when he was talking about himself last week. He is finally getting over blaming other people for his mistakes and problems.
Hector is happy doing the volunteer work and had an appointment to create a medical support job similar to the one his brother is doing out east.
Everything else is managing their lives nicely.
I had a very pleasant coffee with Shirley. She was very pleased that I had searched out her home town and brought back the local paper. We are to get together and watch Devin play hockey in the next several weeks when the weather cools enough for the ice to freeze on the outdoor skating rinks.

Wednesday, Dec. 4 Sunny, -9
The week has become easier as it has progressed.
Lucy and her husband came in on Monday to complete the deal with John because she was not comfortable dealing with me. They came in on Wednesday to sign off the conditions and give a cheque. The conditions come off on Dec. 15 so the deal should be complete by the beginning of the year.
I am going to the comedy evening at the Citadel on Saturday and have asked Warren if he is free to go.
Gillian called to say that her dog, Sidney, was taken from the front of “Jerry’s work out” place. Everyone that knows Sidney is quite upset about his disappearance. Sidney was found several hours later tied to a post in a nearby alley.
The weather has turned quite cold but comfortable for this time of the year.
Chris asked if I would be the Santa Claus for his group of people on Sunday; I said I would be pleased to do so. What is the worst thing that can happen? Is it the age, or the confidence that has created this situation? Maybe there will be a present for Santa, a darling single woman that wants to do right by Santa this year.

Saturday, Dec. 7 Sunny – 2 nice winter day.
Traffic is slow today with people trying to find a reason to build a home.
Irvine said there was no traffic on Thursday.
John dropped by for a short time after talking to some of our builders in the area.
We are starting to dig the basement for another of my client’s home this week.
I will be doing the Santa thing for Chris and his community league on Sunday. Again what is the worse thing that can happen?
I am going out to some theatre comedy tonight. I asked Warren to come along but he is unable although Sally tried to get her friend Donna to come along but was unable to arrange the meeting.
Our annual Christmas supper meeting with Dr. Joe was very successful on Thursday. Everyone had a great time even thou the place was noisy and it was a little hard to hear what was being said.
The following night I watched some Basketball on TV and then went out for coffee.
All in all I am feeling quite alright with the situation. Sometimes I think I am missing out when I do not have a woman around me but this is just my little boy commenting on my situation.

Sunday, Dec. 8, Monday, Dec. 9- sunny + 6 weather is unseasonably warm
Sunday went by quickly with some good traffic with the warm weather. A woman who is quite interested in the new starter home came in to discuss building process. She needs a home quickly and we might fill the bill.
I spent a good deal of my time thinking about the evening event; my playing Santa Claus for Chris and his community league. It was a fabulous experience. The look on the faces of the children when Santa came in, was priceless. Their actions and responses made the experience more fulfilling for me than I would have thought. I came off the evening on a great high. It was great to take part in the evening and had everyone said that I seemed to be a natural at how I handled things. I feel privileged that Chris and Karen would invite me to do such a thing. Another fear is conquered in my life. I might have another calling in the future: “a masked person who does things”.

Saturday, Dec. 14, warm, + 6, sunny, a glorious winter week
The week went by quickly with a great deal of activity on my part.
Theatre on Saturday, Santa on Sunday, squash with Warren on Monday, Christmas Bureau on Tuesday, Rest on Wednesday, Lunch with Mother on Wednesday, Lunch with Cynthia on Thursday, Mens’ group with a new addition -Jim L on Thursday, and morning coffee with Sheila at the Second Cup and laundry on Friday.
Still I was feeling very lonely during the week until I had a good discussion with Warren after the mens‘ group. He talked about what would be wrong with maintaining a friendship with Susan on her terms and not trying to control the situation to my satisfaction. It made sense until I started thinking about the rational and then rejected the concept. I am still trying to sort the whole idea out; maybe I am just tired.
Sheila and I had a meaningful conversation over coffee on Friday morning. She shared some feelings and thoughts with me relating to her time spent in Toronto. It was an intimate conversation on her feelings in respect to a man in her life and how she was treated. She was very comfortable talking about what she had done and how the situation unfolded. She asked my opinion to clear up some confusion that was working in her mind. It brought us a great deal closer.
Dr. Joe sent a new participant, Jim, to the group. He participated at an entry level that was much further along than any of us had started at. He has a concern with his anxiety and panic attacks. His lack of self esteem and personal worth makes him fit into the group. He seemed to become comfortable with what was discussed and is looking forward to coming next week when we have supper at a nearby restaurant.
Everett called to deal quickly with the referral fee that we had discussed about the work project I given him. I will invoice him next year. Perhaps it will help him make some quick decisions in his other projects. Peter still has a back problem that is not getting better, his desire to control Linette continues to frustrate his feelings and aggravate his back.
Warren was called back by Stantec to continue their talks with him about his project.
I am going out to spend the evening with Derek and Viola on the farm.
Wayne Easter, of the NFU days, has been promoted to be Solicitor General of Canada. What a long way he has come from being on the NFU board and working to change the profile of Canada back in the 70’s. Who would have thought? I will have to discuss this with Derek and Viola tonight.
I saw Danielle at the cash counter of the Casino that was holding a fund raiser for the Woman’s Shelter. It was pleasant to see her again, I almost did not recognize her since she changed her appearance. She did her little dance when she saw me (always performing). I said it was nice to see her and she was just polite???.
What else should I expect? That she should ask me into the cash change booth and seduce me- well yes? What is with this death wish??????????????????????

Anyway just some thoughts on a lovely December day. More on Sunday.

Sunday, Dec. 15, Sunny, + 6 another very warm December Day
Drove out to Derek and Viola’s place for the evening. Derek made supper for us (Pheasant that he had shot) while we spent the evening catching up on the near past, kids and such. Had a good sleep and then helped Derek move a filing cabinet into the sunroom at the back of the house. Drove back to work in the morning.
Had some people come in who were interested in building the Pinehurst on a lot down the street. They said they would come in today and leave me a wish list and maybe a deposit to hold the lot.

Sunday, Dec. 22, cold, -18, sunny with ice crystals. Nice pre xmas day
I had breakfast with Fred and Sue at Rosie’s in Sherwood Park; nice to chat with them. Ben, their youngest son, is doing well at the RCMP training in Regina. Fred and Sue seem to be doing well. He is off work till next week. Kelsey and her daughter have moved back into the family home to live for a while.
Cory called last night to say he was well, but working a lot and was tired. He had not received the Christmas package yet but will look for it in the mail.
The men’s group had supper at Brewster’s on Thursday with Jim showing up.
I bought a small scale 4 wheel quad for Hector as a gift relating to his accident. His dislocated shoulder is healing well. He is not in as much pain but still needs someone to get him around.
I played squash with Warren on Saturday. Ron came along since he was in town from Fort Mac. Ron certainly has a great deal of anger and frustration in him. Not a fun person to play squash with. He plays an intimidation game that is not much fun to be part of.
I had a good coffee meeting with Sheila on Friday morning. She wanted to get together before she and her son, Devin, left for California on Sunday. She passed on a small gift for my place. She also invited me to a New Years day lunch with her friends. Some warm feelings are passing between us, although I expect that it is because I am lonely and she is warm. I will have to be careful that this does not go anywhere. We will have to be adult about this issue, whatever that means. She alluded to going skiing in Jan. or maybe I just heard it that way.
Work is good with talks continuing with Iona and Kevin.
Mother was in a good mood when I talked to her on the phone on Thursday. She was going to the awards dinner with Grace for her son’s school football team.
Lesel is in town with Kale, her boyfriend, for a short visit. They are staying at her mother’s place. I doubt that I will see her this time. She will be back in January for Ukrainian Christmas.
This has been a great year even with Susan making the turn sideways.
Personally, things are good although I feel sad. My relationship with my sons is great. They are doing things well and learning.
The next year will bring new challenges for them that they will meet and conquer. Things will occur in my life that I have no knowledge and will please me. Work will be very productive and rewarding. The travel that will occur in the next 12 months will be a great deal of fun. My flying will please and relax me.

Friday, Dec. 27. Warm, +2, sunny
The week off has been quite relaxing.
Called Susan to wish her the best of the season; such an adult thing to do.
Went over to Cheryl’s on Xmas day and chatted with her for the afternoon. Then I stopped by for a drink at Warren’s in the evening. Sally was there for supper playing the little girl role.
Boxing day, I went over to Fred and Sue’s place for a late supper. It was nice to sit around with them and talk about out lives.
I did some shopping on Friday, had an oil change on the car and just kicked around. Talked to the boys over the last few days; they and their women are ok. Cory said that Dana and Stephanie are going to the Caribbean for a week in Jan. Stephanie seems to be treating Dana quite nicely.
Gillian called to say that she was changing the way she interacts with Jason.
I hope that she does.
Mother went to Grace’s for Xmas dinner.

Sunday, Dec. 29. -3, snowing
Winter and all the beauty it offers has arrived. It snowed about 5 inches overnight.
I had a scotch by myself and solved the problems of the world.
Not working today.
I will meet with John at the office on Monday and discuss some business pertaining to a client who wants a new home built.
Louise, Susan’s sister, has a hard time understanding that Susan enjoys being alone on Xmas. Oh well. Mother and I had a discussion today about going for lunch. She is all dined out and will wait till the eighth to have lunch. She has all sorts of stories about what happened over the season.
I will have to arrange to get caught up with my flying on the Piper so I can get in some more flying. It depends on how much time I have in the coming months to fly relative to the demands of the selling. Susan R has expressed an interest in working for me and sitting in the starter home showroom.
I will have to talk to John when the home is ready and see if he is interested in having some other than Irvine work for us.

My Autumn trip

2006-07-18T16:46:00.000-07:00

Sunday, Sept. 15, sunny and warm a beautiful fall day +23
I lost all that I had written up about Susan and I not being together for a while when the program crashed and I had not saved it. Oh well.
Susan and I had coffee on Friday evening. I re keyed her door locks so one key would work all the locks. We chatted for a while and then I informed her that I would not be seeing or talking to her for a couple weeks to let this confusion settle. She was taken aback a little but accepted what I said. Susan and her sister, Louise came by my Showhome on Saturday. They stayed for a while and then went on to some other show homes.
In the evening I went to an NDP supper that celebrated 40 years of the Alberta New Democrats. I talked with and saw a lot of people that I have not met for many years.
A long time friend, Ross Harvey was back from BC. Don and Noreen, long time party faithful were present. It was a pleasure to see them again, especially Noreen with her red shoes. Rhona and Allen Eng were in the audience but left before I could talk to them. I sat next to Nick Duchinski, one of the first CCF MLA’s. He was elected and represented the Willingdon area for 8 years. It was a pleasure talking to him and hearing some of his stories. One of his sons, a lawyer, was at the table also; this boy could use a sense of humor.
Viola and I chatted a little and I asked her advice about the situation with Susan and I took her comments to heart. I told her that Susan did not realize that I did not go back to a relationship after it was ended and I did not see a future with Susan with what has happened.
I golfed with Derek, Alex M and Ivor Dent on Friday morning as part of the event. It was fun and I did quite well. I scored better than Ray. He will try to get retribution at the golf game we have coming up on Wednesday.
I booked a golf tee time with Derek at the Northern Bear for the end of the month. This should be fun. I owe him a game so the day will be on me. The course is in only fair shape with the lack of rain. It should still be better than we are.
Left messages for Cory and Dana on Wednesday, Sept 11 to let them know that I was thinking about how they were feeling on the one year anniversary of the tragedy in New York. Cory emailed back and said he would call Sunday. He said he was busy till then. Dana did not respond.
I talked to mother a little about the event and she ended up talking about two young women that were killed in a traffic accident north of the city. We are to have lunch on Wednesday.
Cheryl is busy. Her life is still hectic. We plan to have a golf game this coming week.
Traffic is slow but the deals I have, are coming together with a couple more agreements to be concluded in the near future.
I had a great meeting with Shuster and his lady and will do a deal with them when the new lots appear in Lewis Estates.
Things are moving along and I will deal with everything as they appear.

Sunday, Sept 15, Tuesday, Sept 17, Sunny +18
Three days past and no contact with Susan, getting a little easier but I still miss her. I hope that she is fairing well and comfortable with her new direction.
Traffic is quiet with my making contact with a client to move the situation along. I contacted his banker and suggested she call him.
I had lunch with mother at the Casino for a change of venue. She went to play the nickel slots after a good conversation during lunch. I played a little 21; won some money which I left with her. She seemed pleased. She said that Cheryl was not happy with Kurt and had written him a letter to help him along. Cheryl is having some people over on Saturday for son’s birthday. I will drop by after work and pick up mother.
Warren and I had a good game of squash. He won but it was a good game.

Sunday, Sept. 22 Cloudy windy, +9, cool fall day
Fall is coming with the cooler temperatures.
Cory said the weather has been warm in Toronto. He and Dana have been working quite steadily for the past week. He is feeling good about himself and now wants me to send up his red tool box and the items inside of it. Dana may have called last night but I missed it.
Gillian called on Friday but it was late and I was not around.
I attended Cheryl’s son’s birthday party last night after work.
Mom was already at the party.
Lesel and Kali were in town from the US for the weekend. Cheryl’s Mom and friend, Carol, were at the party also. Marlon was present for the evening. Lesel was going to meet up with Terry and Merci in Calgary on Sunday before they flew out on Monday. Lesel is looking quite good and seems happy.
Cheryl mentioned to mother about Susan so I had to explain the confusion that she is feeling at the moment.
Susan sent me an e mail about the clean up job at her condo and expressed that she was unhappy with the work they had done. So be it. I will talk to her in about a week, although I do not know what I will be saying. I doubt whether this will go any where. She will probably call soon.
Went to Ocean Sports store and talked to Grant about the SCUBA course that was coming up. We talked about the sale that was on and what I would need to dive in different parts of the world. I took a break and called Warren to see whether he had time to come down to the shop and look at what was available. We meet at four in the afternoon and by five thirty, I had spent $2300 for the equipment and signed up for the course that is to start on Oct. 1. Warren said that I saved about $1000. I am looking forward to the course and doing some diving in the southern warm waters next year.
Lesel said that she has done some diving and really enjoys it. I am excited about trying out something new. What else is money to be used for? It should be an exciting time next year.
The traffic has been slow but constant over the past week. The meeting with Norman and Janelle went well with the final condition off by next Oct. 1. Al Beaudoin says our lot is to shallow for the house he wants but wants us to look for a lot in Clarkdale or Heritage Hills.
The Melcor lots should be made available on Monday or Tuesday next week. I will be able to call Layton and Shuster with the numbers and design. John has given me a price list for the new year sales effective on Oct. 4/02. It will be about a 5% increase.
Warren and I had our squash game on Thursday evening because he was going to Fort Mac to see Ron over the weekend. He will be back on Sunday for our game on Monday. His work has slowed down and the waiting game starts in regards to his computer program and investments. He will be taking some consulting work in Eastern Canada to make some money. He will be doing about 5 weeks over the next two months.
I am missing Susan but not nearly in the same way that it was with Danielle. I am not sure how she is fairing. I do not think she will be able to work herself past the religious difficulties that she has created. I am sure I am not willing to go back with the new circumstances.

“Life has to be lived and dealt with on a day to day basis. Living with no expectations is quite a relief.”

Warren and my conversation with the young women that were playing squash was refreshing and humorous both during our interaction and after when Warren and I had supper and discussed the event. Some of Warren’s comments about the women in particular and in general are quite funny.
Peter and Georgette are creating a fight with the land developer in Donsdale that they are not going to win. All they are going to do is frustrate themselves and not end up with what they want.

Sunday, Sept. 29 Cloudy, Showers +11
This week went by uneventfully.
Played squash Monday and Saturday with Warren and had some good games.
I spent several hours reading the material for the SCUBA course. It is interesting reading. The course starts on Tuesday, Oct. 1.
I went golfing on Thursday with Derek at the Northern Bear followed on Friday with Ray at his Fort in View course. Both days scored about 85. The Northern Bear course is very nice and easy to play. It would be expensive playing it many times but once a year would be nice.
Finally got some information for the Melcor lots in Potter Greens and sent the info to Layton and called Shuster. Gordon called back to say they really needed a walk out lot but thanked me for the time and effort since I did not have access to any walk out lots.
I booked my flight to Toronto and passed on the information to Dana and Cory. They both have been working as much as possible and will continue to do so because of the number of films in the area.
Cory was sounding very good and is enjoying what he doing. Cory took SCUBA in high school and has his pool ticket but has not done any open water. He said he really enjoyed the feeling of the water environment.
Cheryl called on Saturday to chat but I was not available. I will get back to her today.
Warren is starting to get more aggressive in trying to close the investors for his program. His mentor has passed on his thoughts on how Warren should get people to get more involved in the program.
Peter has done nothing more about his lot and house, but perhaps he is not saying anything.
Hector is very involved in the organization that helps the children that have changes in their life.
Had some traffic on Saturday, with a couple coming in to put lot 4 on hold and obtain some pricing on a house.
Craig came in with his realtor. He is progressing on his plan to sell his home and build a new home. I am not sure how to tell him that lot 4 has a hold on it. I will let things play out as they may. I will talk to John about the situation tomorrow. We should have a response from Norman about what package he wants to go with for his new home.
Was able to meet Susan for coffee in the evening at Tim H. Time and events have not changed from her view. I would have been disappointed if they had. Her conviction on moral grounds is very strong. I do not presume to understand but she is serious. This is not something that she wishes to give up but she must do it at the moment- “since nothing is forever”. She is having as difficult a time as I am but this is reality and we will do what has to be done. It is a shame but…….
Cheryl called to say that she and Daryl are having a little bit of disagreement but after talking to her; she was able to put some perspective on the situation. I suggested that they were getting too close to be comfortable and not giving each other enough space. He is starting to smother her and she is feeling a bit overwhelmed by the total situation and is backing up. When she does this he gets concerned that she is leaving and tries to move closer to her, causing her to be more concerned.
Dana called to say his ankle is OK; he is continuing to climb the indoor stone walls and doing well. He is working continuously with no end to the work in the near future. He is in a good mood and is enjoying himself.

Sunday, Oct. 6, Raining, +8, cloudy
Went to the first class for the SCUBA lessons; very exciting and successful. Did the class with about 10 other people, some older, some younger; Two fathers, one with his young daughter and one with his young son; a couple (guy and girl) about 25-30. We all seemed at ease with the instruction, requirements and lessons. Breathing under water with the equipment the first time was a unique experience. Movement in the water is slower and more cumbersome than I remembered from snorkeling. It was a great experience but I found all the requirements quite manageable. I told Lesel about the situation. She was very happy for me and suggested that we get together down south sometime with some friends. The boys are excited that I am learning something new.
Warren was very pleased and said that I told him some things about diving he did not know. Next class is on Tuesday. I have some reading to do and am looking forward to it. I have read the SCUBA instruction book all the way through and will reread it on Tuesday.
Cheryl and Darrel broke up on the weekend. She got very frustrated with his smothering and inability to express a personal opinion. She has to come to a realization that her demands are sometimes not realistic. She has such a high demand for excitement that it will challenge any relationship she has. I will have a coffee with her sometime in the future. We talked about golf but I do not think the weather will allow it.
The Debruyn deal came together this weekend and the Mitchell deal will be completed on Monday. The Yee deal fell apart; something I was expecting.
An out of town client asked me to create a design for their acreage home. I found some designs on the web page eplans. I will run them past John on Monday to see how and if we can make these adapt to the land and slope of the lot.
Warren said that Sally called to say that she was not feeling well and was canceling her yoga class.
I called Sheila to arrange a birthday supper in a couple of weeks. She will not be doing the newspaper column for the paper but will work on the editorial segment instead.
Terry and Mercy joined mom and me for lunch on Wednesday. They are busy dancing and had a good time at Henry’s daughter’s wedding.
Gillian is still unsettled about not being invited to Uncle Henry’s daughter’s wedding.

Sunday, Oct. 13. Sunny with strong breeze, +11
The week has gone by slowly.
Work was slow with the rough blue print for a client coming in on Friday. I dropped off the print for them and also the drawings and pictures for Brekkas, a new client
I purchased a small 35 mm camera so I could take pictures on the interior and exteriors of the homes we build.
The Brekkas dropped by on Saturday to comment on the house and look at the show home again. They are looking at different builders but we are in the running because of the personal service I am offering. Mitchell has not come back after our talk. He cannot seem to make a decision and is not moving ahead on anything.
The second lesson of the SCUBA course was great. The different activities are easy to accomplish and I am becoming comfortable with all that is asked of me. With all the equipment on I still cannot get out of the pool on my own. Oh well. We will have to do a swim and a water float in the fourth session, so I will have to get comfortable and get some instruction on how to do the float.
Odette suggested several different methods.
Played squash with a woman on Saturday morning before Warren made it to the court. It was enjoyable and I might show up early to do it again on Saturday mornings. The woman said that a group of women get together to play Saturday mornings; some of them might even be single.
Dana was given a very good birthday present when he heard that he was accepted into IATSE. This will happen in November. He will be getting some nice benefits and will be higher up on the hiring ladder. It should make for a better next year
Warren had contact with Jeff over the last week. Jeff physically collapsed and was in bed for a couple of weeks when Nora told him that she was not talking to him any more. Warren told him as much as he could to help him understand but Jeff did not seem to be able to understand the concept of total commitment to Victoria.
Hector had supper with Warren and me after the group meeting. We discussed Hector’s laid back attitude toward a job search and what was needed to be successful. I hope we were not too hard on him.
As Warren said –“Hector is lucky to have such good friends.”
The results for Peter’s medical tests have not come back in - which must mean that he is OK except for the stress in his life.
Cheryl and Darrel are back together again with a new visitation and living situation being worked out. We went golfing on Thursday for the last time this year. It was cool but we had fun. She has gained a awareness that she has control of her life and how she feels.
All for now.
Not feeling very well emotionally. I will be going to Warren’s for Thanksgiving supper on Monday.
Thanksgiving Monday was steady with a couple coming in who were committed to building a bungalow in the area. Some people who heard of the unique style of the showhome came thru to see home.
Got a call from Derek and Viola checking to see how I was feeling.
Sad times at the moment but day by day I will get through this. Have to check what was happening last year at this time.
Cory called a couple of days ago to say he was fine and had gone to Dana’s party. He sounded a little down but I was in no mood to cheer him up.

Saturday, Oct. 19, cloudy, rain, +12
This has been a busy week.
Dana’s birthday was on Tuesday, called him on Wednesday to chat a little. He was fine, taking the day off and was sleeping in. He will call this weekend I expect.
The third SCUBA class went well. The detached breathing lesson was not a problem. This week we have to do a swim and a ten minute float. I went to the pool with Warren last night and practiced the procedure. I feel the lesson will be OK. I will go again on Sunday to get more comfortable relaxing in the water.
Played squash with Warren twice this week with each of us winning a series.
Cheryl has been informed that the new owners were letting everyone go from the hotel and might be hiring a few back. She is supporting her staff and making the best of things. Nov. 15 is the termination date unless things change.
Made a couple of appointments with Dr. Tom; one for the Christmas dinner for the group on Dec. 5 and the other next Thursday to talk about the situation with Susan. I thought it was last Thursday but I checked the card and confirmed the time was not after the visit to the dentist, I am glad that it was not the same day. Still missing Susan, but in a more relaxed way.
I have been getting some interest from new clients on building homes in the area. I will have to contact them on Sunday if they do not come into the show home.
The Lesley deal is progressing nicely.
Derek and Viola are off to Finland on Wednesday to see their daughter and son-in-law for two weeks. He is looking forward to the trip and the time away, I told him to bring back something blond and Swedish for me.
I get to stay home tonight and watch some baseball, the first night home all week. Talk about being busy. The SCUBA stuff fills in the week. I am looking forward to going to the Caribbean and dive with Warren. The first time will be very exciting. We went out for a beer after swimming and had a great discussion about women and our lives.

Sunday, Oct 20, Drizzle, cloudy, + 4
Saturday was quiet with Cory calling to say all was OK except that he had a chest cold. He is making plans to be the best man for his buddy in Regina next week. The wedding has a medieval theme. He is excited about going. Work is starting to pick with his US client sending Cory more work. His thanksgiving dinner was fun at Margaret’s place.
Stayed home last night although I went out for coffee after watching the World Series game, San Fran won the first game over the Angels.
The Garage Showhome heater has not been hooked up yet and it is getting a little chilly with this damp weather. I will probably go over to the YMCA in the area and do some floating around in the water to get comfortable again. I will have to read the chapter on SCUBA and do the quiz to get ready for Tuesday. Cory said that Dana had gone out of town with Stephanie over the weekend for a family thing and that he was taking care of the cats and enjoying the Play Station that Dana had received for his birthday. It was nice of him to take care of Dana’s belongings.

Saturday, Oct 26, Clouds and sun +2
Day after my birthday; the big 54.
I enjoyed a very good day. Went swimming and got my stroke down for the lengths, then played Warren squash and tied him after 6 games.
Sheila took me out for a great supper and interesting conversation. When I picked her up I got to see Devlin again; he is growing into a complete young man.
I was up and down emotionally all week.
Played squash with Warren and Hector on Monday evening. We had some very competitive games.
Work is progressing well although the financing has not come in for the Debruyn’s yet. This should not be a problem.
The SCUBA lesson went well although I completely failed the swimming portion of the evening. I had to be rescued by an instructor after running out of air and power, trying to keep up to a young 24 year old fellow. That is me, who has no plan B but had enough sense to call for help. I was able to float for 10 minutes and since have been swimming several times, figured out how to do the swimming requirements and enjoy it. I will do more practicing over the next few weeks. I went out and bought myself some birthday gifts at the SCUBA store- a mask, a knife and a couple of items for Warren. He is off to Victoria for a week to promote his business.
I had the session with Dr. Joe on Thursday which turned out very well. He was able to explain some things and offer another look at why Susan is doing things and my responsibility in the whole situation. Susan is probably not even aware of the reason she is doing some things.
Cory called to say that the collection people called him for money for his student loan. He called and we discussed the different options available to him. He is off to Jeff’s wedding this week in Regina.
Gillian called last night to wish me a happy birthday but I missed both her phone calls. She was in a weepy mood and perhaps it was best that we did not speak.
I had lunch with Cynthia on Friday to catch up on her life and things. She is slowing down and managing her life better she says. She is not searching to provide available women that would be a good match for me.
Peter offered up a name of a woman that he and Georgette have decided would be compatible for me.
At the men’s group I shared my session with Dr. Joe which prompted Warren to say that he would make an appointment to see him as a mental health day.
I will try to get Dana and Cory to see Dr. Tom individually when they are in Edmonton sometime next year. I think it will do them good to be comfortable seeing someone when they have to.
Derek and Viola are in Finland since last Wednesday.

Sunday, Oct 27, Cloudy and cool +1
Susan, as a friend, took me out for a birthday supper last night; pleasant but awkward. Nothing I would recommend doing but her heart was in the correct place.
Cory called last night to wish me happy birthday and say that he was fine and enjoying himself in Regina.
Sheila had suggested that we go skiing together in the winter. How this would work I am not sure but we should discuss it later.
The Angels came back to win game six of the World Series and even the score three games each. They will play the final and seventh game tonight for the championship.

Saturday, Nov. 2, Sunny +6
The weather over the past few days have been quite grand. Indian summer, as they said before the politically correct days.
I have been swimming over the past few days to get ready for the swimming test on Tuesday after the exam. My plan is coming along well and I am learning how to swim in different ways so my confidence is greater.
Played squash with Warren this morning to a draw. He got back from Vancouver on Thursday for the group meeting. We had an enjoyable time discussing our feelings and the events in our lives. Everett passed on a book for Warren that was making sense to Everett. Warren said that Jeff was coming into town on Nov. 21 for a week and would stop in at the group.
I will not be back from Toronto in time to be at this meeting.
Mother and I went to the theatre last night. Strange plays but the time we spent together was enjoyable.
Susan might have liked it because it dealt with the Catholic Church and the teaching done by a nun. Susan probably knows more about that sort of thing than the nun anyway.
Gillian called to discuss my visiting arrangements and suggested that I stay at her place first and at the boys later. I said that it had been arranged with the boys for them first and I would put in an appearance at her place later. I was glad that I was able to say that and not feel bad.
I stopped in to see Nora at Grant Mac when I was leaving the swimming regime. She is working in the registrar’s office now. We chatted for a moment and then I went on my way. I reminded to her to call me. I will see what comes of it.
Cheryl and I had coffee at her hotel. Her last day at work will be Thursday. She had three interviews with a downtown Edmonton hotel and was going back for another one next week. She was quite confident that she will find a new position. Her relationship with Darrell is off again. She is creating a hectic life style that makes her feel in control.
The people at the theatre were average except one woman that was exceptional looking. Tall, long black hair dressed in a simple pair of slacks and a shirt; very striking. She was very pleasant to look at. If I had more confidence I would have said something to her, although I did come close enough to cross her path and exchange smiles; never have been good at breaking the ice. Have to keep practicing.
The money from my client will not come in till Wednesday now. Lawyers have to look at it and process the paperwork
Hopefully I will be able to get paid before I leave. Things certainly are slow here.
John was admitted to the hospital yesterday after a blood clot in his leg went up to his lungs. I will have to phone Chris and check up on his condition.

Sunday, Nov. 3- Wednesday, Nov. 6 Cloudy +6
The morning rain but has stopped now; the roads should dry off by the evening.
Well, the SCUBA training and exams were successfully completed last night. I have passed all the required items to do my open water test in May next year. The exam went well with only 3 wrong answers out of 50 questions. I did not read the words correctly on one question and did not remember the answers to 2 other questions. The swimming went well with the pacing that I imposed on myself. Each student finished off the course with small items they had not been done during the 5 week course. The weeks went by quickly and everyone is quite comfortable with being in the water.
I am ready for the trip tomorrow to Toronto to see my sons and sister, Gillian. They sound well over the phone and are looking forward to seeing me.
Gillian had phoned and is arranging my schedule in her city.
Cheryl was offered a new job as a banquet coordinator at a city hotel and is starting on Tuesday. She will be taking me to the airport in the morning.
I will be calling Sharon when I am in Toronto to ask her for coffee to catch up on what is happening. I will contact her by email to allow her the chance to say no without talking to me directly. She is in a photo of the staff and managers at the Research center in Waterloo. Still looks the same as we all do. I expect I do wish to see the changes that have occurred.
The traffic for the homes is slow but not unusual for this time of year.
John is still in the hospital on blood thinners and will be released on Friday. He will be taking blood thinning pills for 6 months to come.
Not much more to write. I am sure there is more but emotionally I chose not to make them real by putting them to paper.
I got through October by being busy with the SCUBA stuff and now I am into November and December; the festive times of the year. Things should move along quickly with all the women that the guys, Peter and Dana, are arranging for me.

Saturday, Nov. 23, Cloudy, -4
The past two weeks in Toronto have been quite the experience.
Dana and Stephanie meet me in the airport. She is a very nice young, aggressive woman, suited to Dana. We drove to Dana’s place and met Cory who was waiting for us. Margaret, Cory’s girlfriend, was not able to come for supper with us that night, she was not feeling well. I spent most of my time sleeping over at Cory’s place and visiting with Dana.
Cory and Margaret had me over for supper one night and then we went to the Club where she dances. I got a taste and a feeling of the Goth night club scene which they are involved in; Margaret more that Cory. Spent one on one time with Cory when he showed me where he bikes and travels during his spare time. Dana was not working but showed me where he does his wall climbing with Stephanie.
The games that Cory and Dana play on their computers are quite fascinating and all the rage at the moment. “Max Payne”, a detective scenario, is Cory’s game which I can get and play on my computer. “Grand Theft Auto” is Dana’s birthday present which can be played on the X box units.
Drove down to Listowel to see the countryside where Sheila grew up so I had to pass through Waterloo and Kitchener.
I was able to leave a message for Sharon when I passed through Kitchener the first time. Because there was no response after a day, I called back to her secretary to be sure she received my message. She chooses not to make contact; keeping to her statement that she was no longer going to talk with me. I am saddened by this response but do understand it. Very little would come of a brief meeting except confusion and sadness.
Contacted Bill Walsh, my previous flight instructor, and spent a couple of days in London with him. He was able to arrange a flight in a new aircraft they use for instruction. It is a gem of a plane. The Flight instructor that took me up was a superb pilot.
The brunch that Gillian had on Sunday for Simon, Kati, the boys and girlfriends was delicious but was disrupted by Jason and his antics. He made a mess of the girls’ weekend the following week when he was out of control again. I had a good chat with Kati with what was happening in Simon and their lives at the moment.
On Monday, I moved back to Gillian’s place to sleep over. Spent a couple of days talking with her about her lifestyle and what she was doing and wanted to do, if anything.
On Wednesday evening, went out for supper with Val, longtime friend of Gillian, and Gillian to a nice Greek place and talked about what was happening in Val’s life.
Meet Cory and Dana for lunch on Thursday before I flew back to Edmonton.
The Air Canada desk agent was able to route me straight through to Edmonton.
Friday was spent catching up at the office, making a few phone calls, grocery shopping and just relaxing.
The financing for Debruyn is still not complete but the paper process is continuing.
John is out of the hospital and getting around but is taking it slow.
Played squash with Warren on Saturday morning.
Ron and Cindy his girlfriend were in attendance for a couple quick squash games.
It was apparent, by our awkwardness, that we have not been playing squash for a few weeks.
Warren is going to Vancouver on Tuesday or Monday.

A Hot and Sweaty Summer

2006-07-02T11:20:00.000-07:00

Wednesday, June 26, +33 sunny

The week continues to be very hot with no rain till Saturday.
Squash was good with Warren on Monday, although he won the games because his guests from Holland were watching and he felt compelled to do so.
Pat T. came by to pick up the floor plan for her home; she will be back with her husband on the weekend. Raj continues to call to set a time for a meeting on Friday to keep things moving along.
Gillian got on the plane Monday and is back in Toronto. I will have to call her to make sure she is OK. Susan is going on her kayaking trip next week.
I will have some time to golf next week; possibly with Cheryl.
I had lunch with Steve N on Tuesday to see how he was doing. Still the same old confusion in his life. He is not doing anything enjoyable at the job but he feels that having a place to go to, is better than anything else. We are to go flying in the next week or so.

Sunday, June 30, windy and some clouds+22

Thundershowers with steady rain in the evening are forecast.
Finally some moisture for this area, even tho it did not extend very far east. The moisture was a welcome relief. Traffic was slow but with some units in the works everything is ok. Raj came in on Friday to meet with John and I to fine tune the final plans. He went away happy and will get back to us on Monday. Pat T is to come in today with her husband but what she actually does is yet to be decided. Mrs. Powers called today to come have a look at Andy’s home. She said they will come in today or Monday which is a holiday. The lots still have not been released across the way but the time is getting closer. I have had two people come in and ask about when we will have information on the lots. Soon, there will be more sales.
Susan is leaving on Tuesday for the coast.
I was going to go golfing with Cheryl but she said work has become a little busy so we will postpone it. Gillian called and left a message that mom had hung up on her when she called. A 2 A.M. call from Gillian?
Cory said that he was up north with his girl and would call tonight.
I went golfing at Barrhead on Thursday. I was with three older fellows who golfed in the high 70’s. What a lesson I received from them about golfing. The hot weather was very difficult and I am still tired but feeling a little better.
I had coffee with Shirley on Friday. She looks very good and has really enjoyed the time in Toronto but is glad to be back and in the slower paced Edmonton. She enrolled Devin, her son, into summer hockey because he asked. She is a very good mother and is doing very well in that role. We talked only a little about our personal lives. Do not know what she did or who she met when she was in Toronto. She said that she got to know her sisters better during the time in Toronto.
Mother seems a little off at the moment. I would expect that she is feeling lonely and does not want to show it. She said we would do lunch in a week and a half. OK by me.
Dana called last week but I have not heard from him since then.
Hector showed up for squash on Saturday morning. He played well and was able to beat me in a set. The kids are gone with their mother for three weeks and he is feeling a little lonely. I expect he will be showing up for squash more often now. He is going to get some better equipment and a tensor bandage for his arm before Monday when we play again.
Susan is far away in her own busy land and is spending time doing things that are important to her. At the moment we are not spending too much time together. I am ok with it and am not focusing on these moments. Saturday night we were to go out but she was so tired from attending a funeral and all, that she took a nap. She was sleeping so soundly that I did not have the heart to wake her up. I took Dusty, the dog, for a walk and then went home.
Still have not heard from her today.
Perhaps later.

Sunday, July 7, Sunny, small windy, +27
The weather has turned nice again after some cool weather with scattered showers. Some rain is coming from the West Coast tomorrow.
Pat T. came by with her husband on Saturday to finalize the contents of the house and sign off on all the paper. She will drop by before Thursday with a checque for the 10%. The blue prints will be ready by the time I get back from holidays. Raj met with me on Wednesday to finalize the blue print and will drop off a cheque this week. John has sent the paper to get the blue prints ready.
Susan was off on Tuesday to do her kayaking. We talked a little about the lack of time we were spending together. Nothing much we can do about it at the moment. I will try not to be too needy. I am picking her up next Saturday. She has not called. I expect she is still on the water with her companions.
Hector got word from his employer that his job is being eliminated as of Sept 1. He had a little difficulty with it in the beginning but is working his way through it. We are giving him all the emotional support and suggestions that we can. His new girlfriend is helping also.
Cory and Dana are fine. They are working at their pace and are comfortable with what is happening. Dana said he was having a meeting with a producer for the production that is to occur in Sask. during the fall. It would be a confidence booster if he was able to do the production.
Cory is in a good mood with the new lady in his life. Sound good.
The new lot information is still not available for my clients but will be ready for the end of the month. If they came sooner I would have to get busy with the new deals that I would put together.
I talked to Derek and have arranged to meet with him on Wednesday in Fairmont to go golfing. With his invitation to go down and spend some time with him in BC I am a little disappointed that it will only be for one day. The time and terms of the invitation change more than one realizes.
I golfed with Cheryl on Friday and another couple. They worked for Investors Group; she was an accomplished golfer and played well. Cheryl did very well considering how busy she is with the new boss at work and the renovation to her back yard.
Her father, Terry is helping. He has arranged to have some of his friends, who are experienced in back yard renovations help for a couple of days. They are pouring cement on Tuesday.
I may show up if I have a few extra minutes. Cement bull work is not something I want to do much of.
Warren has asked me to come over for a BBQ in the evening. I will show up with some wine and ice cream.
My eyes have been giving me problems over the past few days. I am using eye drops although the results are questionable. The solution seems to be soaking and them washing them out every morning. The crud build up irritates the eyes throughout the day and is quite frustrating. I will have to keep at it.
Everett was at the group meeting on Thursday. His 25 year wedding anniversary is this month. He has made no definite plans to celebrate this event on a personal level with Louise. There is to be a large gathering of the family and friends but he cannot seem to bring himself to make plans for the two of them.

Wednesday, July 10, hot +31 clear, some wind
Finished lunch with mother, she was in a good talkative mood. We discussed Gillian and all her long term held anger.
The massage with Odette was very relaxing today. She found some bunched up muscles that she worked on and made better. She had a small accident that totaled her car and she is now in the process of getting a new one. She is in a good place in her mind but is a little uncomfortable feeling so relaxed.
Cory called to say that he is well and enjoyed watching the Word Series professional car races in Toronto. Susan called to confirm that her kayaking was fabulous, weather, people, place and attitude. She said that she would call later this week. It was good to hear from her.
The BBQ at Warren’s place was quite relaxing and it was pleasant to sit around with Sally, Hector and Warren talking about our past experiences.
Bob and Shirley, Warren’s friends from BC, dropped by at the evenings end. It was nice to put a face and experience to the names that Warren had mentioned.
I dropped by to see Cheryl’s work on her concrete patio. Terry, Lawrence and Daryl working to complete the project. I brought some donuts just to give them a break. Cheryl was helping out doing some of the concrete work.
The rain stayed away so the project was finished without any imperfections.

Sunday, July 14, Saturday, July 13, hot- hot-hot, +34 some clouds
Record heat temperatures have been enveloping Alberta during the past week, no rain and to dry for anything to grow.
Watched some golf at Glendale Golf Course. The Alberta Open, an amateur golf competition while cooking in the sun, the golf was great and it was an education to watch. Went golfing on Friday with Ray and had a good game.
Saturday I went to work after playing squash with Warren and Hector.
Ron, Warren’s friend, from Fort Mac was down to visit. His game is coming back but he is out of shape. He is not as good a player as he thinks he is. Hector is getting better.
Hector has some interviews this coming week with potential employers. He is quite excited. He managed to bother Judith, his current girlfriend, so much that she is slowing down the interaction between the two of them. They met 6 times in 3 weeks. Now she wants to be friends. Hector is quite frustrated. Oh well.
I learned that Arlene’s mother is not well. I left a message of concern. I felt it was the right thing to do. I should tell mother if I have a chance. We will have to go to the funeral.
Derek called to say we would talk on Tuesday to set up a golf game with he and his son in laws in Fairmont.
Susan is arriving home tonight and I will pick her up at the airport. It will be nice to see her again.
Traffic is slow because of the hot weather.
Raj and Kari came in to get the blue prints and he is spending time over them looking for ways that we can take advantage of him he feels. He is not a very trusting person. He is trying to make decisions for the both of them. He feels happy thinking he is in charge, I suppose.

Sunday, July 21/ cloudy/ sunny, some wind, +23
Well, what a week.
Just got back from holidays on Saturday morning.
I worked during the day although it was very slow. Irving called to talk a little and fill me in on the week. John met with Raj. He then talked to a couple that I sent in, that were interested in building on an acreage. I will talk with John on Monday to catch up.
The golfing was fantastic. The weather was hot+35 all week. I managed to get in 5 games in four days; 3 games at Kananaskis, one game with Derek and son in laws in Fairmont and one by myself at Eagle Ranch near Radium. The courses were very challenging but I managed to shoot a consistent 12 - 15 over par throughout the week, whether it was the first game or the last. Eagle Ranch had greens that were hardwood surface to them. It was a pleasure to putt on them. The gorges that we had to hit over were very beautiful and challenging. The people I golfed with from Montreal, New York, Calgary and Edmonton were a pleasure to golf with. The total week was a great experience with not having to worry about money and what things cost.
I spent an afternoon with Derek and family at a swimming pool after the golfing. Derek’s four young granddaughters are an energy source that does not stop. Scott and Anya are going to Finland for a year so he can play professional hockey. Things have turned out nicely for them. They made some money on their house and sold most of their furniture.
My car is fixed and I will pick it up on Monday.
I spent some time with Susan last night and gave her the birthday gift that came in while I was away.
Cory called last night to chat. Things are well with him. He has found out that his girlfriend has an allergy to pine wood and cannot go hiking with him in the mountains. He is quite disappointed but will work his way through it. He will come back to Alberta in the future because he loves the outdoors so much.
Dana sent an e mail requesting Lesel’s contact numbers today. I will talk to him later today or tomorrow.
I should book a session with Odette for the sore muscles that have invaded my body today. I will see how I feel later on in the week.
I missed the men’s session this last week. Peter will be back from his holidays and Hector will have been to his several meetings with potential employers.
I will call mother to arrange a lunch date later this week.
Cheryl and I will have to get together and arrange a golf game soon. I know that Ray M has arranged a game for us next Friday.
The accommodation at Radium Resorts was very nice and I expect that I will return to spend more time there. The whole valley is very beautiful and offers a great many things to do. I would like to golf Eagle Ranch and Trickle Creek with Derek in the future when we have the time.
The air conditioning in the rental car was a blessing and helped get through the week. It was nice to get into a cool car and just drive around. The nap I took in the car on the way back from Trickle Creek let me golf at Eagle Ranch later on in the day without having to go back to my hotel room.

Tuesday, July 23 +30, sunny
The two cheques for Raj and Thomas were dropped off at the office; so the deals are complete.
Carol, the receptionist at the office, came back to work for a few hours, she is still suffering from sinus infections.
John, Chris and I talked about selling the Cascade immediately and moving me to Fort. Sask. starting Aug. They have some lots with another builder there and some lots that are exclusive to Rock Solid. These are lane lots with a lower selling point, $165,000 which includes lot, house and GST. These are starter homes for the younger set. If the lots do not become available in Potter Greens from Melcor soon, then there will be no reason to stay here. It should be lucrative for a while.
Irving would keep this house open on the weekends. The company would pay for some of the time. The drive would be longer but it would be ok for a while.
My income is pleasantly substantial up to this point. The income tax will have to be paid in quarterly installments and the GST is up to about 3K. I will have to manage the money and put as much as possible in RRSP’s. I will have to talk to Derek and open up an account in Manulife to get some play on the interest rate of 2%.
Dana called last night and was in a good mood with some work this week and possibly next week. He said the plan to go to Sask. is coming together nicely. He is talking a little more grown up and says that he has learned a great deal over the past six months. He is either learning what to say to me or he is getting more mature.
Warren was working on some consulting work yesterday and could not make the squash game.
Hector came out and played a game before he hurt his shoulder. He is going to take some time off with his kids and rest and recuperate from his injuries.

Wednesday, 24
Meet with Derek to set up Manulife bank account and change PAC bank account numbers.
I talked with Chris who had heard from Melcor that the lots would not be available for this year. I will be moving to Fort Sask. at the end of the month. Irving will take over the house on the weekends.

Saturday, July 27, raining +20
Golfed on Friday morning with Ray M but it started raining and we were only able to do 9 holes. I got a rain check for another round of golf. The rain has continued over night and into this morning.
Susan has been busy. We had lunch on Thursday but she was busy with Ann and then Luke and Amanda on Friday night. I am feeling troubled with this lack of togetherness but am able to get past it.
Played squash with Ron and Warren on Saturday. Ron certainly does get angry when things do not go his way.
Hector was with his children this weekend.
I had a phone call from Brian and Christal stating they were coming in to work on the bungalow with the master bedroom in the basement.
Warren said he would drop by with his sister this afternoon.
Peter’s son Eric, is in hospital with an infection that the doctors are having trouble controlling. It would be tragic if anything should happen to him. Their marriage would not survive.
I talked to Gillian on Thursday night. She is not in a good place at the moment. Very tired and I think, drinking too much. She was almost incoherent when she called back to talk. Val, her friend, had gone home after they had been drinking all evening. Jason had been over to cook dinner and was sleeping on the couch. He has been over almost every day to have dinner, although he is cooking, Gillian said. Simon is working on a small project. The dog is with Gerry, Jason’s ex girlfriend, to the displeasure of Gillian.
The Pope’s visit will be over this weekend which means that some more movies will start production in Toronto so Dana and Cory will be able to get a substantial amount of work.
If it does not, they will have to deal with the consequences.

Sunday, Aug 4, cloudy, windy and cool. +15
The week has gone by quickly. It has been cool and raining all week. A steady downpour on Thursday, Friday with scattered showers on Saturday. Too late for this year’s crops but will help the grass situation for the cattle and pastures and the crops for next year. Tough times for the farming community.
I have not heard from the boys this week but I sense everything was good and the work was coming together. Dana said that he was going to the cabin in Manitoba with his girl. We have sent some e mails back and forth.
Susan has been busy all week with her friends and we spent the evening together last night. Went out for supper, played some tile games and went for a walk.
Holly spent an evening in the hospital this week; something to do with her pregnancy but all is OK now. She is seven months along but is comfortable with this one. Jason is making time for her and creating a nice balance in their lives.
I moved to the Fort Sask. show home on Saturday and am getting settled in during the week. The traffic is greater and different. Lower price point so more potential customers. Our Red Showhome is becoming well known and is drawing amount of local attention. I have had two good leads come around. One from out of town and one from in town. I am cleaning up a lot of the paper work that was left over from the Sherwood Park Showhome. It will take a week to get settled in and create the atmosphere that I want. The wall pictures have not arrived. John said he would be bringing them later this week.
I spent some time with mother and saw that her TV was in good shape and will not need replacing. I will have to call Terry and let him know.
Shirley and I had coffee to catch up on her activities. She had Devin in a hockey school for a week and is enjoying the experience. Her focus, more than ever, is on Devin and her life, not on her work. She has a better understanding the balance that is needed. We talked about our friendship and how important it is us. She is a lot more up front in asking questions about what I am doing in my relationships to other women. It is nice to have her clarity in my life.
Warren has sent his guests home and now will get back to a quieter life style. He had a good time with his sister and brother in law. They went fishing several times and enjoyed the experience.
Susan is getting more focused on Mathew and the new baby that is coming, baby clothes and all that. Her friends are getting more involved in her life now that she is in the middle of town. It is nice for her.
Hector is with his kids camping this week.
Peter and Linette in Manitoba. Everett sat in with me on Thursday and chatted about property acquisition for an income concept. He is moving along but still unsure of how to relate to Louise in a non working environment.
I will have to talk to Gillian soon to see how she is doing.
Cheryl has given notice at her job and will be moving on in about a month. She has everything working well and no longer feels a challenge. The work on her back yard has progressed well and is just about complete.
I will have to drop by and see what it looks like.

Monday, Aug. 5 cloudy, raining, windy + 12
Dana called last night to say that they were in Manitoba at his mother’s cabin since Thursday. They drove 24 hours through the States to get the cabin. Had a good time and are enjoying the quiet and darkness. They will be going back in a week. Dana said that several films are starting and he has already worked several days last week. He is feeling quite good about everything. He said that Cory was flying to Atlanta for a small holiday and then flying back up to the cabin and taking a bus back to Toronto.
Had supper with Susan and Mathew last night and then back to my place for a quiet evening and a good sleep.

Thursday, Aug. 8
Had a good sleep last night and woke up late. The weather has turned sunny, breezy and warm. Chris and I met this morning to discuss moving to the new Showhome.
I made an appointment with a client to show a home they were interested in building. They seem very interested in the house and are in the price range.
Cheryl called to go golfing on Friday.
Derek wants to golf in the morning.
I am at the show home on Thursday and will miss the mens’ meeting.
Warren said that Jeff called to suggest that he will be at the meeting.
Mother and I had a pleasant lunch. She said that Gillian is working and still tired. Jason is making dinner and eating at her place.
I have not heard from Cory for a few days.
Getting to know the traffic in this place will take a few weeks. I would expect that as soon as the people get to know us and inspect us enough times they will start to come in and start dealing on some homes. There certainly seems to be a great interest in building homes this late in the season.
Ray said that Arlene left he job over a dispute with the board. She is usually so careful in not creating a confrontation and being able to work through any concerns that the board had. After her work experience with the Status of Woman’s council she should have been well trained. OH well.

Monday, Aug. 12, sunny, breezy +23
Dana got back from his holiday in Manitoba; they took their time going back and enjoyed themselves. The final bill came in for his teeth; $700. He said that the work should be starting soon and he is looking forward to it. His cats survived his being away.
I called Gillian who said she is working hard finding locations for an infomercial for Canada Savings bonds. Jason was over cooking supper again. She is not questioning what he is doing. Cory is Ok Dana says. He talked with him for a short period of time.
I cooked supper for Susan on Saturday.
Holly had her birthday dinner at Susan’s on Sunday. She is doing well and the baby is fine. Jason is spending time watching sports but being supportive.
I went golfing with Derek at Elk Island on Friday; we had a good time. I spotted him 12 strokes on 12 holes and he beat me by two holes.
John had a good meeting with Hatches from Fort Mac after I set up a meeting for them on Sunday. They were in to see me after meeting me 3 weeks ago at the Cascade. They are interested in an expanded Cascade for a lot in Lakeshore that they own. They will be sending in the information on the lot and their wish list. John is on holidays for a week and then will start working on the house.
A client called to say that they had put an offer on a used home and wanted to have the name of an inspector to satisfy the condition they put on it. It will renovate well is what he said. I do not think they know what they are getting into- but what do I know.
The traffic at the show home is constant with a younger crowd of 30+ people looking to get into a newer home. The family is growing and they are looking to expand.

Sunday, Aug. 18, sunny, +23 calm
The weather has calmed down since all the rain and windy conditions during the week. Traffic has been steady this week.
I took some of Thursday off to go to the men’s group. It was raining in Fort Sask. so no one was around.
Peter had made an offer on a used home with an inspection condition on it. After Everett and the inspector looked at the house and found a sloping floor, Peter decided not to go through with the deal. He expressed the feeling that a great deal of stress was associated with the whole transaction.
Warren and I thought it was for the best that they not get the house and renovate it. Peter and family are on a ten day trip to Manitoba and will not have to deal with the stress involved.
Warren and I played squash a couple of times and are having even games.
Susan and I went out to a show with Fred and Susan. We caught up on their trip to Victoria and all the excitement that they had. Fred was explaining about all the difficulties that they encountered. Susan was commenting on how difficult Fred made the trip. No trips for a while for those two. Susan was tired from a hard week, so I dropped her off to get her car and went home. I had a feeling that I should park on the long street but choose to park on the side street. Overnight someone threw a beer bottle that glanced off the car door and broke the driver’s mirror. I will have to get a new mirror and install it myself. The car door was scratched but otherwise it was all right. I got a little angry but it was just some drunk being stupid, not much I can do. I am getting frustrated living in this area with all the car damage that has occurred. It is a good reason to move, but my lease just started.
Derek has expressed an interest in living in a two bedroom on the occasional nights that he is in town. I will have to look into the condos and rental on the south side of the river looking north. I will see if any are for sale or they just rent out. It would have a great view, be closer to work.
Dana sent some interesting photos of a bear that was on set where he working. I asked for further info and he said that he would get back to me. He seems to be working - which is a good thing.
Cory will call soon.
Fred said that Ryan will be getting married in Montreal next year.
John and his daughter dropped by on Saturday to have a look at the house. He is still on holidays till Monday, although people have been calling him.
Overall things are good. I have been eating more salad and greens during the week. It seems to make things a little lighter for the body and really has no down side. I will have to pick up some more on the way home and use up the dressing that is in the fridge before it goes bad.
The international girls’ soccer playoffs are in Edmonton this week. I will have to take in a couple games in if it is possible.
Hector continues to apply for jobs and is in good spirits about the whole thing. He has been spending some time with his kids and is trying to be aware of how they communicate and relate to each other and him. He has come up with some interesting incites into their behavior. His parents are coming out for a week and bringing back his older child that has spent a week at a tennis camp in Toronto.

Sunday, Aug. 25, Sunny and Hot +32
The weather has been exceptionally hot over the past few days. A great air mass has moved in and planted itself in the area.
I went flying on Friday evening for 3 hours and had beautiful weather. I expected the flight to be bumpy but it was very smooth. Flew out to Barrhead, Westlock, Two Hills, Veg and the checked out the Northern Bear golf course to see how it looked from the air. It was great flying again.
I tried to get in the Trapper’s ball game but went to the Fringe instead. Ate a whole bunch of things and felt good about it.
Saturday traffic was good with Janell calling to make an appointment to talk about a new home in Lewis Estates. Layton and Karen made an offer that I wrote up on Sunday for the Lewis Estates Showhome. It is very low but after talking to John I wrote it up to move the process along. She really likes the home and he does also but is starting the bidding very low.
Some other local traffic is starting to take an interest in the homes and lots in this area.
Sharon wants to talk about a small Pinehurst in this area. She will be back next week to look at the plans we have for the unit we are building in Leduc. Another couple people are looking at the starter homes in the area.
Susan and I went to the Blue’s festival at Hawrelak Park, The sounds were great. We met Irene and Ann, Susan’s friends, while we were at the park. We went for a coffee after. Susan had a cortisone shot for her arm because of the ache in it. (Tennis elbow.) She is still battling with her mouse in the house. The mouse is winning. She is buying more traps and door blocks.
Bob and Louise were at her place after the fringe shows. I stuck around and had pizza with them. Bob talked about building a spec home and selling it next year. I will have to talk with Susan about how serious he is.
The mens’ group did not meet last week because everyone was busy or away on holidays. Warren is busy doing his proposals for work and his program. Hector was with his kids, Peter was in Manitoba, Everett was at work and I could not miss work two Thursdays in a roll.
Dana called to say things were going better but he would like to arrange to get his license back and that will cost him some money. He has been getting some calls to drive and has had to decline because he has no license. All he has to do is pay the tickets and he will get them back.
I was a little anxious about not selling the Cascade but managed to put the feeling in the correct place and not sweat the fact that I did not write the fellow from Fort Sask. Layton, I wrote but the negotiations will be long. What else is new?
The counter offer to Layton was not successful. They did not want to spend that much, although she called to say that they were still interested in building a home on the new lots across the golf course. That was very nice of them.
I went golfing with Darrell and Cheryl this morning. Lovely day and we were finished in three hours. I golfed poorly but I was paying more attention to her game than to mine. Darrell golf’s well but his short game is not very good. I tried out my new 60% wedge and it works just fine. A little more practice and I will be able to do great things with it.
Dana called to say that he got his license back and can drive again legally. He was happy about it and said he would put it to good use. I missed Cory’s call last night but I will send him an e mail later.
Traffic is slow tonight; must be something else happening in town. John met with Thomas today to continue the blue print. I have a meeting with Janell and Norman on Saturday at the west end to do up the contract for their new home, I feel.

Sept. 1, Sunday. Cloudy +16
I meet with Janell and Norman at the LE Show home and did up the agreement for the blue prints after they looked and accepted the price for his new home.
Sharon Ferguson’s parents came in and put a hold on a lot next door for her. She will be in on Tuesday to talk about what she wants in a new home. Things are moving along with her intentions.
We did some advertising for the Fort. Sask. Showhome and Starter homes. We have had a few inquiries in the new home.
The LE Show home was sold by a realtor this last week. My offer from Layton was not accepted. Irving will move to this unit on Thursdays starting this week.
Susan came over with Mathew to see the show home. She did not go golfing but did not say why. Mathew was shy. Holly and Jason came over to look at the home this week. Holly is looking good and healthy and quite pregnant. Spent the evening with Susan, went for a walk and watched a movie. Did not spend the night because she was not feeling well. I am a little frustrated by the lack of intimacy but not sure if I am confused with what I want or what is going on. She is very friendly and close but seems to be a little confused with something. I am a little frustrated but not sure on how to proceed. I will let it continue and play itself out. We will talk later today and see if there are any answers.
Sent e-mails to the boys but have not heard back to much. It would seem that they are busy and involved with work, their lives and women. The work was coming along. Dana got his driver’s license and is excited about the situation.
Golfing on Friday at the Leduc location was fun. It is a good course and I will go back next week and play the course a little more intelligently.
It was fun golfing with Darrel and Cheryl on Wednesday although she did get a little angry with the way she was playing. She is trying too hard and will have to play more or get some instruction to help her out. I should get her to check out her clubs and such to see if it will improve her game.

Sunday, Sept 8 Sunny and warm, +21
I have the day off. Irving is working today instead of last Thursday. I had an appointment with Al B to continue creating his home in Sherwood Park. He came with his wife Barb and brought some plans to help us design a home. I am glad he did. I missed the group meeting which was interesting but I was caught up by Warren on Saturday and then by Hector on Sunday when we had coffee.
I went to Leduc to try and golf but it was busy so I drove to the Northern Bear, had brunch, quite lovely and then back to Edmonton.
Hector called and we had coffee. He was telling me about his interviews and his new volunteer job with a crisis center. A long time lady friend called him to get him involved in the helping of people in the time of crisis and transition. He is quite excited. His story about the interview process for the sales position was interesting. He is convinced that he is a sales person and can do well and be hired for the position. He might be able to learn his way into this area but will not be a good long term and successful salesperson .Susan is getting more confused and unsettled about what she wants in life. We had a good discussion about what was happening on Saturday night. She was able to explain to me her confusion about our relationship. She is not comfortable with the sexual end of our relationship because she neither wants to marry me or live with me. Her catholic upbringing is not allowing her to sleep with me. She wants to distance herself and has been doing it over the last month, shades of a previous relationship. My frustration then has been partly mine and partly hers. Because of her statements our relationship, as we had it, has come to an end. What it will be in the future, I do not know. Probably very little.
Her bouncing back and forth is not good for my emotions. I would rather have her out of the picture and be able to have no expectations then have her around and be confused. The statement that I made to myself that I would probably not be around for Luke’s wedding will be true. To see her under completely changed circumstances is a waste of time.
Shirley will be able to fill in as a friend without the confusion of what our relationship is.
I have no idea what Susan’s family will say or suggest but it will be of no consequence to her nor should it be. It is her decision and direction in life that is important to her.
Dana called last night and was in a good mood. We talked about his birthday wishes and what he was doing with Stephanie. He is sending his list on the email, which I have not opened yet. I have missed connecting with Cory over the past few days but left a message for him.
Attended the funeral of a pilot I knew who was a flight instructor at the flying club. Steve was there and we sat together. He flew into the trees in the rain and clouds as he was landing to deliver some passengers up north. No reasons have been given yet because the investigation has just started. It should not have happened. He was an expert pilot but perhaps he pushed too much. He was a great person and will be missed.
Sales continue well with discussions with many clients. Ferguson has not come in yet because he is ill but all the others are going well. The previous Show home sold. Shuster and I will be meeting on Thursday to talk about building a Cascade on the golf course lot. Peter and Linette are getting bent of shape about not getting service from Carlton and do not like Hillview in the Properties of Donsdale. I expect they are too demanding and unfocused.

My Life is picking up speed

2006-06-25T11:20:00.000-07:00

Sunday, April 21 Sunny and warm+11
The spring weather has arrived and with it a better attitude from the customers.
Still getting to know my new laptop computer and how it works. Am trying to register the windows XP program but cannot do it manually, I will have to wait till the notice comes up on the screen and use it to gain access.
The email program works well for my communication with Cory, Dana - Susan and the other people that are connected. I am progressing well in my learning curve with this new technology.
The last week went by quickly because of all the tasks I had to accomplish.
I am writing this on Tuesday, April 23.
The meeting with Jimmy D went well with the agreement written up. We are now progressing with the initial blue prints. These are to be done within 3 weeks.
I received the initial blue prints for Wilson and will be meeting them on Wed. The deposit will be made to move things along so we can get started building the home by May 17, so they can take possession of their new home by Nov. 11.
The weather last week turned from winter to spring over the weekend but today has turned windy, cloudy with the temperature around -2. Sweater time again.
Cory is working and receiving more responsibility from Greg. He is enjoying the workload. He is frustrated with Dana and his friends because they are two completely different personalities.
Dana worked a little last week. He went to the dentist to start getting some work done on his teeth. This will start at the beginning of May. My appointment for cleaning went well with another quick visit in Oct.
Peter is back from his trip to the warm waters of Mexico. His scuba time was excellent. Having been back in Edmonton and around Linette for a week he is now back on the plan to make her “get it”. They told Warren they are still intent on building a home but Warren suggested that they come to terms with their lives first. I think they want a diversion now so they do not have to address the problems they have.
Jeff told Warren that he purchased a home in Toronto, renovations are on the way, and the family is moving up there ASAP. He is selling all his and her holdings in Edmonton to make a clean break. The question of Nora is still up in the air.
Hector is happily involved with his lady and is planning a trip in fall to the Caribbean.
Everett is continuing to find work for his company and enjoy his clearly defined relationship with Louise. Susan is moving to her new place this week end. She is all packed and has completed all the inspections and meeting with the lawyers. The place is 98% the way she expected it. She has purchased some interior items to personalize her new home.
My car will be ready this Friday, after three weeks of repair. It will be nice to get back to a vehicle that is mine. The rental was nice but really just a small compact economy vehicle.
I am struggling to find out what is happening with the DVD rewriteable discs that I have and why they will not stay rewriteable. I will have to get some advice and instruction but I am not getting too worked up about it. Warren should be able to help me.
Our squash games are returning to the high level that we experienced before he took the break and went traveling.
We both injured ourselves on Monday. We did it to ourselves. We will survive.

Sunday, April 28- windy, sunny +8
The week has gone by quickly because of the nice weather.
I concluded my doctor’s appointment on Friday. All is well although I have put on a few pounds in the last two years. I know that because my belt is tighter. I will have to eat fewer bagels with cream cheese and move toward more cereals and healthy foods. I am going to do some blood and heart tests in a week or so since I have not done any for such a long time.
Susan moved into her place yesterday with the help of all the family. I dropped by after work to have a drink and talk to her friends and Anne.
Bob and Louise left with Louise driving Bob home after a good night of drinking. Their new house is coming together nicely. Susan is very happy with how her place has worked out and is excited with her new life style. Dusty, the puppy, because of his health problems, is the only concern now.
Luke has moved into his girlfriend’s place nicely and is enjoying the successful end of a school year, a new summer job and the love of his woman.
Cory and Dana have been sending me information and pictures over the week to ensure that my computer and email is working nicely. This certainly is a different medium.
The financing is still not complete for Wilson but only the final approval for the new home, which is to be done this week, needs to be completed.
Dean and Natalie came in to do a home with us in the Grange. The only challenge will be getting a lot in the Grange. We should be able to do the lot exchange with Greenboro Homes. Wilson’s friend, Joyce and Jim came in today to do a wish list for their new home in Lewis Estates.
The men’s group has been doing well.
Hector and his new lady friend have split up. She wanted a little more space than what Hector was giving her. He liked her so much that he wanted a permanent relationship within two years.
Peter is letting Linette have her way in investigating the building of a new home.
Warren and I are still playing squash in spite of injuring ourselves last Monday. We played on Saturday with my finger giving me a lot of pain. After properly taping the finger the pain went away. I managed to break my racquet without hitting the wall. I took it in and they will be giving me a replacement when it comes in. Warren is still progressing with his computer programming work and feels success is just around the corner.
I picked up my car on Friday all new and nicely painted. It was nice to get it back and drive a sports car. Now for some new tires and a windshield and I will be all set for summer.
Some golfers were out on the course behind the Showhome today. The wind must have made it very cold.
The grass will not be green for several weeks with golf a good month away yet. I will have to get flying this week, since there were no planes available last week. I did not look very hard but the weather was not that good either.
Gillian has decided to come out for the family reunion in the first week on June and stay for about 3 weeks. She will be traveling from here to Calgary and into B.C. to visit people.

Sunday, May 5, Windy, cold, some snow -6
Winter has returned with some of the coldest spring weather in a long time, some cold records are being broken this week. We keep being promised spring time weather but I expect that this will be a cool and wet year in Alberta. Spring planting conditions are not good, although southern Alberta had some snow fall that will help the moisture level with the cold temperatures helping to control the grasshopper problems.
Had my blood and heart work done on Friday, with a follow up visit to see Dr. Tilley in a couple of weeks. The nurse was nice to me and used a sharp needle for the blood sample. The week has gone by in a regular fashion.
Wilson’s bank is still getting itself together with the financing coming together on Friday so a deposit should be available early this week.
I paid the income tax so the payment from Wilson will be a nice relief.
Cory helped me a great deal with the computer this week and helped explain the different configurations that are available for storing information.
Dana had a bad ache from one of his teeth with an infection the problem but it has set him up for going to the dentist and getting some major work done. He will be tapping into the medical fund I have set up for medical emergencies. I discussed with him the reality of making this job work or looking at something else. He will have to do a reality check soon.
Cory is busy doing his graphic art car designs on the computer for Greg and just loving it. He got hooked up with a new lady this last week and has been happy about it. He said something about her being 34 and divorced a year.
The squash has been very good with Warren. The finger requires taping for the games and today my hand is still sore from our Saturday game but it is a great deal of fun. I have changed my eating habits a little to include more cereals and less bagels and it seems to have had a small effect already. The doc says that I am in great health but am carrying a few more pounds than necessary.
I know that.
I dropped in to see Steve N at the ADT office and have coffee with him. I talked to Beth, Tom and a few of the other people at the office while I was there. Had a pleasant chat with Tom and caught up on a few items of general interest. It is a little easier to speak with him but we both know that things did not end well. His position was difficult and I ended up making the correct decision, but it was still an upsetting event.
Peter was all happy with Linnette’s decision to see a professional counselor over the next several months. Peter was still concerned that he was kept out of the loop by her until she had made a final decision to see the professional. He will have a hard time not interfering with her movement through the therapy.
Hector is comfortable that he is now moving on with his life after his lady friend made it clear that she wished only to be friends. He is so driven to create a permanent relationship with a female in the near future to fulfill the need he has. I expect that there is someone out there to help him achieve that desire.
I spent some time with Susan last night. Celebrated her new place with a good bottle of champagne and watched a movie. Dusty, the dog, is fitting right in at the new place. Dusty is not barking as much as Susan feared with the walks around the block in the morning and evening taking care of the bathroom concerns. Susan is getting her exercise and Dusty is getting to see a totally new world. Susan’s brother, Patrick, is retiring from teaching this year and was celebrated at a very complimentary function on Friday night. He will go on now to do things that are of his making to fill the time that he has available.

Sunday, May 12, Mother’s Day, sunny, warm, +14 clear
I was able to get the lot that Dean and Natalie wanted next to the lot that was incorrectly priced. They were happy to be building in the area that first attracted them. We just need the blue print to be able to sign off on the agreement.
I have been able to arrange a pre construction meeting with Wilson’s this coming week with John.
I called Gillian to chat with her about her visit in June. I am coordinating with Cheryl for Gillian’s sleeping arrangements and car transportation. Cheryl is busy and having some difficulty with Darryl but she says that it is just life and she is moving on with it. She was going to a golf game with him on Friday and suggested that we get in a game soon.
Saturday night, Fred and Susan came over to see Susan’s new place. We had a good time together catching up.
Fred and Sue talked about their holiday in Hawaii and are looking forward to going to Vancouver Island in July when his current job is over. He hopes to travel and work in Sarnia and possibly Mexico with the company that he is with. Sue still has the cold and nasal problems that have been with her for the last month. Ryan, Fred and Sue’s son, is back from Montreal taking a course for the next few months required to enhance his teaching degree. Kelsey has moved back in with Jonathan while his parents are in England. Things are moving very slowly in that area. She is not taking responsibility for growing up.
Saturday morning I was awakened at 6 in the morning by an Edmonton city police man telling me that my car had been hit by a drunk driver. There was minor damage to my car that I had parked on the street overnight. Quite a way to wake up. The back bumper was cracked.
They arrested the driver and he has insurance. I have to pick up the report today or Monday and then decide whether to get it fixed through the insurance company or even report it. I will talk with AMA on Monday.
Cory and Dana have been in contact with me through the email. Dana will be going to the dentist this coming week to start work on his teeth.
The couple from Hanna came in on Saturday to start the process on a new home again. They sold their home and have tried to build up north but have not been successful and now would like to have something built in the area. The house plan they have will not fit any of the lots that are available. Jimmy D came in and we made some changes on the house blue print we had put together. I need the plot plan to show him how the house will sit on the land. I will probably drive up to Edson with the plans when I have them. It will be a nice trip..
I tried to fly on Friday but the plane had a potential problem and I could not go up. Perhaps this week. I called Steve N but he was not able to some along. Dean, my first flight instructor, was at the club on Friday so we chatted for a time.
He is doing well and flying as much as he wants. He is looking very good and seems happy. It was nice to see him again.

Sunday, May19 Windy, wet and cool +9
The week was steady with Monday starting out with a change of clothes after I spilled a cup of coffee down my front in the morning.
Progress was made in Jimmy’s banker, talking to Chris and arranging for a deposit to be made. Jimmy came down on Sunday to meet with John and myself to complete the house design. We are on to final blue prints.
Brent and Neil made the second deposit on their home to move it along to a blue print stage. The blue prints for Danilak will be coming on Wednesday.
Monica was all excited about the Cascade in a Bungalow style.. She put a lot on hold to get some stability and will come in to see the prices next week.
Susan has rearranged some items in her condo this week. I had supper with Holly, Jason and Mathew on Saturday and then we watched some TV.
I took mother over to visit with Susan on Friday. She enjoyed the visit.
On Thursday, mother and I went to the citadel to use some of the Christmas tickets that I had given her. We saw a play based on “Who Has Seen the Wind” by W.O. Mitchel. It was very good and brought back the energy and wisdom of live theatre.
Hector met Warren and I at the squash courts at Grant Mac to play some squash. Warren’s friend Ron and his girlfriend made an appearance also. Hector is a very good player and just needs some new shoes and racquet to get back into the game. Playing him will give Warren and I some variety in the different style of the game.
Peter was in Calgary so was not able to be at the group meeting. It was a humorous get together with a great many jokes and funny concepts pursued during the time.
I went flying on Thursday out to Lac La Biche. The weather was fine with sunshine throughout the flight. The heat rising off the ground made for some turbulence but it was great. I will have to get out next week again.
Dana was to have some dental work done this week but he has not contacted me to say how it progressed. Cory has been silent also but I expect to hear from them tonight.
Mother is angry with Cheryl for not calling and asking her to go to the birthday party she had for Curt. Oh well, just life as it is. Cheryl is busy and will be able to get past it.
I will have to get some tires and windshield for my car this week when I get paid for Jimmy and Brent. Sure do need new tires. I would not go on a long trip with the ones I have at the moment.
The landscape is finally getting green with the small amount of rain we are receiving.
I still have not heard from Shirley. She should be just about finished with her course in Toronto. She may be coming back in July, I would expect.
I had a massage with Odette on Friday but we did not talk much as I wanted to concentrate on the massage and the relaxation that went with it. She has been traveling with her fellow to the Island and had just come back. I hope she had a good time and enjoyed the traveling.
Susan had a discussion with her about the upcoming trip when she had her massage. Odette did not discuss how it went. Odette said that talking to me confused her but not in a bad way.

Sunday, May 26, Sunny, some wind, +20 quite lovely
The week was very good. I received payment for Brent with the bank sending money for Jimmy D.
I met with Dean and Natalie on Friday to get the OK on the house plans. The down payment will come this week sometime. I need the address for the home to allow Dean and Natalie to be able to give the information to the bank.
I paid off the gold card. Now I have money to pay off the RRSP loan and start putting money in the RRSP for this year. I am able to put in 26k approx. Bought some tires for the car and will look into putting in a windshield this week. Time to pamper the car for a while, possible CD player in the next month for the car.
I had AMA look at the bumper and will get it fixed if the other car owner’s insurance will cover it. I have still not received the report from the police but AMA has requested a copy.
I passed on a small referral fee to Susan for her help with Jimmy D but she was reluctant to accept it. We spent Friday together and had a good time.
Saturday, I spent with Derek, Ray and Alex (golfing buddies) at the Two Hills golf tournament. We had a good time in spite of the weather. It was windy all day with some rain, some hail, some cloud and some sunshine during the golf tournament. We have not golfed very much this year and it showed. My new driver is not working well at all so I may have to look at changing it to a more flexible shaft. I will talk to the professionals at the golf shop this week and see what they say. I will look into getting some custom clubs made this week to find out what they can do and what they will cost. Do not really need new clubs but might treat myself.
The feeling that I have money to spare and do not have any debts is a strange and different feeling. It is not something that I have experienced before and have to come to terms with the different position in the financial world.
The year has been very good. The year is only five months along with the potential to make a substantial amount of money this year. We will see. Anything is possible.
Dana is still having a difficult time getting work and I am troubled by my reaction with this turn of events. I talked to Susan about it for a bit and feel a little better. He has gone to the dentist last week and is comfortable with the work done. He is to go on the 29th for more work. His lady friend is putting the charge on her credit card and he will pay it off if he gets enough work. The work will have to pay for his rent and other items or else I will cover it for a while. He has not called to talk this week which might mean that he is working many hours and is unable get to the phone or computer.
Cory has applied at Mountain Equipment Co op for a job on the climbing wall. He will get some experience and training that will allow him to do some work in the mountains if he comes back. Quite an enterprising fellow. He is working with Greg although the number of contracts is slowing down for the summer.
Peter is feeling better now that Linette has been going to a therapist and they are taking walks together to spend time together. He is not aware of her control of the situation. Everett was not at the group but we are concerned that he says that all is perfect in his life.
Hector was with his kids but Peter says that Hector is very concerned with the way his oldest son is not maturing quickly enough. He has been to a family doctor that is helping to coordinate an appraisal of the child. Warren continues to work on his project and is quite up this week. His support staff is all in line and helping the projects move along quickly.
I was able to do some shopping this week, buying some clothes and a watch for myself. I booked a car for Gillian’s trip here but will have to confirm the price with her today.

Monday, June 3/02 sunny with a few clouds/ some drizzle but warm +21
The week went by at a steady pace.
Only a little traffic. The next door Showhome has shut down and moved to Spruce Grove. Several other Showhomes have closed leaving only two of us on the block.
Raj, Ben and Pat came in during the week to separately discuss homes. Raj is shopping around and is enthusiastic but is grinding for a price. Ben is in the price range if he wants to stay in Lewis Estates ,otherwise it will be hard to find a lot for him.
Pat Thomas, is something else, if she comes in tonight I will get a better feel for what she wants. She dropped by Saturday to confirm that we controlled lot 56 and she would have to build with us. She called late Saturday night to have me put a hold on it and said that she would be in on Sunday. She then said she would be in on Monday night. These things are yet to happen.
Dana was not sure he would go to the dentist again; he may wait till he is on the union contract. I said it was up to him but not to get into trouble with his teeth. They were not going to fix themselves. He had worked several days. He was in charge of blowing things up and was quite proud of himself. He still needed some money to make his rent. I do not know what to think of this. It is a good investment I feel.
Cory called to say that his birthday was great with his girlfriend. He was talking about moving into a new place with her. They are happy and in love. He is doing some more work for Greg and has done a day on the movies. He expects to spend some time up north at a cabin with his new found girlfriend. Things are moving along nicely.
I had a great golf game with Cheryl on Wednesday and enjoyed the time with her. I hopefully helped her golf and we talked about many things. I played a round with Derek and Williams on Friday and shot an 82 on 18 with my new clubs. I tried out two new types of clubs from McGowans during the early part of the week and settled on one set at a lesser price than I had expected. The sales person was very good and provided great service. I arranged to exchange the single driver that I had purchased last week for one that seems to be better. I have yet to try it out. I am stuck with it and will have to learn how to use it or give it away as a gift if it does not work. I will try to get it to accommodate my swing.
Life is good.
Had a good time with Susan this weekend. She is really enjoying her new place and the interest from her friends in her new lifestyle. Her birthday is coming up on June 15. Dinner and something else is in order now.
Gillian is coming on Thursday in the morning. Terry has agreed to give her a car for the time she is here. I will pick her up, have lunch with mother and then take her out to Terry’s place.
Hector came out to play squash with Warren and myself on Saturday morning. It was a good change and provided us a chance to play different styles.
The week coming up should bring some rain to help the grass and trees although it is not in the forecast yet.

Sunday, June 9 Sunny with clouds building for showers in the evening, +21, calm
The week has been a little exciting,
I was trying to be helpful to the other sales rep. client but frustrated her by showing the client the homes in Leduc. The clients do not wish to use her but John said they would have to for the first little while.
My Pat Thomas showed up and gave a hold cheque for the corner lot and is coming in on Monday to do a wish list. Very busy woman and brings a great deal of energy with her.
Gillian came in on Thursday. I picked her up, had lunch with her and mother than took her to Terry’s place. Terry was not home at the time, so Gillian had a nap before he arrived.
I went back to Edmonton for the men’s group. Jeff showed up and was quite forthcoming on his recent activities. He has invited all the people that mean something in his life to his place next Saturday for a party. I would not miss this for most anything. Jeff seems to have a handle on his life, but Warren says that he really is still quite confused. I wish him the best.
Susan enjoyed her birthday present, a massage and a day of pampering and was very appreciative. I got to see Mathew again. He is a very pleasant young child.
Luke was very successful at some Mall selling of Calvin Klein perfume. He has quit the city job and is working at Capital City Savings.
I arranged to have a windshield put in my car this coming week. I was able to get an oil change done when I went over to the dealership on Wednesday. I will be getting a new stereo system from Audio Sound this week also. I think that a CD player would be a pleasant addition to the car, quite nice to listen to when I am traveling in the mountains. I am arranging the trip to Fairmont to see Derek in July with a stop in the Banff area.
Raj has come in every day this week to work on his ideas for the house and make some changes. John and I will start working on the plan on Monday. I may do some designs on my computer today.
I talked to boys earlier in the week.
Dana said that work is picking up with some possible contract with Much Music group. Cory is making noises about moving into a loft with his girlfriend. Dana just rolled his eyes and made a “brotherly comment” when I told him about this event.
I have had a call from Joe saying that he was still waiting to hear about the lots that are coming available across from the golf course. It is a great feeling to have these calls coming in. I will have to start deciding where I want to place my money during this last part of the year to use it effectively.
I am negotiating with John and Chris for a commission rate increase for the homes sold above 10 and 20. I discussed it with Chris and put it on paper so he could talk to John about it.
Irving came in this week and requested a raise because he feels that he is worth more. I said ok since he is still making me money. He does not know that all I have to do is not have him work one day during the month to get his total income to what it was before. It is still a good deal.

Sunday, June 16, sunny, clear, +28
Saturday was clear and hot +29, just about a record.
The week has been a busy one. Monday was paper day.
Tuesday I had the car stereo put into the car, golf on Wednesday with Cheryl, Thursday I had a new windshield put into the car and Friday I went golfing with Ray.
Saturday, during the day was work with a birthday dinner for Susan at Thornton court and then to a party for Jeff at his place.
Gillian was busy with mom and shopping during the week. We went out to Von’s with mother for supper on Thursday,
Had an argument with Andy Ho about the front door and whether he should pay for it. I had to make a point with him about his need to ask for more and more.
John met with Jimmy D on Friday to deliver the blue prints and get any new ideas from him. This was nice of John as I was golfing and could not make a meeting later in the afternoon. I met with Pat Thomas in the late afternoon to give her the new drawings and discuss the process of the agreement. She will be coming in on Monday with the final decisions to do up initial blue prints. The lot diagrams and layouts for the new Potter Greens area still are not out but the machinery is working on the land.
Annette came in to talk about the property for Joe.
Peter and Linette returned the blue prints that I had left with them.
This week I will have to get the candle holders I ordered for Susan’s birthday.
The party for Jeff and Victoria was pleasant. Everyone was there from the group and we all got to know one another.
Dolf, a friend of Jeff, was someone who was interested in our mens’ group although he is involved with one himself at the moment.
Warren said some very pleasant things about our relationship.
Susan said I was correct in my assumption on Victoria’s actions re going to Toronto. Jeff and I had a short chat before I left. He is moving very fast and under a great deal of strain. I don’t know whether I will contact Nora or not. I will probably allow her to contact me.
Hector continues to improve as he plays squash with Warren and me. His arm is getting some tendonitis and he will have to get some medication to control the pain.
His coffee date with his blind date went well. He said that she was older than he had expected.
Gillian and Mother went out for lunch with Jim, Marion and Daryl at the Red Lobster on Saturday when they were in the city for a short. She said that they talked about the new religion they were involved in. Jim wants to become a disciple. Marion said very little.
Terry is getting along well with Gillian and will be going dancing this weekend.
Cory sent me a new t shirt for father’s day. It has writing and slogan’s on it and is quite delightful.
I was able to book lodging at Calgary and Radium for July. I was also able to book some golf at Kanakas country when I was passing through to see Derek and Viola.
This planning is getting out of hand and might become a habit. It is nice to know that everything is reserved and I don’t have to rush and be unsure of what is going to happen next. The upcoming week should be a little quieter and less costly. I have just about purchased everything that I wish for now.

Sunday, June 23
Work continues at an even pace.
Gillian had lunch with me on Tuesday, talked about the family and what she is learning from her visit here. She is helping Cheryl redesign and finish her back yard. I gave her a few ideas that might prove to be useful. Cheryl is coping with the extra visitors but is encountering some problems at work from her accountant.
I had a good series of games of squash with Warren but managed to lose even tho he was using an older racket.
John and I are meeting with Raj this Thursday, finally.
Gillian is keeping us busy with her activities and suppers, but all in all it is enjoyable. She and mother went out to see Kurt’s two boys and spent 5 hours talking with them. Gillian came back with pictures and many questions.
I played golf with Ray and won although I did not do as well on the back 9 as I had hoped. I drove a green 290 yards on the hard pan that is Fort In View.
Met Gillian at Mother’s after and then spent some time with her at Cheryl’s after stopping off at Susan’s. Played squash with Warren on Saturday and won a hard fought series. Warren was disturbed by what Peter had said about not wanting to talk to Sally, though Warren was welcome to visit.
Susan was busy on Saturday so I spent some time at the Casino and managed to make enough money to buy a new battery for my car. It is giving up the ghost and I had to get a boost this Monday at Tim Horton’s. I am concerned about it starting tomorrow when I take Gillian to the airport.
Pat Thomas came in with a revision on her plan. We are fine tuning the design.
The meeting Raj, Kari, John and I went well with John suggesting that they go to see the Surrey in Sherwood Park and we can work a plan off that unit. They were happy when they left and will be in contact early this week. John made a suitable impression on Raj.
A younger couple who live in the area came in with his parents and will be making an offer on the show home this week they said, for an October possession. It might be a little early but I should have managed to sell as many lots possible from the few that are coming on line in the new area. We really have not had that many offers on this show home and I expect the boys to take the offer if it is at all reasonable. Jeff is in Europe at the moment on holidays. The paper on the new lots is still not available so I have had no reason to contact the people on the list.
The weather has been very warm over the past few day, with the temp in the + 30’s.
I have not heard from Cory in over a week, I expect that he is busy with his lady friend.
Dana called to say he was all right and expecting a big contract to do special effects in Sask., in the fall from a friend of his. I hope so. This will give him some creditability in the industry and he can get to see his mom. His teeth are all fixed and he is starting to get the bills for them.
My reservations are all complete for my trip and I am looking forward to the time off.
Irving is happy with is wage increase and will fill in when I am gone.
Derek is up on a fishing trip with some friends from Vegreville this weekend. He has never been on such trip and was looking forward to this time spent up north. They were driving and then taking a boat. No flying in the trip, so he was happy.
The weather reports are for thundershowers tonight. The forest fires are mostly out at the moment but we had a fire in the ravines around 97th street and 94th Ave. that claimed a million $ house that was in the way. Houses that are made of wood burn very fast it seems.

An Interesting Year that is unforseen

2006-06-11T14:43:00.000-07:00

Jan. 5/02 Saturday, Sunny, +2, nice warm winter day
The boys returned to Regina on Friday by bus.
The week they spent here went by quickly with everyone enjoying themselves. Dana and Cory have turned into two very nice young men.
Dana was happy to return to the quiet of Regina and then to Toronto.
Cory was anxious to get to his new apartment in Toronto. He has many plans for this coming year. Dana enjoyed meeting Susan again; she was impressed with him I think.
She worked two days with the activity tiring her out but she was able to relax in the evening. Luke was coming back on Friday night from his trip with Amanda to the south.
I took the Piper out on Friday for a flight to Lloydminster that extended to North Battleford. The winds were strong from the west during the day, I was in Lloydminster in one hour so decided to continue to North Battleford to see the country side. I was moving along at 145 nm/hr. going east. When I turned around to return, the speed dropped to 73 nm/hr and the time frame back to Edmonton was 2 hours and 20 minutes. The fuel on board became an issue for me. I made it back but kept an eye on the fuel gauges.
Flying on a wing and a prayer took on a totally new meaning.
This experience was a reality check on the proper use of fuel and time, I won't forget next time. The landing was great in spite of the strong side winds. The plane touched down like a charm. It was a great day. I missed the boys during the afternoon, but Dana called to say they were in Regina and ready to do things in the evening.
I talked to Susan, during the evening; her doctor said the toe is healing well with the pins to come out in two weeks. She is doing well, although a little tired.
Work was busy with a good traffic flow because the weather was sunny and warm.
My couple came down from Fort. Sask. and are interested in building in the new area.
I should have a comfortable sale record this year considering the number of people who are coming through the home and expressing an interest in building with us.
A pleasant couple said they would be back.
It is a nice way to start the year.
Mr. Noel dropped by with a checque for Chris. His son is also in the film industry in Toronto.

Sunday, Jan 6/ 02, Wed. Jan. 8/- warm +5
The weather continues to be very warm for this time of the year, sunny and plus 5. The temp should be down to about - 2 on the weekend with a possibility of snow later in the week.
The boys should be back in Toronto by today. Back in their own world with plenty of work to do. Cory will be happy to move into his new place. Dana back to his solitude and work.
Susan and her foot are healing nicely with the pins to be removed around Jan. 26; just in time to help Holly and Jason move into their new home. Their whole family has come down with the flu. They are all feeling very miserable.
Work has moved along well, except for the postponement of Kolla's building.
John is meeting with another of my clients this evening.
On Sunday we will meet with Cliff and his family with the blueprint. They are nervous but it will go well. They may want to postpone till they see the unit in Leduc but that is their choice. I talked to another client and he is going to see his banker on Thursday to get the money requirements settled.
Sawyer is still on for March/April and the building of the house they want.
I have had a few other couples interested in the showhome and perhaps building the Surrey in Lewis Estates.
I took my black leather chair apart to repair the swing mechanism that has worn out. I am not able to get the identical parts but I will be able to put together some parts from the Nuts and Bolts store so the chair can be used again without the side to side movement that is evident at the moment.
Mother and I are to have lunch next Wednesday. From our conversation she seems in a good mood although she continues to have her opinion on the things around her.
Cheryl called to invite Susan and me to a party she was having on Saturday night but with Susan's foot we were unable to attend. Cheryl is determined to fly to Hamilton to go to the Hostel workshop and spend a few days in Toronto to visit with Gillian.

Thursday, Jan 10, Monday, Jan 14 Cloudy -11
Winter has returned to Edmonton. The morning was crisp with the sky blue. Good time to wear a leather coat.
Dropped by the office where John and I resurrected the deal with Kolla, who though about canceling last week. I talked with Lou on Saturday and he decided to redesign the home a little and faxed the info to us. John was able to incorporate this new design in the home without too much of an extra cost. Later in the day Lou told John to redo the plans and proceed with putting the land on hold and scheduling the digging. It is nice that the deal is back.
On Sunday I told Cliff and his parents to stop trying to build the home in Lewis Estates if it is causing them such a great deal of concern. I will keep in touch and see what kind of land is available in Donsdale. They know that the price will go up because the land will be more expensive and the Cedar Shake roof will cost them more. I will show them the home that is being built in Leduc as the next showhome. They will build with me in the near future, I am certain of it.
Susan is getting frustrated with the kids at home and the discussion she had with Gail and her kids. It is good that the living situation will change at the end of the month. With the pins taken out of her toe she will be able to walk and get around much easier. She wants to start doing physical things to get back her energy.
Work is starting to get busy with some serious people making their appearance at the show home. Things will move quickly now.
I had lunch with Derek, discussed the RRSP season, the accident policy and how everyone in their circle is getting through life.
I hired a fellow by the name of Irvine to sit at the show home on Thursdays. He was in on Saturday to get a feel of what to do and where all the papers are located. He will be good. His friendliness will hold him in good stead. Although it was a little nerve wracking to be in a position to hire someone and have them work for me; it turned out to be a pleasant experience when it was complete.
Derek is feeling well although he still has the problem with condensation within his house during the winter time.
I am meeting with Nora to catch up on her activities over the past months. She sounds quite good and happy. I sense that she is past Jeff at the moment, moving on in her life and starting a new direction.
The boys are doing well with Dana working a little last week.
Cory moving into his own apartment; the first time that he has lived and owned a place by himself. It should be an intoxicating time and feeling for him. I hope he can truly enjoy it. He is a little young to fully appreciate exactly what is happening.
Dana will help Cory get through the time more easily than he can imagine.

Sat. Jan. 19, Thursday, Jan 24. Sunny then a winter storm in the evening -6
A sad day today; Peter Gzowski passed away today after a short illness. He was suffering from lung complications brought on by years of smoking. Known as “Mr. Canadian” from his broadcasting on CBC he will be remembered as a tireless fighter for literacy in Canada. He gave up the smoking habit a year ago after smoking since he was a teenager.
The week has been cold with the temperature dropping to -25. It has snowed a little during the week but the large storm is coming tonight.
Susan drew up the papers to put an offer on a condo this Monday, with the realtor coming over to appraise her home on Wednesday. The purchase number they are talking about makes her comfortable. The builder of the Condo, who does not have a good reputation, will have to make the decision that everything Susan is asking to be included in the condo price is acceptable.
Jason and Holly are to move into their new home next weekend, if all goes well. The current tenants have made a request to delay the move till Feb. 15 but the kids are going to decline the offer. The time has come to move and Susan has to do something to get her home ready for showing. She still has a little pain and some bleeding from the removal of the pins. She is feeling better and sees the end of several difficult situations. Work is constant for her but she sees it as one of the small issues in her life.
I presented her with a book to write down her feelings and thoughts - starting with the statement "Today, I purchased my new home-” She seemed quite pleased with the item.
Cory and Dana are doing fine in Toronto.
I shipped Cory the items that Greg had left for him in Edmonton.
Dana was applying for some work other than the film industry to tide him over.
Cheryl spent the weekend in Ontario, going to a Hostel convention, then to Toronto to spend some time with Gillian. Jason took her out to a night club for the evening. She also had lunch with Simon. Cory was able to see her for a short time. Cheryl said it was good for her to get away and enjoy the freedom that was there. Daryl was good about her trip and was easy with the situation when Cheryl talked to him. She needed the event to confirm to herself that she still can be desirable and can have fun in a different setting.
The traffic has been very slow except for the weekends. The payments are coming in, with the Kolla home being finalized next week. I am having a little hard time with the slowness but the telephone traffic with potential customers is very good. I have to decide when I want to purchase another laptop computer. This one is giving me indications that it is getting tired and would like to rest for awhile. I will have to talk to Christine M about what they can offer in comparison to the Staples advertising.
I am meeting with Derek about the RRSP's, the sickness and accident insurance that he wants me to get. I will not be able to get all the documents that are required for income tax till the Feb. 28.
I am off to play squash tonight with Warren.
Everett and Hector could not make the meeting tonight. Peter is still in Australia so we postponed the meeting till next week. Warren is off to Europe at the end of the month till Feb. 12.

Sat. Jan 27. / Sunday, sunny but cold -25 daytime
This has been a busy time for Susan and her family.
They listed her house on Thursday, with 5 groups of people showing up in the evening for a viewing. She was not finished painting and had not taken the garbage bags out when the first people started coming in. Everything, including the dog were picked up and delivered to her Dad's place. Ten more groups of people were slated to come on Saturday with another half dozen to come in Sunday. She had an offer on Saturday from the Friday people. The listing was at $147K but she left the guaranteed price paper on the table, the other realtors saw the paper so she had an offer of $142K and countered with a price of $144K. She will have a few more offers today and tomorrow but she is tied into the first if the people continue. The people in Sherwood Park have stated that they are reluctant to move out at the end of the month. I am tired of these imagined problems and I am not interested in what Jason and Holly are going to do. All I know is that the lawyers and realtor is involved already.
Susan is happy about her new place and is starting to personalize the look of the rooms with the cabinets, style and colors. It is a very hectic and confusing situation at the moment and I am standing back from the whole situation.
Played squash with Warren on Saturday, a quiet game which he won after I won all six games on Thursday. He is a little preoccupied with his work discussions.
I spent some time with Derek at his office on Friday, buying some RRSP’s, finalizing the accident insurance and such. We had lunch. He was to go to Calgary but the weather has turned bad there so he will postpone it till next week.
I stopped by Henry Singer's and purchased some slacks that were of interest to me.
The traffic at the show home was very good on the weekend. I have generated some good leads that will lead to sales. The people are still enthusiastic about building with the interest rates low and prices going up only slowly. Feb. will encourage even more clients to make some decisions that have to be made to allow occupancy of a new home before fall.
The Rock Solid Showhome had an inspection in the SAM awards for best home over 2400 sq. ft. It would be very pleasant if the design won an award. The name recognition would be a favorable plus to Rocksolid and company.
Everettl is still too uncoordinated to find time to come to the meetings. He is falling into a situation that was his greatest problem back in the Oxford days.
Jeff had lunch with Warren. He was looking rough around the edges with still a great deal of confusion and indecision. Warren told him to make a decision, one way or another. Enjoy the two women he wants to be with and stop feeling guilty and frustrated. Nothing will come of the advice with Jeff since he is not in any position to do what is necessary to change the position he has chosen in his life. Nora will be of no help to him either.

Monday, Jan. 28-Sat. Feb. 2 sunny and warm, +4
The week has gone by slowly. The weather has turned normal with temperatures around -6.
The Canadian East has received the worst weather with ice storms, snow and blowing wind.
The boys without a car are doing fine with public transport.
Traffic was good.
Derek and wife came in, put a hold on one lot in the area, switched it and have produced a wish list for a meeting with John and myself on Wednesday. Greg M asked for a quote on a home of his design.
He came in on Wednesday to pick up the numbers and said he would be back.
Irvine worked for me on Thursday, with John having two appointments with my clients. I had the day off, drove around and checked out some lots in Donsdale and talked to a salesman at Hillview.
Susan has been busy getting her house ready to sell; getting material for her new condo and helping her daughter and family get ready to move. She spent the day with Mathew and Louise while Luke, Jason and Holly moved all their possessions to the new home. She came over to my show home and brought coffee on Wednesday. We chatted for a while and she enjoyed the silence. We were to have lunch on Friday but time did not allow it.
I met with Derek to complete the transfer of money from Sun Life to Manulife.
Terry and Merci came in for lunch with mother (her 84 birthday) on Wednesday. Her birthday was actually on Tuesday but Wednesday was a more convenient day for us to have lunch.
Cheryl called to say that her boss was giving her a hard time again and that she was ready to move on. I suggested that she at least complete the year at the place.
Warren left for Europe on Thursday for a week to see his family.
Only Hector showed up for the meeting on Thursday. Everett was too busy again. Peter said that all was well in Australia and he will be back soon.
Hector and his new lady friend are getting along nicely without too much pressure. He is holding back on his desire to become intimate with her too quickly.
I spent the time doing things for myself this week; bought some clothes, picked some others up and spent the week enjoying the quietness.
Susan’s hectic time will come to an end today and things will start getting back to a serenity that she needs to make some good decisions.
The boys are fine as of last week.
Cory is really enjoying his new place and the freedom that it is bringing. He is involved with the sister of Dana's new girl friend.
The economy continues to be strong with this year looking great in the home sales area.
The Tyco stock that was at $62 last month has fallen to around $30 this week. A friend knowledgeable of such things suggested that the company would split into 4 different entities. It is not good news for the guys at the company who have invested so much of their paychecks into the company. The long term return will be good but the short term is not a good idea.

Monday, Feb. 4, Tuesday, Feb. 5 - sunny/clouds warm +6
I arranged to have some flowers delivered to Susan at work to brighten up her day. She was pleased. The day went quickly for her. She spent some time with Janice, a home decorator, looking at samples for flooring for her home.
The silence in her home is very appealing to her; since the crowd moved out into their new home; Susan has been able to have her bath, with time taken for her mental well being.
Work was good, with more discussions with Andy and his quote from Hillview taking up time on our quote. I spent the morning at the office doing a comparison of the two builders. It was a useful exercise in getting to know the different prices and quality of material.
Andy came in during the evening and did up an offer to buy the lot and build the home. I will take it to John and Jeff if Andy comes back with the checque to hold the lot. We are only $6000 apart but with some added items that might make it hard to be closer. It will happen I am sure.
Elsie from Fort Sask. called for some more information about building in that area. I faxed some info to her and will hear from her in a short while. I think they have sold their home and are ready to build.
I was interviewed for the accident and sickness plan that Derek has put together.
The Tyco stock has taken more of beating since last week. The specter of the unusual accounting practices stemming from the Enroll collapse has affected many of the companies that used the same process. The stock is down to $29 as of noon today.
The teachers strike started on Monday with neither side moving at the moment. It makes for good press and keeps everyone doing unusual things. The parents are unhappy but the kids are having fun with the warm weather and the new holiday. Everyone should benefit from the change of pace.
Warren is still in Europe and I have not heard from Peter yet. He should be back today or tomorrow, Hector said.
I have been sleeping better, although I let this negotiation with Andy get to me. The process is so slow it seems. No real highs and no real lows. When the deal is signed, I cannot get high because things have to be put in place. When the conditions are removed it is a ways down the road and John usually does this process, so I have no reason to be excited. When I get the checque, oh well, the money still is not covering the bills that I have or the tax that I will have to pay.
Dana's inability to get work and pay me back has been weighing on me. I have to struggle to be at peace with the situation. It is just a loan that he will repay when he is working and making good money. I believe that he is trying quite hard to get some employment and get back on his feet. He was feeling quite frustrated with the current state of events.
All things in good time.

Sat. Feb. 9, Monday, Feb 11 sunny, warm and windy +3
The week went by quickly with a great deal of activity at work. I wrote two more deals and continued with my work with Andy.
It is coming together slowly but I have had several headaches that have made some of the time unpleasant. Susan came over on Friday after not being available for a week, we watched a movie but I had a headache so she went home at midnight. I felt bad.
Warren was gone so I could not get any exercise in playing squash.
A couple that I had dealt with last year has decided to complete the deal for building a home.
Susan sold her home on Sunday night for $143K after enduring several weeks of people walking through the house and disrupting her life. She is a little more relieved to have this behind her. I worked all day Friday, (on my day off) to put together the information I needed for the several deals that are going on. The time off this week will be appreciated. Kolla's blueprint is finally done and delivered to him. I should get a paycheck from it before the end of the month.
Went out to the casino on Saturday night and enjoyed the evening, playing cards, some other games and watching the activities of the fellow players. I would look forward to a small trip to Vegas in the near future perhaps later this year.
Susan R’s birthday is this week. Fred continues to be totally absorbed by his job. He should be able to make it down to celebrate her birthday. The Susan’s are going out for supper this week.
Peter got back from Australia for the Thursday meeting. Hector and Everett were not around so I was able to learn firsthand from Peter about his great two months on holiday. He and his family had a great time and were sad that the time went by so quickly. Peter had picture and some video that he will make available to us at a later date. He spent three days Scuba diving the Great Barrier Reef. Warren is a little jealous about the trip but is happy for him. Peter told Jennifer that they must be in love to have spent so much time together and still be talking.
Cheryl's birthday is today, 38 I think. She is not home; I would expect that she is out celebrating.
The boys are OK. Cory is busy with Greg's work plus odds and ends of work that he is creating. Dana is busy with his new girl friend and might have a job as a waiter soon. The film industry is slowly getting active and will be producing some work. Dana is commenting on the closeness of Cory but I think he likes that he is so close to his brother, if only to borrrow some money. They will work it out on their own I expect.
I talked to Christine M. who said she will be putting together some information about a laptop. She is getting married this weekend and then going on a week honeymoon. I think she has other things on her mind.
I am looking forward to seeing Susan more often now that the other activities in her life have come to an end and will not be taking as much of her mind and body.

Sunday, Feb 17, Sunny, warm, +7
The week went by at a steady pace. I completed a couple more agreements with lots becoming available in Breckenridge. Put two lots on hold for Scott B and Carmen M. Carmen was a referral from Scott, a banker, which should prove to be a good source of clients. He is Darren M’s banker and will work with him and John to create a home this week. Andy's paper is moving along. Elsie M and her wishes are becoming evident and I will talk with her on Monday to move the ideas along.
I had a great massage from Odette while we discussed ideas and issues pertaining to self fulfillment and personal direction. Procrastination is one her issues. She is uncertain in many areas of doing things for herself. She is reading the book I gave her for her friend. She has the idea that she may benefit from the book more than he will.
Wise woman.
My brother, Jim, called to say that he was in town for Friday night, so I picked up mother and had supper with him. He discussed his and his wife’s (Marion) new found knowledge of faith healers and all the ideas around belief and energy. Mother was a little surprised with his new point of view but I expressed interest. Jim talked a great deal about the benefits that he and Marion had gathered from the experience. He is a wise fellow and will be able to balance the new knowledge he is acquiring.
Grace was quite surprised and distressed by the energy and the statements that Jim made. Oh well, that is something that she will have to deal with.
Susan has continued to make decisions about the colors and items for her new condo. She is getting a great deal of comments from her friends about her choices; most of the time these comments are not causing her any concern.
Gail, her neighbor is feeling a great deal of grief regarding her daughter moving out and the loss of control that Gail feels. She will find other ways of justifying her intrusion into her daughter’s way of life and the decisions that are made. Sort of sad. John, Gail's husband, leads a quiet way of life and is not involved with the excess energy that comes off of Gail.
The men's group met on Thursday at the Second cup.
Warren was back and looked forward to getting involved in the meeting.
Peter was back to share his story about his travels to Australia.
Everett was in attendance and sharing his feelings about work and his personal issues. He is struggling, not sleeping, with the successes that are occurring in his work life. Louise has successfully made the transition to not working at a full time job. She does the company books a couple days of the week and is enjoying the time spent with Everett.
Luke is arranging a ski trip for the family in the next month.
I have had to confront a deep hidden thought that I should not be as successful as I have become in the last short time to make sure that I do not sabotage the direction of my conscious and subconscious mind. It is an interesting problem. I have been grinding my teeth a little at night and have not slept during the week on certain occasions. I feel it will get better and I understand what I am doing.
The days are good with all the guys enjoying their successes.

Sunday, Feb. 23/02
Saturday, April 13 - Sunny, + 11, spring has been here for a few days.
The past week has been a difficult one. I had expectations of the abilities of other people, assumed they would conduct themselves in a certain fashion to achieve the goals that I expected and they did not. Putting the clients, Rhea and Georgette together was not a good idea. Their energy just got out of hand and created a situation that excited Chris. I discussed certain items about the Weber’s that he felt out of control with and continued to get excited all week. John was a steady influence all week.
I was ok with Susan all week but acted cool toward her all week, not as punishment but to protect myself from any unexpected emotional let down. My eyes gave me trouble all week by watering with my body feeling very tired. It seems to be better today after playing squash with Warren and spending some quality time with Susan. She is ok with what is happening and continues to package herself for the move to her new condo at the end of the month. She is quite excited with the move and her new life.
Luke has moved in successfully with Amanda and is happy.
Holly is with another child, hopefully a girl, due this fall. Susan would be very happy to have a grand daughter to pamper. She could outfit her with a new girl wardrobe.
Warren is in a good mood, displayed by beating me in squash on Saturday. He has some meetings with Stantec this week, two meetings that he knows of. They want to get involved with him and his program, to what extent he does not know but it has done a great deal for his confidence. He was in an upbeat mood. I was still tired and gave him a good game not a great game. Monday will be different.
I received my new laptop computer this week and have been getting to know it. There is so much to the unit that it will take a long time to be able to use most of it.
Chris has allowed me to get and receive an e- mail address through Rocksolid. I will have to set it up this coming week to get into the electronic swing of things. I rented a DVD to watch on the unit when it is quiet.
My taxes went well with my accountant doing the necessary calculations for mother and myself.
We ate in town and had a terrible, heavy meal. Not much light food in the town.
Mother suggested that Terry might show up but he had not made an appearance by the time we were ready to leave. Mom and I had a good discussion about her life in the late 30’s and early 40’s when they moved from Midway to the current family farm location. She seemed to enjoy talking about her early years.
Warren said he and Jeff had lunch during the week. Jeff is selling his homes and commercial property in Edmonton, along with his wife’s interests and moving to do business in Toronto. He has purchased a home and is starting to get people to renovate the property. Warren did not know whether Chris’s one week stay in Edmonton would entail any contact with Nora. I would think, probably so. I will give her a call in June (6 months) to catch up on her life.
My car is still in the shop. They said it would be two weeks before it was repaired. The rental is nice but it is just a small run-about car for the city. I was looking at a 3.2 TL Acura 1998, fully loaded for about 5 thousand more than I could get for mine but have decided I do not need the expense at the moment or the larger type of car. Mine is just fine. I can find better ways of using the cash that is coming in.
My massage with Odette was great, the discussion and the work out. Next month will not come soon enough. She is trying to change her life and is continuing to read the book that I gave her. She will be successful I am sure.

2001 Comes to an End

2006-05-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

Monday, Nov. 19, Wednesday, Nov. 21 cloudy, warm + 6, some showers but colder weather predicted for the end of the week with snow
Had my massage with Odette this morning.
We had a great conversation about being in the present and achieving a state of relaxation that would be good for the body and soul.
She has a male friend who is having a difficult time dealing with his lack of control in life. The harder he tries to control everything; the less effect he seems to have on the people and events in his life. It is beginning to have a negative affect on their relationship. She is also concerned about his mental and physical health. She asked me to recommend a good doctor; which would be Dr. Joe. She will suggest that he meet with Dr. Joe and see how they get together. He would benefit from attending the group but he must be referred by Dr. Joe.
Lunch with mother was a relaxing affair. She had been out with Cheryl and Daryl to her home town to visit with family. She came away with a good impression pf Daryl although she is still having a difficult time with Cheryl's instability. Mother’s grandson, Kurt, is looking better with the home cooking and attention he is getting from his new girlfriend. Kurt’s brother Marlon, traded in his truck from last year for a new unit.
Traffic has been slow but the written deals are quite successful and lucrative.
Terry and Alice signed. John is meeting with Don this weekend. The preliminary blue prints are back for the client from out of town, although the house is difficult to fit on the lot they want. We will rework the house layout and John will make the house fit to their satisfaction. The Monday evening meeting went well with Cliff and his parents. They really like us as a company and were impressed by the owners of the home I showed. The home owners said we did a great job. Cliff and his parents are coming in on Sunday to do some more work on the house design and pricing. Cliff is to send me an outline of a home he likes.
Warren has been working in the area then went out of town for a couple of days but will be back in time for the dinner meeting with Dr. Joe on Thursday.
Jim, a former participant of the mens’ group, said he was coming, when I informed him of the dinner.
The weather was too cold and rainy on Tuesday to go flying so it was postponed to this Friday or next week.
I talked to Cory and Dana over the last couple of days. They are both doing fine with Cory and Gillian getting along better. Cory gave me a Christmas list of items he wants for himself. The palm pilot is what I should get him because it makes the most sense.
I have decided to get a new laptop that includes a DVD player and connection to my TV so I will not have to get a separate DVD unit for my apartment. I can also watch the movies at the Showhome and in my bedroom if I wish. I am looking at the new Compaq 705 series that are just out from Staples.
I will have to get a GST number at the end of the month because of my income.
Susan said that the offer made by Holly and Jason is about 90% certain to be accepted for the house they want in Sherwood Park. It is available for Feb.1. This is a great relief to Susan. It is a livable period of time for them to exist together. Holly and Jason will feel a lot better having their own place to spread out in. Good for them.
Alice is excited about the house they have purchased and thanked me for the help that I gave them in obtaining it. They will move in June 1/02.
Now if Melvina will come in to buy this showhome for possession in the future I would feel good about the home going to a great person who would really love it.

Thursday, Nov. 22, Sunday, Nov. 25, cloudy, snowing, -11
The last few days have heralded the beginning of winter. We have had fog, clouds and snow over the last short while. The weather has turned colder with the ground now covered with three or four inches of snow. This will stay now till spring.
Driving has become a competition for some people.
The group dinner with Dr. Joe was a fine gathering.
Jim showed up later in the evening after a meeting uptown. Everyone else arrived on time, except for Jeff who is in Toronto this week. Dr. Joe shared some personal information with us since we are no longer patients of his. He is doing fine passing along some new experiences about making his life with a special woman. This is an exciting event in his life. We all shared some information of our lives with Dr. Joe to let him know where we were at this time. The time went quickly with most of the group leaving around eight in the evening.
Jim stayed and asked that I stay for a little discussion. We talked; or rather he did, about his new direction in life. He is participating in non-partisan politics with action groups that are addressing and voicing concerns about various issues. He is still unsettled in his personal life. He was trying to get to know the waitress while he was chatting with me and managed to ignore both of us. He insisted in talking over the answers that she was giving him. He has a message to get out and is not able to communicate and listen to both sides of the discussion. He would like to go flying with me if I am comfortable with him and also would be available to play squash if Warren was not around. He left his job and is now working and volunteering for a church group and some francophone groups. He sold his home and is living with his mother at Alberta Beach while he looks for some stability. I will give him a call if I am able to get some flying in soon.
The weather has prevented Christine and me from getting off the ground for some flying.
Warren and I played some squash on Saturday, with both of us winning the same number of games. It was nice to get back playing. He is very happy with the probability of the Ottawa group buying the program he is working on. This one sale would set him up as a credible force in the industry, a sizable financial reward and a great reputation. The other towns and municipalities that could use such a program would look at him with greater confidence. He has a time frame of about 2 years before another major company will create a program similar to his and become his competition. He is aware of this but not overly concerned.
Did some personal shopping on Friday at the Colony and purchased a leather flight jacket for myself. I am very pleased with the purchase, although I took Susan to Danier's to look at the leather jackets in the store but did not find one that was what desirable. The price was less but so was the quality. We looked at the winter jackets at The Edmonton Co-op but none were suited to what I wanted.
We had an excellent meal at Sceppa's at the end of the evening. She spent the day shopping with Maxine, her dad and Mathew. Holly and Jason are still excited about the confirmation of the home they purchased in Sherwood Park with possession in Feb. Everyone including Luke is very pleased with the evolution of events.
John met with a client on Saturday, although I do not know the results of what they discussed. The paper that was left in the waste basket suggests that they progressed on the design for the new home. Some clients are to meet with John at the Sherwood Park Showhome today to look at the plan layout for the lot in Fort. Sask. It is a good location and we can adjust it a little more if we get some relief from the people in planning.
The payment for Alice and Terry will be available this week for the end of the month.
Cantel is quite confused about where I live at the moment and have not sent out a bill yet, so I will address the situation by calling them again on Monday and getting their attention to the problem.
Christmas arrives in a month.

Monday, Nov. 26, Sat. Dec. 1, cold and sunny- snow all last week with temperatures in the -10's
The week has been quiet and gray with large soft snow flakes coming down everyday. Winter has arrived with the snow fall this week greater than all the snow we had last year.
The economy will start to boom again. The repair shops, tire shops, clothing shops and all the outdoor recreation stores will be doing a great business.
The oil industry will be able to move in the North Country and create work for the crews and all the back up suppliers.
Dana called on Tuesday a little down, and wanting to talk. We chatted for a while but he did not ask for money and I did not offer. He is doing a little work but is short for his rent. He will ask his mom or arrange for another short term loan. We discussed some Xmas presents- he wants the Hollywood special effects book that I was able to order at Chapters. It will come in before Xmas I hope. I managed to contact Cory on Friday night and get some background about what is going on. He is getting his EI finally, and doing some work for Greg. He has found a place near Dana's and would like to move in as soon as possible but he may wait to see if Dana is working in Regina in January. He is in a good mood and suggested a book on cooking with peppers and other hot and spicy foods that I might get him. Along with the Palm pilots for Xmas they should be happy with their presents. We discussed the arrangements of getting to Edmonton and back to Regina by bus or my flying them on the 27/28 of Dec.
I am having a hard time not giving in to Dana's need for money for his rent. One side of me says he has to learn to be more flexible and get other jobs while he waits for the film industry to start in a large way again. The other side says that the industry will start soon and this is just a short term loan. I have loaned him some money and I know he will pay it back but when is it enough. Linda should be able to assist him on this short term need.
I had my car serviced for the timing belt, water pump and the door locks. All is well except for the passenger side door lock stopped working a couple of days after I took the car home.
My landlady is looking after the lack of heat in my apartment and others.
Susan and I are going to The Christmas Carol play at the Citadel tonight. Both Warren and Peter have attended saying the performance was excellent.
Warren was not at the group meeting on Thursday. The snow was too great and conditions kept him at home. Jim was not present but that is not a surprise. We ended up in the family room of the Showhome with the fireplace going.
Everett shared with us the fact that he is having less control on his movements than he had in spring. His little boy is getting in the way of his everyday activities. Everett said he was telling his little boy to shut up and be quiet and not bother him. We suggested that he change his tactics, address some of the concerns that his inner child has, take him out for an ice cream or something and let his fears and concerns surface, deal with them and things will get better.
Peter is relaxed and ready for his trip south with his wife and child. He will be back in Feb.
Work is going very well for me. The serious buyers are coming in and arranging for homes to be built. I should have a total of 7 or 8 deals by the end of Dec. I will have to see whether they all come together this year or I can conclude some of them in 02. Whatever the clients want to do is OK with me.
Getting a GST number will depend on whether I get paid this year or next.
I will let it unfold as it wants to.

Sunday, Dec. 9- sunny, clear and warm --3
The week has gone by quickly.
Susan had her operation on her toe to remove a small tumor using some bone from her hip to fill in the hole. She is at home, feeling better as the days pass. She has stopped using her crutches and now is hobbling around the house, wrapping Christmas presents.
The home is full of people coming and going. Holly has two jobs, as well as Luke. They are both working at the Bay during the Christmas season along with some work at Pier I for Holly. Jason has settled into his work with the RCMP unit in Sherwood Park. The house purchase is moving along well and they will move in late Feb. Holly is expecting another child in about 8 months. Everyone is happy and quite content with the developments. Mathew is growing up a very contented young chap.
Peter is off on his holiday for two months with his family. Warren talked to him before he left and all seems quite calm.
Fred and Sue were to come over to visit with Susan and me but her surgery has postponed the visit.
Dana and I had a talk about his responsibilities in obtaining work if he is not getting any film work. He will do what is necessary I expect. Cory and Dana are both coming down for Christmas. The final arrangements have not been made yet.
I did my first flight in the Pipe with Christine last week. We have to finish off the flight on Monday, weather permitting. I just have to do a stall, steep turn and a forced approach to get my check out papers. We are to do dome landings in the new 72 next Friday and then some night flights to get my night rating up to par.
I want to get familiar with the GPS and other instruments in the 72 so I can be confident with them if I go to Regina to get the boys. I have the plane booked for the 27/28. Weather permitting I will fly to Regina.
Mother wants some pictures of the boys and I around the plane whether we fly or not.
Derek and I tried to get a lunch date in last week but were unable to do so.
The deal I have been waiting for came together.

Tuesday, Dec 11, cloudy -8 winter day, some snow.
Christine and I went out on Monday and completed the requirements for the check out on the Piper. It was cloudy and snow was in the forecast but we went up anyway. The plane flew like a dream. The stall was not even noticeable, the steep turn was up and down but the forced landing was great. The final landing at the airport was perfect except I still missed the center line by ten feet. I will have to work on that. This may be the plane to take on long trips if I had a hand held GPS. We are to go up in the new 72 on Friday in the morning to do a check out on it and get used to the toys on the plane. In the evening I am to do the night landings to retain my rating, but we may have to do it in the other 72.
I will see.
Dana called last night; he has been working as a bouncer for the last few days and is getting some money for it. Our discussion has had a little effect on him, he sounds better and feels better, he said. He might have some consulting work in Regina when he is down for the holidays. I am trying to line up an interview in Edmonton with Iatse for him. They said to drop in and chat with them. Dana said that he has found good homes for two of his kittens. Cory called last night and left a message but I was out at the moment. I will try to call him later tonight. I was able to pick up two Palm Pilots for their Christmas gifts. I played with one; it is a neat toy and unit.
Perhaps I can get myself one in the future.
Darren had his lot sold out from under him by Canyon Springs, he was some mad. The focus was taken off the price and put on the land issue. He is OK with the lot we have and the price difference if Melcor waves the interest accrued on the land. Darren gave us the house plan back so we could do a house plot to make sure the house fit. I was able to transfer the Sch. B info onto his disc and deliver it to Christine, his fiancée who works next door. The company she works for is able to provide the same Compaq laptops that I was looking for with a better price in January. I will have to check it out then.
Cliff did not show up with the house plan for the open staircase but this is not unusual.

Sunday, Dec 16, sunny, warm +2
The balance of the week was snowy, with winds on Friday.
I was unable to make the flights on Friday on the new 72 and the night flying. Susan is doing well with her foot operation. She had two pins inserted into her foot to help healing of the bone. She is dealing well with it. Maxine went to Regina so Susan will be staying at her place for a couple of days so Jason’s dog will not be able to bump into her foot so much.
With the operation on her left foot she is still able to drive herself around and get out of the house. She does not have to use the crutches that were giving her so much trouble. The family is getting alone well and Christmas plans are moving ahead with the minimum amount of fuss.
Dana has flown to Regina, with Cory to follow this week. I have not talked to either although Cory has left messages to say that all is well. I was informed that he was doing a little work with Jason on Friday on a film.
I got most of my shopping done except for some wine for Susan’s in laws, Bob and Luxy.
I decided to change planes for my flight to Regina because all the stars would have to line up perfectly for me to be able to fly and take the new 72. The plane does not come back till the afternoon before. I still have not been checked out on it and there is only a small chance that I will be able to do so. If the weather is bad or the return is late or if there is a snag, I will not be able to take the plane even if the weather is good. With the Piper, I am checked out already, the plane is cheaper, it has auto pilot (I have to figure out yet) . A basic GPS, I may have to purchase a new mobile unit. I will just have to get my night rating up to date and I will do that with Christine.
Darren and Christine came in today to sign the deal for their new home.
Cliff and his mom are coming in later on Sunday to finalize the paperwork on their home.
Fred has been spending some time at home with Susan and Samantha because work is slow. He is enjoying his time at home.

Monday, Dec 17/02, Dec. 30/01 Sunday, cold -14, sunny with ice crystals
I spent a couple of hours on Sunday and Saturday at the show home to keep the doors open.
Some traffic from people who are just looking around. The week up to Christmas was slow with only light traffic. The days were cloudy and cold. The weather did not allow me to fly out to Regina to get the boys. They came in on the bus on Friday. They enjoyed the trip and made a few new friends on the bus. We had a quick supper; Dana had arranged to see some friends and spend the night.
Cory came home with me and we chatted and caught up on things.
I played squash on Saturday morning and went to work. I booked off early because of no traffic.
Dana came over with Karen, he helped her move some stuff to her office, we all had a pizza and then the boys and I went to see Lord of the Rings at the theatre in the evening. Karen went home.
Sunday morning we had brunch with Nanny and then Cory was dropped off to see his friend Mark. Mom and Dana went to WEM. Dana was to hook up with Karen again. Cory was going over to a former co worker place for supper. I will go to Susan's for coffee later.
Christmas was good.
I received a winter coat from Susan and some books; not the car starter I thought I would be getting. Christmas was a lot of eating, some drinking and a good deal of discussion.
Luke was totally in love with Amanda, he spent his whole time thinking of her. Good stuff for him.
Susan took them to the plane for their ocean cruise that he won. Susan has been taking time for herself by staying at Maxine's home since she is gone to Winnipeg for a couple of weeks. Her foot is getting better but she is getting tired of the immobility of her foot. She is going to the doctor next week, to get the pins taken out of her foot. Matthew is doing well, does not have the terrible two's syndrome and is enjoying the love and attention of everyone around. Jason has settled into his new job well, with Holley working at two jobs as long as she can.
Fred and Susan have settled into a routine with Kelsey. Samantha is a nice baby at ten months. Fred is very quiet holding onto his strong beliefs about what is right and wrong. Kelsey is going to school next year and is working as much as she can.
Cory is excited about moving into his new apartment when he gets back. Dana is resolved to get more work and have a great year. They both have a good outlook on what is to come about. They are both very funny and witty young men.
Had a long talk with Gillian during Christmas and helped her in a direction regarding Jason. She is very frustrated with what she sees he is doing to himself and how he is treating her. It will take a long time for her to get him to treat her differently. She will complicate matters with her insecurities. Oh well.
Warren and I are playing squash as much as we can during the holidays to try and retain some sort of activity so I can continue to eat well and enjoy the chocolates that I received from Susan and family.
I will be able to invoice for the jobs that are closing in January to apply to the bills that are coming in.
The New Year will be great with the selling easier and more consistent.
I will be able to apply myself to more than just work.

The Glass Wall of October

2006-05-13T13:16:00.000-07:00

Sunday, Oct. 14, Tuesday, Oct. 15 +12, Clear with light winds, and sunny, great autumn day
Traffic was brisk on Sunday. The strong wind and cold temperatures allowed people to do things indoor instead of their normal autumn tasks.
Spent the evening watching some playoff baseball.
Dana called to say that his cat had three kittens in his apartment and all involved were doing well. He will take care of them until he can give them away. He is doing well after working a couple days over the last few weeks.
Cory was busy but still managed to call. He suggested he may be going down to Atlanta to help set up the computers that Greg has purchased recently. He may stay longer for a visit if he can. Both are sounding well and getting along with life. Linda, their mother, may fly them down for Christmas with Dana staying a little longer to try and get some work while he is down there.
Jason, Susan’s son in law, has come down to Edmonton for a funeral in Sask. at the end of the week. He has sold the home in Fort St. John. He and Holly have looked at some more Showhome and are comfortable with building something. Susan has been getting along well with Holly and has started to work the afternoon shift at Nait for the week.
Played squash with Warren on Monday and won the games fairly easily. He was off a little or I was on a little bit. Who knows what happens when the mind is not present. He said that Peter was feeling a little left out because Warren had not called him when he had returned from Ottawa. I called and talked with Dr. Joe and have set up a dinner meeting with the all of us on Nov. 22 a Thursday. Dr. Tom said that he was setting up a practice in Canmore and will be working in the area several weeks of each month.
The weekend was a good one with Susan coming over with a coffee on Friday evening. We went out for Greek food on Saturday. Sunday she spent the day searching for rocks with Anne west of the city.
I was able to give her the space and acknowledge that we both knew what we were doing and it was not a threat to her or me. We meet for coffee on Tuesday morning and a chat about Gail, her friend and the weight that Gail enjoys carrying around.
The month is coming along nicely with only a few down times where I question the slowness and lack of excitement that is occurring in my life. I know that it is only the “October energies” that surround me to cause these feelings. Quietness is not a threat to my existence I tell myself. The inquiries and steps that I am taking are accomplishing the correct events that I am sure will be beneficial to my well being.
I purchased some very fine sheets for the bed in my apartment with only a twinge of hesitancy about the money that I was spending on myself.

Wed. Oct 17, clear but windy, +11
Went for my monthly massage with Odette which was a great experience as always. She spends a little more time when she does a morning massage than a late afternoon because she is a lot fresher.
I drove out to Spruce Grove to look at a lot that the woman from out of town said she wanted to build her home on. I talked to John and he said that he would get me the price and size information that I required.
Cory called last night, very frustrated with Gillian's attitude toward his belief's and work ethics. I listened to him and let him vent. He will do something to bring this to an end. I told him whatever he did it would not change my attitude towards him. He will have to do what he thinks is necessary, even if it is to come home to Edmonton or go to Regina. He would have a great deal more fun with his biking in the mountains than he is having in Toronto. The female situation would be different out here but he will make do. Dana will let him stay at his place if he is still around in January when Dana stays in Regina. Cory will be going down to Atlanta for a while at the end of the month, which will remove him from the problem that is creating itself.
Gillian probably has no knowledge of all the energy that she has at the moment. I won't be able to talk with her for a while because of the focus she has on her needs to change people and things. Simon and Kathi are staying at arm's length and are busy at work.
Cory said that he will be collecting EI for 20 weeks. I made him say that I was correct in stating that he would qualify. I had to bug him a little bit about him saying that it would be impossible for him to collect because he was fired. Maybe Dad does know something. I am keeping it at arms length and I am sure that they, Cory, Gillian and Dana will work out their relationship to the best of their abilities. The boys will not associate with her anymore than they have to. Cory will move out and use this past year as a learning experience.
She will ask me but will not understand what is happening even after I explain it to her. She cannot comprehend that there is anyway to live except the way she sees to live. Her statements about her sons, especially Jason and all the people who are against him and what he does, are a little frightening. To her, her boy can do no wrong, she is certain. He is the major creator of his problems and takes no blame or responsibility for his actions. He is very adept at getting Gillian to handle and take the point on any problems he is creating. She will not stop and see what he is doing and he will not do anything to change the dance they are in. He is old enough to know better but old enough to know how to manipulate her. Simon, being married to a strong willed woman, is more insulated now. He is less selfish and will not impose himself on Gillian. Gillian's friends will not take the time to try and change her because they do not have the time or the energy to do so. They have their lives to live and can step away far enough so they do not get frustrated.

Thursday, Oct. 18, Sunday, Oct. 21 clear and sunny + 9
Some good traffic on Sunday.
An older couple came in and suggested they are tired of living in Millwoods with the declining neighborhood. They were impressed with the Cascade, took a great deal of information and will talk more about the house, changes, location and their wish list. Good possibility. Called a client and talked briefly with him about the price increases. He said that he and his wife are in the midst of a divorce so things are to be put off for a while. Who knows what can happen.
Spent last night watching the World Series playoffs and some hockey.
Relaxing evening, Susan was off for supper with Gail so they could talk about the problems of their children. The police have charged the woman for running a red light and colliding with Luke’s car. This will be relief for Luke, now her insurance company will pay for the repair of his car. He would be advised to take the money and purchase a new car instead of repairing the unit because of massive body damage. I told Holly to check out the home guide section of the paper to get a better understanding of the hidden costs of building and owning a new home.
Saturday was busy but no good clients for the future. Kimberley and her Darryl did not come in and are not answering their phone. They may be in BC for the funeral.
I moved some money around to get some use of it. That is not a concern at the moment. Warren was not feeling well, so we have not played our regular squash games. He is off to Ottawa on Tuesday. Maybe we will get a game in on Monday night. I have told everyone about the supper we have arranged with Dr. Tom for November.
Lucy called from Vancouver on Sunday. It was a pleasure to hear from her. It has been about three years since we lasted talked. She has changed locations and is now working for a Chrysler dealership in Burnaby. She got married last year to an executive for a cookie company and sounds very happy. She is enjoying golfing and the relationship she is in. Her family is in Edmonton and doing well. I will arrange to see her if she is available for lunch.
Neither Cory nor Lillian has called since last week. It would seem that they have come to consensus with their relationship. Cory may even have found a job or gone to Atlanta for Greg. They will find a way of working out their difficulties.
I expect the kittens Dana is taking care of have opened their eyes and are becoming a bit of a handful. Good for him. The job situation will ease for him soon I expect.
Susan if feeling good about herself and is enjoying having Holly and her family around. Jason is down for a few days to attend a funeral in Sask. He is going back to finish up with the house detail and get ready to move to the city. He will be starting to work for the RCMP in Sherwood Park at the beginning of November.
I have put away the golf clubs for the season. The snow will stay away till the middle of November with the weather remaining mild I predict.
I should get some new tires after the 15 of November.

Monday, Oct. 22, Tuesday Oct 23, snowing for the last two days, cloudy +1 winter time
Winter has come, woke up to white ground and cold stuff falling from the sky.
The start of winter time; it has been snowing since late Sunday night. The weather is to warm up to the plus 10's this weekend but I doubt if the snow will disappear. I expect the traffic to slow down to a crawl this week except for the people who are really interested. I have a few people who are kind of interested but I will wait to see what is going to happen.
Luke found out that the lady has no insurance so will not be able to pay for the repair of his car. He talked to a lawyer who has given him some advice on how to proceed. Jason has gone back to work and will be down at the end of the month he is quite sure. I drove out to see the Ironwood home that Holly is interested in Lakeland Ridge in town. It is not much from the outside but she says the inside is very interesting. I will try to have a look at it and get a plan if I am able.
Mother was quite talkative last night and we will have lunch on Wednesday as usual. She has talked to Grace and will see her when she comes into Edmonton.
Susan talked to Susan and Fred about getting together on Friday evening for supper and cake and it should be arranged for Tony Roma's. They are having a difficult time with Kelsey and her boyfriend. The boyfriend is removing himself from her life and has taken up with another girl. Kelsey is not willing to let him go and is not sure that she should keep Samantha. Fred and Sue are saying that it is up to her, in what she wants to do but will not allow the child to leave their company. Kelsey has some tough decisions to make if Fred and Sue create the situation that will allow her to do that. It is getting tougher as it goes along.
Dana called to say that he still has no steady work but is trying. I suggested that he contact his mother if he is in need of any money for rent. He said that there may be some work in Regina so he will be going down sooner than Christmas and Cory can take over his apartment and the raising of the kittens.
I talked to my client again over the weekend to bring him information about the price increases. He informed me that he was still interested but he and his wife were getting a divorce so the time frame would have to be put off for a while. More important issues have occurred in his life than building a home at the moment. I wished him the best and said that he could contact me when he was ready.
I was browsing through a book on Magic tricks at Chapters yesterday and have found it to be quite interesting. I will follow this up with some more reading and perhaps some practice to learn some of the tricks. Mathew, Susan’s grandson, would appreciate and enjoy them, perhaps. I will look at getting some books on writing so I can get a better idea about putting words together in the form of a story or in a form that is readable. I anticipated flying this week but the snow and clouds have put a stop to that idea for a while. The weather will clear and I will make a point of getting up by myself and then getting together with Christine to do some night flying. It certainly is nice to have covered parking with this snow that is coming down and the cold temperatures that are expected during the weather. The car will appreciate the easy starting in the mornings and the battery will perhaps last some extra time. I know that it was having a hard time on some of the cold winter mornings when it was parked outside last year. I should get some new tires but I expect that the tire places are very busy during these days of snow and bad driving conditions.
Life is very good at the moment and I expect it to stay good and get even better. I am not anxious about the sales not coming quickly. My debts are becoming less as the months go by. The cash required to live will be that much less, so I can last another 5 months before I have to sell a house. Dana will start working full time before the New Year and will start paying me back some of the money he owes me. Even if he does not have much cash at least he will not need my help. The deal with Cam should be coming together, although I have not been able to get hold of John to find out more about it.
Things are good.

Wednesday, Oct. 24, Thursday, Oct. 25 sunny, clear +4
Well, today is my birthday, 53 years old. My, what a great time we have had. I have put another year together in the grandest of fashions. No regrets or rather only a few and those are of very little importance, except as marker points in the passage of time knowledge and experience. I have not flown enough but that has been my choice in terms of money and time. That will be rectified over the next few months, with the winter air and calm that will occur with the cooling of the temperatures. The coolness will make for great daytime and night time flying. Christine will help me with getting checked out in the new 172 and help me revisit the night time flying.
The past two days have been very quiet as far as showhome traffic is concerned. I spent some time finding the lot information for the realtor, Nola, and the information that I can find for Holly and Jason. We, Susan, Holly and Mathew will drive out to Leduc to see the Richmond show home on Friday to get a better sense of what Holly desires.
Hector and Peter showed up for the group meeting. Warren is in Ottawa and Everett is not calling to say whether he was coming.
Hector filled us in on his dinner date on Saturday last. The evening was just ok but he was put off by the woman indecision and lack of energy. She was acceptable in the looks department but he was uncomfortable that she could not make up her mind easily and was not a robust person. Half way through the dinner she commented that she was sure that they had no future because so many things were incompatible between them. It relieved Hector from making the same comment as he felt the same way. They spent a span of 2 1/2 hours at dinner than went for a walk until it was time to take her home. He is going to send her an e-mail that it was nice but there is no future in spending any more time together. The lady that was running the dating service, he paid for, called him to pass on another name for him to call and chat with. He was going to do so, in a short span of time.
Peter was ok with his life except for some information and request for payment from the car rental company in Winnipeg that was requesting money for extra gas and a repair for the damage on the van he rented. He was some upset and informed them that he had filled the tank before he dropped off the van and the van had a dent in it when he picked it up. They called back that it was their mistake and all was well. It would seem that they were hopping he would be a business expense client and ignore the added costs.
An expression of thought and desires for the upcoming year.
The upcoming year will be a great year.
I will fly more and enjoy longer trips in the airplane.
I will play more golf with some new clubs that I will purchase during the winter months.
The homes that I will sell will total 12 during the next 12 months.
I will take care of myself by working out by playing squash with Warren and working out at the YMCA as much as I feel comfortable with.
I will continue to get regular massages for the relaxation of the body and the soul. I will make a point of relating with Susan.
I will make a greater effort to spend more time with Fred over the next year.
I will learn a couple more skills, magic and learning how to write a book or a journal that may be of interest to other people.
I will keep a reasonable distance form my boys, Cory and Dana to allow them to continue to grow and mature as adults and successful young men, but at the same time give them as much assistance and help as will help them.
I will stay in contact with Gillian to ensure that she is able to make the transition in her life and still maintain her health and mental well being.
I will invest as much money as possible with Derek and my own vehicle to ensure a fund in the future and the enjoyment of reacting to the market.
I will not allow the daily irritants of life to create an atmosphere that is draining and bothersome.
This I will do to the best of my ability.
This is a neutral life we live. We make of it what we want. We decide how we react to the events that occur around us. The mental state that we create in our life allows us to justify the actions or reactions that we take in response to our perceptions. It is an easy out that is uppermost in our own context. Therein lies the key to our ability to win over or lose to the actions of others that we are close to or far from.

Sunday, Oct. 28, clear, sunny and warm +8
Saturday was slow because of the light rain and snow.
Watched some world series baseball, Arizona Diamond backs won the first game over the Yankees 9-1. Pitching was the key, with the Yankee pitcher making some poor pitches and the fielders committing some errors to allow the win. Second game tonight is tonight.
Called Cory last night and talked to Gillian for a few minutes because he had gone out for the evening to do the Halloween thing.
Picked up Susan later and we went out for coffee and a piece of birthday cake. Went over to her place to watch a DVD movie but the units were not hooked up correctly so we watched a movie on T.V. Mathew was up so the event was a little hectic until he was put to bed. Came home and watched a little tube, turned the clocks back because a day light savings time and went to bed.
The traffic on Sunday is good with a couple of interested couple, one from Camrose and a couple from Donsdale. Some potential there with these people.
The days are good with the month of October coming to an end and with it the possibility of getting depressed close to an end and all the frustration that comes with it.
Warren has not called as to if and when he has returned from his trip to Ottawa. We should get some games in this week. I certainly miss the activity that squash brings.
Susan said that she will try to arrange a racquetball game for tonight.
Susan and I discussed the small problems that our children are encountering as they grow up. They are not major in real terms but seem to be a great deal when they are going through it. The parents are the ones that have to be careful in how they are reacting to it. Sue and Fred are coming to terms with the difficulties the Kelsey is going through and the seemingly insurmountable problems that are in her way.

Monday, Oct. 29, Thursday, Nov. 1, sunny, clear and +9 warm fall day
Traffic on Monday was very slow with the weather being cold and windy.
I managed to pick up a sore throat from some children that came through with their parents.
I played squash with Warren in the evening although I felt off a little. We played like two elephants lumbering around the court because we had not played for so long. We tied in the number of games and had a good time all in all. He had mentioned that the week in Ottawa was good and productive but he came back feeling tired after all the mental and physical work he had put in with the groups and people he had met with.
Tuesday was a cold and dreary day that started a week with few people coming through the house. Those that came by were serious about building a home and something good should come from it. A previous homeowner who had a Rocksolid Home built for them is coming by on Saturday to discuss building a new home in a town outside of the city since he is now working there. He has the plan and size he wants from his discussions with John back in 1992. This should be good. The deal came together with Cam this week I am sure by all the work that John was doing. I will know for sure later next week and will be able to be paid in the next short while.
Jason is now established in town with his work routine. Things should be a little bit less hectic with him around. He will be able to spend some time with Holly and Mathew and the dog to spread out the work that is occurring in everyday life. I am continuing to find information for them and letting them come to any decision that they feel comfortable.
The men's group was active on Thursday with only Warren not showing up.
Peter shared the blow up he had with his son; the yelling and anger that he displayed because of something his son had not done. Hector related the same information about his children not listening to him when he was trying to make them do something that was necessary before they went to school. Everett talked about relaxing the intensity of work that he is involved in. He is taking time to relax during the day when he is working. He and Louise are planning to take a week off and holiday with their children in Jasper sometime before Christmas. He is looking forward to it. We all talked about what we like doing on a personal basis and how some of us never knew how to take time off and just enjoy things that we liked doing.
Hector is having coffee with the new lady who has the two large dogs and no children this coming Sunday. Everett talked about doing work and bidding contracts that cost him money. He knew he was going to lose money on the work but something was made him do it anyway work even though he knew that it was wrong. He was going to think about why he would do these things. He said that it had almost stopped in comparison to how much he had done it in the past. Louise and he are getting along very well. He said that she is finally relaxing after a month of being off work. Another two months will bring her to the level were she is relaxed enough to consider another type of work or venture.
I tried to go flying this week but the head cold has grounded me until it goes away. I checked out the available planes at the Edmonton Flying Club and several are available on Sunday morning. I will go up if the weather is passable.

Saturday, Nov. 3 Tuesday, Nov. 6 +1
Surprising news came by way of Warren after his lunch date with Jeff. Jeff was in a talkative mood when he and Warren had lunch in Edmonton last week. Jeff has decided not to move to Toronto with his wife and children to create a new business empire in that city. Instead he has resumed his contact with Nora to work things out, as he said to Warren. Warren was not to sure what that meant or he would not say. Jeff and Nora have met several times in the past weeks. I am not sure if Victoria knows of these meetings. This is a great disappointment to me. Jeff has no sense of finality and getting on with his life. He is training Nora very well and she is going along with it, for what ever reason. It is the old story of "I will get a divorce soon" but until then, let us be a couple, even if I do not tell my other partner. The emotion makes us all do strange things and act in ways that do not make logical sense. This is all I can chalk it up to. These two are further back than they were several years ago. Jeff cannot handle a happy situation. He will pay dearly for what he is doing at the moment with Nora. Victoria, when she finds out about this continuing relationship will be relentless in her punishment of Jeff. Maybe this is something that he has to have; the punishment for being bad, because of his upbringing. Jeff certainly needs some professional help, but I doubt that he will go for it. I hope he does.
Warren has created a new type of friendship relationship with Sally and is comfortable with how it is moving along. He has also allotted a certain amount of time to creating the new computer program for the internet site and business site that will allow him to expand his business and expertise across North America. The balance that he has at the moment is perhaps a little to much work, but he realizes that it is short time activity that he is balancing with fewer hours in the future.
Peter is still fixating over Linette's devotion and focus on the work she does at Kindergarten. He is rationalizing it and seems comfortable but is still holding a grudge deep down. He might feel that with the money and wealth they have, she does not have to work full time for the money, so with a part time morning job she should be able to be available and present for him and their son in the evenings and weekends. Peter has a great need to control and have order in his life. This is not to his liking and will continue to grate on him and his sensibilities. I think more than he is letting on. The traveling he is doing with his wife and son are to create a closeness among them. If this is the only time that she is present to him (not even totally) then his resentment of an ordered life will be tested. He made note of her determination to visit day care and kindergarten schools at the places that they will be visiting.
Everett is reducing the number of hours along with the intensity of the work he is involved in. He has come to the realization that he cannot be intense all day long. He has to relax during the day and just enjoy his surroundings and not be worried about his work all the time. He has been able to relax a little more around Louise and is communicating better with her than he did in the past. The built up frustration, from his insecurity is lessening as the weeks go by. His decision to create and plan a family trip to Jasper in December is a good indication that he is changing his focus so he can create a new balance in his life.
Hector is relating better to his ex wife and his children now that he has gained the confidence that he can be a great dad. I expect that he was overwhelmed with the prospect of raising the boys on his own. He is better with this possibility now. He is still concerned that he does not have a female influence in their lives. He seems to be determined to find a relationship that is permanent and will benefit both he and his children.
I am coping well with the quietness of my life at the moment. October and the possible depression that could occur was handled with care and sensitivity and did not present itself. The thoughts and consideration of contact with my previous partner to create some action and disruption, stress, in my life has been noted over the past month. It could be in line with the month of October feelings and nothing more than a self destructive thought. The thoughts are put off with the realization that the reality of contact would not lead to anything positive and will create the lose of Susan in my life.
My relationship with Susan is flowing quietly and peacefully with most of our expectations being fulfilled. The depth of our emotions is in sync most of the time. Although I feel a strange sensation that I cannot put into real thoughts.

Wednesday, Nov. 7 Nov 15, Thursday,
The week has been very warm and enjoyable for the season.
Work has been going very well with the traffic that is coming to the house, intent on making decisions. Terry and Alice from Leduc will confirm the building of a home in Leduc this week with John. John is to meet with Don and Heather with the preliminary plans for the home in Lakeshore. Barb came by with her husband to see the Artisan and make a decision before the end of the month because of raising home prices. The realtor should be able to quote a realistic price for their current home. The couple from north of town have confirmed that they will be in on the weekend to do up the papers for a new home. The lot is on hold till Monday and the price is to their liking.
Warren and Peter were not at the meeting this week. Everett missed the meeting last week. Hector and I have been at both. Peter is still not over Linnette's fixation on her work. Both Hector and I are worried about his mental state now that he is getting nose bleeds.
Hector replied to an ad in the local paper by sending a letter to a woman he found interesting. She called him and they went out for a quick glass of wine and some dinner on a Tuesday evening. He was quite taken with her and all her energy, activities and self assuredness. He will call her again to try and continue the contact. She is very busy with a great deal of things happening to her (his words). A type “A” personality that is intent on making things come about. He said that she is very sure of herself and knows what she wants. He had a glimmer in his eye as he talked about her.
Warren has been working at a constant pace with his new computer program he is creating for the internet company that could become a product used world wide if there is enough interest. He seems quite happy and has created a nice balance in his new relationship with Sally.
Last weekend was quite special with Susan getting together for a video on Saturday night at my place and then a game of racquetball on Sunday. I had a little bit of trouble with her actions but it was my problem and not hers. I was able to get over it by Monday. Rejection is still a problem for me and I seek it out any where I can if I get a chance.
I arranged to go flying with Christine and get checked out on the piper next week. I spent some time hanger flying the plane on Wednesday so I would have a little more knowledge of the aircraft when next week comes around. It will be fun. I will go out to the plane again on Friday and get more acquainted with it and do some real flying if the weather is OK.

Sunday, Nov. 18 Sunny, +3, lovely fall day
The fall weather continues to be beautiful with winter being put off one more day at a time. The snows continue in the mountains so the winter skiing should be fine.
Had a great time last night at a house party with Susan and her friends Anne, Irene and ?. Susan and I went to the Alberta Museum to have a look at the 60's retro show, walked in and were handed passes that said crew, sat down in the theatre , watched some live performances by the Kit Kat club singers (three women) a live band and some poetry reading. We went to see the display, met Anne and her friend and then had a buffet. The 60's theme with all the people dressed up was fabulous. We did not know a thing about it. Anne and her friends are volunteers for the duration of the show. We had a great time dancing and doing silly things. It was a great deal of fun and I did not feel out of place dancing with the three or four women around me. We will have to go back and go through the display in more detail to see exactly what they have.
The traffic is average for the time of year with the western final football game between Calgary and Edmonton in Edmonton this day. My client came in on Saturday to do the agreement for the new home. They will meet with John after he puts together the blue prints for them. We may have to move them to another lot in the same area to accommodate the garage the want.
The men's group went well with Hector, Everett and I in attendance. Peter and Warren were unable to make the meeting. I called Jim about the group supper meeting on Thursday; he was very pleased to hear from me and will be at the meeting. Warren has company in from out of town so was unable to make a squash game on Saturday.
I went flying on Friday for an hour. It was a beautiful day to fly. Did some steep turns and got to know the aircraft and feel a bit better about flying. I did complete the Piper pre exam for Tuesday for speed and procedures. I will look at them again before Tuesday when I meet with Christine. A new Diamond 2 seater aircraft was parked at the Club tarmac. The pilot was on his way to B.C. It was a nice plane; not much storage space but a great plane for training. The aircraft had a clean fast look.

A Clearer Vision of My Sister

2006-05-03T16:43:00.000-07:00

Saturday, Sept 15, sunny and clear, +27, beautiful fall day.
The weather was perfect on Friday.
I spent some time at the office talking with Chris about the photos of the Rocksolid homes that have been built.
Drove to the Edmonton Flying club, chatted with them, found out that all the planes were booked for the day.
Called Derek but he was busy working. So I went golfing as a walk on at Goose Hummock. Had a good day even if the long drives were a little of an embarrassment. The walk was long and I will be taking a golf cart from now. Golf is to be fun but with the long walk of 5 hours it is not fun anymore when the legs are aching in the evening. The company of the other golfers was good and the course was in great shape. I managed to connect with Derek in the evening. He was working long hours because he and Viola are off to Vancouver for Tom S's wedding next Saturday. He is taking care of himself even if he is spending long hours at the job. Derek said that they stopped in at the hot springs that Susan talked about from her trip up North this spring.
The dreary discussion continues on most of the TV channels about the destruction in the United States . The speculation by all the “experts” who are now getting on the television shows and how much they know about everything is getting tiring and repetitious. The Canadian channels are starting to get back to regular programming.
The sports industry has been shut down till next week in memory of the many deaths. People are starting to say they need the sports and games to take their minds off the constant barrage of depressing information about the events.
Warren called for a squash game this morning. Sally came along for workout and was waiting for us when we finished. The games were good, with my winning the majority of games. We spent some time discussing the events of the week and relating our experiences. Warren has at least another full week of intense work and long hours before he completes the programming and running of the new computor programs. He is near the end of this segment of the company and product that he is creating. It will be an experience that will stay with him for a long time.
He said that no one showed up at the group last week. Peter had suggested that he would be there, but Michel and Hector had said they would not be able to make it.
I told Warren about my phone call to mom during the disaster on Tuesday to see how she was and her statement about how much it meant to her. He said that his mother had called him and other members of the family to make sure that they were all right.
The hole has been dug for the Noel's home on Friday.
The traffic has been quite slow today, only about 5 people, even with the great weather. I would guess that they are enjoying the warm weather and doing things around the house. I expect two people back on Sunday to get more information and to look at the houses again. Kimberley will be in to get some hard prices for the Nantucket, which will be in her price range. The fellow from Thursday will bring in his wife to look at the Artisan again. If the house in BC has sold I would expect Kimberley to make a quick decision if her husband is agreeable. Her daughter would finally have a house to call her own and a room to play in.

Sunday, Sept. 16 - sunny and clear +21 Beautiful fall day. Weather is great.
Good traffic with a couple of leads. The media is still all over the destruction in New York. Stock market opens tomorrow with no one knowing what will happen. Bush continues to threaten everyone he does not like. Little does he know that his power is very limited over a people that have nothing to lose and nothing to destroy.
Susan is well. Dana called to say that he continues to look for work outside the film industry. He had one day of work on a film. He and a friend are trying to create a company that will allow them to get a grant to produce some unique items. This is something in the future.

Wednesday, Sept. 19, cloudy and rain showers + 19
The weather patterns have created showers over the three past days.
I had lunch with Cheryl on Tuesday after I drove out to Leduc to take some photos of the homes we built out there. Her cold is gone and she is progressing on her work duties at the hotel. She is meeting with the boss to further define these duties. She said Darryl is OK but is spending too much time at her place and seems to want to move in instead of getting a place of his own. At the moment he is living at his mother's place.
Lee and Shirley came in with a checque for the deposit on Monday and will meet with John next Monday to finalize the house plans. Cam met with John and I on Tuesday to further the plans on his home at the end of Potter Greens. He is leaving at the end of Sept for three weeks on a golf holiday so John wants to have as much finalized and be ready to build before he goes away. So would I.
I continue to look at laptop computers, Compaq, IBM and others at Future Shop, Staples and similar places. The price range is all about the same. I will have to wait till I have other things paid off and will reward myself with this unit when the time is correct. I will also look at a sofa when I get back from Toronto.
Susan is spending the early part of the week at Maxine's place since she is out of town for two weeks. She is quite enjoying being close to her dad and the quietness in the house. Holly is a little put out with her mother staying somewhere else but will not take it too hard.
The speech therapist came to look and listen to Mathew and suggested that he is fine but will come back to have another look at him later.
Peter called to say that he is going to his class reunion in Winnipeg this weekend and will not be at the group session. We should be holding it at the showhome since I do not have any one scheduled for Thursday.

Sunday, Sept. 23 sunny +24, GREAT AUTUMN WEATHER
Friday was great.
Weather was a little drizzly but I went out to River Ridge golf course to see what I could see. The course was in great shape and only a few people were around. The special green fee was $25 and included a cart. Started off myself and played with my swing which started to come together. Met up with a couple of other guys my age and played the rest of the round with them. It was a good time and I got to hit with a new driver one of the fellows had on a trial basis. Nice driver, my slice might be the result of the old club I have. I will have to look for an orphan large driver at one of the golf stores this winter.
Played squash with Warren on Saturday, who informed me of his discussion with Jeff from Toronto. Warren told him that he was back together with Victoria and they might be moving to Toronto to live and work. They would sell their homes here and start a fresh life in the East. I said I was very surprised and did not let on that Nora had met with me and filled me in last month. Jeff gave Warren quite a different story. He wanted to tell Warren something else but was not able to complete the information for one reason or another.
Jeff has slipped back to what makes him comfortable and will have a much more difficult time when he hits the wall again in the future. He will be able to hide himself in work for a long time so he does not have to confront the things and issues he is avoiding. I wish him the best but I doubt that it will work out in the long run. Warren felt that Jeff was on the wrong track also.
Work is progressing well with continued interest from a couple clients, especially Kimberley.
The wedding that Susan and I went to last night was quite lovely with the newly wed 38 year olds (second wedding for both) being quite a special event. We danced and had a relaxed fun time. Susan is discussing with Holly and Luke the living arrangement while they are in town. Luke's application for the RCMP has been put on hold for a year, so now he is not sure of what he wants to do. He is not interested in school and is at loose ends. Susan is a little concerned but will let him make up his own mind.
Traffic is good on Sunday with Kimberley back in with more questions and fine tuning their new home. It depends on the sale of their home in BC. It may be a deal not worth chasing because of the difficulties that are starting to make themselves known. I will get as much from the guys and pass it on to Kimberley and her husband.
Cory was in a good mood when we talked on Thursday. He is looking at going down to the south and spending some time with Greg for a vacation.
Gillian is all excited about the reception for Simon and wants me to help move tables and chairs on Friday. I intend to spend the time with Dana if he is not working on a job. She will be disappointed but she will have a great deal of help. Cory will be working for her for rent. He and I worked out what we are doing for Dana's birthday. I will spend some money to get his computer up and running. Linda will chip in and maybe get him a micro wave so he can at least eat hot food.

Monday, Sept. 24, sunny + 29 great fall day
Lee and Shirley P came in to talk with John and sign off on the conditions. John helped them finalize the design on the house with a blue print to come before Lee leaves on a holiday Oct. 8
Slow day in terms of traffic.
Susan C had supper with Susan R to catch up on their lives, and all that is happening with their daughters and grand children. She said that they had a very good evening.
Dana called after midnight and woke me up. I was not impressed.

Sept. 25 sunny, +29 another great fall day.
Meet Cheryl for a golf game at River Ridge. The weather was great and we had a good time. I showed Cheryl the finer points and the basic points of the golf game so she could enjoy the outing. She said that she had a great time. She has purchased a car that she has desired for a long time. Her work is going well, as is her relationship with her fellow. She has a good understanding of his good points as well as her limitations. TJ's birthday party was a great success.
I chatted with mother to set up a lunch date with her on Wednesday. She is in a good mood and is taking Gillian's energy burst in a light vain.
Cheryl had not heard that Merci was preparing a surprise birthday party for Terry at the end of the month. She said that she was not surprised.

Wednesday, Sept 26.-
Monday, Oct. 1, cloudy + 16,
Back from Toronto and the reception for Simon and Kati. Good time was had by all. I will have to catch up on sleep this week. The next few weeks will be nice and relaxing.
Nothing much happened at the show home with John - a few people came back but did not make any aggressive moves that would result in a sale.
I picked up a cheque from Chris and deposited it this afternoon. It will help after the money that I have loaned to Dana and Cory. This will have to come to an end.
Gillian did well with the reception and all the guests. She had a great deal of help from Kay, Gordon and Marion plus many others. Jason treated her poorly by setting things up so he and she would do everything and then he made sure he would not be able to be around to do anything because of work. Simon and Kati were wonderful although a little bit overwhelmed by the week end. Gillian continued her insecurity with a constant question on how everyone enjoyed themselves and if everything was great and on and on and on.
Cory and Dana continue on their lives. I will have to let them live it as they see fit.
I will have to limit the help or interference with money and direction. It will be hard but it is something I will have to do. I will need to protect my finances should anything happen to me. I cannot finance their living easily in Toronto anymore. They will have to make the hard decisions if they are to get full value from life.
Susan and I chatted on Saturday night. She was OK and at home. She said that she would have to make an attitude adjustment in her feelings toward the kids at home and the invasion of her privacy.
The flights were good both to and from Toronto. I did not have a great deal of time to chat with Gillian about her concerns but came to the conclusion that she is a very negative person in a rather different way. Her ability to criticize or critique a person or an event is a constant in her life. She continues this in a repetitive fashion over a long period of time, years, and hours or minutes whatever the time frame that suits her. She cannot comprehend or cannot believe that her way of doing things is not the correct or accepted way of doings things and everyone should know these things or at least strive to do things correctly. Her repetitive actions continue to turn people off and frustrate them. That is her style and I do not think that she will ever change and will be hard pressed to even consider that what she is doing, has created a wall between her and many other people.
Tuesday, Oct. 2 /2001 to Feb 2002 sunny clear warm fall day + 22

The traffic was slow yesterday because of the weather and cool temperatures.
Called several clients to pass on different amounts of information and stay in touch. One of the clients suggested it would be March before the will was completed. I have not heard back from John M. He was confident that he would call back when he was ready. Went over to Susan's place last night, had a coffee, chatted with Holly and Luke for a while. Holly is continuing to look at new homes to build and getting information on homes that are on the market. She managed to get bitten by a large dog while she was walking her large dog. The leg was bruised but was OK otherwise. Mathew is still being active and quite busy in the evenings with all the attention he is getting. He talks a great deal but is not forming words to the satisfaction of his mother. A speech therapist is coming by on a regular basis to assess and assist Holly in any work that is needed.
I left after a while because I was tired; all the energy was a bit much. Susan skipped her water exercise on Monday because I came over. That was nice of her. We are getting together at my place after work. It will be a great deal quieter.
I went through Cory's boxes, found his tapes and a few other things along with his darts that I will send out to him. I managed to clean out some stuff, consolidate a few other items and will be able to throw out some boxes that had been stored in the closet. I should be able to take apart the speakers that came from the truck and combine them with the other large speakers. I should call him to find out whether he wants me to send him the stuffed bears and toys that he has accumulated in the boxes.
Warren is in Ottawa and will be back next week. I miss the squash that was a regular part of our week.
The boys are out golfing today, a great day. I talked to Carol today and will take her and her sister out for lunch on Friday the 12 if all is well to thank them for the work they do behind the scenes for me. She was quite pleased to be asked.
I paid off some of the Credit card debt and left some money in the bank for the upcoming expenses. When I get paid for Cam's house it will go toward the balance of the card debt.
Melvina should come in soon to put some money down on this house for spring occupancy.
I will have to talk with Gillian in the future but I will allow her to call me and ask me how I enjoyed the reception. She will have asked everyone who was there may times how they felt about the do.
Simon and Kati will now go about their normal work days, film and medicine and create a normalcy that will hold them in good stead.
Gillian will need the help of Val and other friends to become comfortable with what is happening. She will now be able to talk about the new foreign woman that is in Jason's life and how it would be perceived by the people and friends around her. I am surprised that Gillian did not mention Sidney, the dog, until I brought it up. Sidney, will shuttled between Jason and his ex-girlfriend and Gillian’s place by Gillian.

Wednesday, Oct, 3, cool fall day windy and some clouds + 18
Susan stayed for coffee last night but only for a little while, she seemed to be in a hurry but maybe it was my imagination. She is quite preoccupied by the events that are happening in her home. Luke has decided to travel to Florida with his girl this Christmas and use some of his student loan to do so. The ease that young kids play with their money. I am now indifferent with how Cory and Dana use their money.
Delivered the ladder to Susan's place and left it in the area by the garage. I rescued a box from the recycle area by a store, packed it with the printer, video tapes, pictures and some clothes for Cory and sent it on the Greyhound bus collect. He will have to pay to get it as he said he would.
The days are slow and I am expecting more. I got paid and put as much money against the visas and other bills. I have some money in the bank with the good potential of more coming in shortly. I want more but I do not know what more is.
I miss playing squash with Warren for both the physical and mental relief it brings me.
There will be a lot more traffic on the weekend and the deals will be made. John and Cam are moving ahead on his deal so that should come together this month.
Louise, Susan's sister is quite disturbed with Susan not continuing her smoking cessation. It is her problem brought about by her mother's passing away from lung problems. Bob is doing well with his back problems since he is continuing to do the therapy that is necessary to help get his back into shape.
I expect the weather to be great on Friday, so I hope to get in a game of golf so that I will give Derek a good game next week when we play.
Peter, Everett and Warren will be away on Thursday, Hector will be the only one around this week so the meeting will be small.
The October time frame for a depression is upon me so I will have to be careful in how I conduct myself and how I think of things. It is quite different then at this time last year when I was nearing the end of my employment income. I was in a good situation and was starting to come to the conclusion that I would not get a job in the aviation industry and would consider it only as a hobby and personal entertainment. “This is a good thing” as Martha would say.
The price of laptop computers has come down again this fall with a Compaq 12111 at $1600. I will still wait and get some tires for the car so I will not have any trouble with the ice and snow that is to come soon. Mother was in a good mood when I chatted with her a couple of days ago. I have an appointment with the dentist to get my teeth cleaned on Thursday. The news should be good as I have been taking care of them much better than I have over the past many years.
My current computer is continuing to be frustratingly slow but perhaps it is how it is configured and not really the speed of the unit.
Oh well I will have to deal with it as it exists. I really am not going anywhere fast.

Thursday, Oct. 4 Saturday, Oct 6 clear, sunny and colm+18
A lovely fall day.
Thursday was slow with the traffic just looking if they came in at all. The weather was cold with a strong wind that had winter in the air.
Hector showed up for the group with everyone else away busy with work.
Friday was a lovely fall day with clear skies and a temperature of +18. I went golfing at River Ridge with some members and enjoyed the day. I continued to work on my game and I am quite happy with the way it is progressing. The long club will drive the ball straight if I stand closer to the ball and hit it off the heel of the club. I was still light with the putter and not getting the ball to the hole. The wedge worked well and I will continue to improve with it. I will try to go back this week and also get in a game with Derek at the Goose.
I took in a movie in the evening as Susan was busy seeing Anne and enjoying dinner. She is meeting with her cousins tonight. I am invited to Pat and L's for dinner on Sunday and then to Susan's for steak on Monday. She is doing what she wants to do and I am getting on with my life. The turmoil at her home is creating a new life style for her and she will have to come to terms with it. I am confident that she will be able to come to terms with what she wants to do. I will stay out of it for the moment.
Warren called Saturday morning to say he was back and to arrange a squash game. We played for 45 minutes and were done in when our time was up. Two weeks slowed us down a little but we will get back into it and work our way back over the next month.
The boys are fine with Cory not too concerned about not working. The work he is doing for Greg is enough for him at the moment. He had a discussion with the labor guy about his dismissal and said that his firing denied his employment insurance claim. It is up to him to come to whatever conclusion he wants in this area. He said Dana is OK but had not talked to him for a couple of days.
Of course, I had just left on Monday and I talked to him on Wednesday so nothing much had happened. I chatted with Gillian who was glad that 95% went well but was displeased that the 5% (her hair) was not in control during the day according to Mrs. Newfeld. She is sounding very needy.
I am working my way through Susan's busy schedule else where and her distance from me.
It is October so I am aware of the feelings that are just under the surface. I will keep busy and do things that are in my best interest. She will do the same. I think that Luke's new direction is causing her more stress than Holly's changes.
Traffic is slow on Saturday even though the weather is very nice. Perhaps later on in the day the people will start coming in. The people may be out shopping for the Thanksgiving turkey and all the other related food stuffs.
I think that I will drop by a Casino tonight for a short time and enjoys the sights and sounds of the people and the tables. Who knows I may even gamble a little and play the black jack games.

Sunday, Oct. 7 clear and sunny +16, Monday, thanksgiving day, clear , sunny +15
Sunday was a quiet day with only a little traffic.
I went over to Pat and L's for supper with Susan, her dad and Luke. It was pleasant evening.
I drove Susan back to her place and visited with Holly and Mathew after which I went home and watched some T.V.
I discussed Cory's phone call with Susan even though I was not going to. He and Gillian had a discussion around her perception that he was not in an equal relationship with me. She was out of line with what she said to him but I left it up to him to refute her statement and he did.
I talked to both he and Dana in separate phone calls Sunday evening. They are both doing well and I will leave it up to them to get through their lives. The money will stop and Dana will have to touch his mother or someone else for short term help. I do not know what Cory will do but he will make some decisions that he will learn by and focus his life on.
My work is going well and I am going to stop feeling that things are to happen quickly. The past few months have been good with the promise of Cam before the end of the month. Kimberly may even show up one day and say her home has been sold.
Money is not a problem and won't be for a long time. The traffic on Monday has been getting better as the day has progressed. Several good leads have come my way.
If the weather is good on Tuesday I will slip down to River Ridge and get a game of golf in before I go to work. Hopefully Derek will call to arrange a game before the end of the week. He is probably all golfed out after spending time in the mountains and golfing.
The evening spent at the Casino was fun and profitable. The dollar slots were paying well with the $3 turns. The roulette was a bust with none of my numbers coming even close to the winning number. I had a good time with good luck at Blackjack and got up and cashed in with a considerable amount of money. I gassed up the car on expensive gas at cheap gas prices and had a late evening supper complements of the Casino.
It is strange to have disposable cash on hand. Tomorrow, grocery shopping in a big way and some laundry.
The computer and the sofa can wait for a while.
I wonder if and what Gillian will say about the discussion that she had with Cory. I doubt that she will mention it at all, which would be a good thing.
If the weather holds, I should get out and do some flying to keep my hand in the thick of things.
A lunch with Carol and Gloria on Friday is something that I cannot forget if they can make it. A small consideration for all the work they do behind the scenes. Susan R's last day of work was on Friday. Now she gets to stay home and be with her granddaughter and daughter. The change will be interesting with Fred's reaction to the spending of money and who controls it. She will get him to spend more time at home and in her company so that they have a better quality of life.
Tuesday, Oct 9, Saturday, Oct. 13, very windy 45 km. +9
The week has been quiet.
Susan came over last night after I got home from having supper with Jim and Mother. Jim called in the afternoon to say that he was in Leduc loading for a trip to Calgary. I got hold of Mother and we met for supper at the Saratoga. Had a good conversation with him and then he was off to Calgary for the evening. He is not working too hard with only a few trips to Vancouver every two weeks. His son is handling all the Calgary traffic. Jim said that Quentin is doing well.
Carol and Gloria did not come out for lunch with me on Friday so I got a haircut and did some shopping for a winter coat. I found one at Mountain Equipment coop. I will get it later on when the cold weather comes into Alberta. I have to get some winter tires for the car in the next month.
Everyone was at the group meeting on Thursday.
Hector caught us up on his dating ritual and the females in his life. He is doing a great deal of e-mailing with a female call Veronica. Warren told us about his good trip to his nephew’s wedding overseas and how well his computer program is coming. He also refreshed our memory about Jeff and his return to his wife, Victoria. He felt Jeff was doing it for the tradition of the family not because he really was in love with her. Warren felt that Jeff would like Nora be at the plane to meet him instead of Victoria. Oh well. Peter and Linette are getting along very well now that he has backed off and not being as anxious about her working so much in the afternoon and the evenings. Their trip to Australia with the side trip to Indonesia is being revised because of the conflict and the majority of Muslims in those countries. Everett has taken Louise out to lunch several times and is planning a trip to Jasper when time permits. He is very aware of over extending himself in work time tables and such. The meeting was a good one. I suggested contacting Dr. Tom for a supper meeting before Christmas.
I contacted Melvina and several possible clients about the price increase for the spring and the possibility of their fixing the building price by starting the process this fall. They were all open to this idea.
Susan took the day off on Friday because of the frustration that is building up in the office. She took some time to get a massage and spent the day relaxing. I put a lock on the side gate at her home so Mathew could not let the dog out. Holly was very impressed and told her mother what I had done.
Mother said that Gillian has been calling quite a bit over the week and is trying to extend the energy and hype of the wedding and the party held in Toronto. She was happy that mother was able to see the photos of the party. Gillian has had several discussions with Cory about her perception of his participation in her dinners with her friends. Cory has basically let this roll off his back, except for calling me and expressing his frustration with Gillian's lack of understanding. I told him that he is an adult as she is and to treat this as something between them. I was not a referee.
Cheryl had a good weekend golfing at Vegreville with her guy and her son. Derek came over to Mother's with Anya and Taneen and their two children to meet with Mother and get the pillows that she had decorated for them. Mother was very pleased. Scott is traveling to the States to play hockey for a low level team in Michigan and Andrew is welding in Fort Mac.
Susan said that Fred spent a week at home recently to spend some time with his wife and to get a break from work. Good for him. The balance will be good when he achieves it.
Dana called last night but I did not answer the call since I was with Susan. We checked the number by using star 69. His birthday is on Monday and I am in the process of sending him a card and money for a beer.

A New Way of Thinking

2006-04-18T17:09:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, Sept 11, sunny with clouds + 13
A tragic and historic day unfolded in the history of the United States. The World Trade Centre’s two towers were destroyed after two passenger jet airliners were hijacked and flown into each tower. The towers collapsed after several hours with an untold number of deaths and injuries. A hijacked plane was also flown into the pentagon side with massive damage and loss of life. Two maybe three hundred flight passengers lost their lives when the hijacked planes were crashed. A fourth airliner was crash-landed near the President's retreat in Virginia. The President was in Florida at the time of the destruction. All air traffic was shut down in the states and all planes in the air were diverted to Canada and other countries to land and stay on the ground till further notice. In New York, many emergency personnel, fireman and police and support medics lost their lives as the two towers collapsed crushing the people working in the vicinity. The emotional impact of these events will shape the lives of untold people in the world forever. There will be repercussions by the military and security agencies for months and years to come. No terrorists groups and leaders will be safe from reprisals. The reprisals will be inflicted on innocent people. The terrorist soldiers and leaders know that their days are numbered. The might of the United States will be felt by all those who are not American. President Bush is just the one to bring about the damage and destruction that the American people will demand. This will make the Oklahoma bombing seem like nothing. When they find out that this military operation was created and managed from the Far East Muslim factions, the revenge by the Christians will be massive. What a year it will be.
Dana and I talked last night, he managed to spend the weekend at Lake Simco with some friends and had a good time. The movie video meetings are not happening so he is going to concentrate on other ideas that he has. He is putting out his resume at some places that require daily help so he can get some work as time goes by. He and Cory are not coming out to Edmonton because of Cory's busy employment status. Dana was happy that I would be coming out to see them at the end of the month. He is sounding good and has a good attitude about what is going on. He is teasing Cory about his new job status.
Susan went to water exercise last night and called me to check in after she was done. The exercise allowed her to get out of the house and come back when Mathew was asleep.
I put up the curtain rod and blinds in the living room over the patio doors. It is a different look that I am pleased with.
The weather has turned cool and has a definite fall tinge to it but I am confident that it will warm up for a great many days before the snows come this winter.
Linda R came over to thank me for the flowers that were delivered on Saturday. There was some confusion because the wrong note tag was attached to the flowers. A note from Betty Lou was on the flowers instead of the note from Bob at Stoneridge. The flower people cleared up the confusion when Linda called them. She suggested that incorrect notes on the flowers especially from girls called Betty Lou could cause difficulties for couples.

Wednesday, Sept 12 Cloudy and cool + 15 Bright sunshine and warm breezes.
The North American continent is still struggling with the terrible destruction created by the terrorists. The Americans are raging against all that care to listen and are vowing vengeance when they catch the people responsible. Life is slowly getting back to a regular beat.
Had a massage on Wednesday, to get out the knots in my body that were created, I think to some extent by the tragedy; then went for lunch with Mother who was in a good mood.
I had called her after I had chatted with the boys about the events. She said it was a wonderful thing that I had called her that evening. No one else did.
Susan had dropped by her dad's place to chat with him at lunch time. The boys are ok with different reactions. Cory was alright with his emotional state and showed concern about my state of mind. Dana left a message that he was not to blame and he was no where near the accident sight.
Mother showed me her finished and framed petit point and my quilt. I tested her medic alarm button to make sure that it was still working and showed her how to shut it off if it started beeping. She is all right with the unit and will not complain about it being in her home. We have to go the birthday party that Merci is creating for Terry on the 27 of Oct. Maybe Lillian will fly down for the event if I tell her about it - not.
Dave and Mick came in today, met with John and Karen to finalize the house and decorating, with a deposit of 50K for next Tuesday.
Kimberley will be back in next Sunday to look at the prices and plans for the Nantucket that she needs built in Potter Greens at a price point that will work for her. After sitting down with John, I am quite sure that we can do it without the bonus room at 2100 sq. ft.
The men are meeting at the coffee shop this afternoon because I was not sure how long these meetings were going to last. I am sure that a buyer will come in tonight to put down some money on a home he and she wish to build.
It will also give me some time to catch up on the paper work for the people who are coming in. I have taken some pictures of the home that Stoneridge has built and will post them on the layouts that are hanging on the walls to show what the units actually look like when they are built. I will have to take a few more photos of the units where I did not know the actual locations. Chris made the suggestion that he liked the direction that I was taking in marketing the company.
Cheryl is still a little ill and will not be able to golf tomorrow, although I will call her in the morning hours to see how she is feeling. She is considering a move to a franchise management position that her friend is offering her. I will discuss it further with her to see what she would be getting out of it.
A potential client came in to discuss the construction of a bungalow of about 1600 sq. ft. with lot and GST for under 290 K. After a lengthy discussion we both agreed that it was possible if the unit was built on an inside lot this year. He had been in the “Artisan” when it was still a show home and his wife and he liked it very much. They will be back on the weekend he said, to continue the discussion. Would be nice if he did, I will have to get a copy of the Home warranty books that go into greater detail. I followed Cory's advice about cleaning out the waste basket on the computer to make it run faster and it seems to work very well. I was able to print out some information much faster than I had ever done before. Amazing what happens when you follow the advice of someone who knows what they are doing.
Susan has a shower to go to on Friday night so I will take in a show or something to keep myself busy. Derek called but he was on his way to Vegreville so we were not able to get together for lunch or anything. Perhaps next week we can do lunch next week.
John P suggested that the American public will be up in arms for a short time about what has happened but soon will their demands for revenge will ease and relax their efforts to punish those responsible to ensure the least amount of interference in their every day lives. He may be right. We will have to wait and see how long the anger directs them to be safe instead of relaxed.
Americans do not like looking helpless and vulnerable. The get vicious when they get beaten up. Their resolve to hit back and take revenge is legendary. They will strike back and destroy people and things if only to look like they are doing something. Many people both innocent and guilty will be hurt. Americans will continue this painful activity for far too long with righteous indignation. We, as Canadians will suffer because of their anger. Canadians who are “wannebee’s” will take this opportunity to force the country to the right. The markets will suffer for a short time but will recover later in the year. Now is the time to buy as everyone else is selling. A difficult thing for a normal person to do unless he has a memory of other catastrophic events in the life of the U.S. Many will say that this coming conflict with the middle east is the making of the industrial war machine and economic right. I am sure that these people will benefit enormously from the upcoming conflict.
I am not sure how this event will polarize the young people of the country. Nothing has caused the young people to make a stand in this time of political quietness. This might be the event.
I doubt that the current president has the wisdom or the counsel to make sure that this war is conducted sanely. President Bush is of the view, supported by his counsel that now is the time to get back at those he perceives as enemies. His counsel will ensure that this is the time to settle scores with those that were out of reach before. Economic interests see this as the time to position the U.S. in the Middle East for future profits and control. I am sure that some of those around Bush have information and knowledge of the area that is being invaded but I doubt that the Americans’ have any great understanding of the situation. We are in for a fight that has been going on in the region for thousands of years. The Americans and the allies will be in the area for a few years, really a short time in the scheme of things, before they pull out without any real successes.
They will win morally and perhaps financially but not realistically or humanly.
This will not break down into a large war since the Soviet Union has no interest or money to get involved. Instead the fighting will be localized hit and run with suicide bombs from religious fanatics. This is a new type of fighting that the U.S. will adapt slowly but surely. Israel knows full well how to conduct this type of war.

The End of the World as we know it

2006-04-09T12:08:00.000-07:00

Sunday, Aug 11, sunny and very warm +27- Saturday was sunny and +29
Dropped by the office, finalized the numbers with Chris and John about Noel's home, called Angella and arranged for her to meet with John to go over the final information and signatures.
Show traffic was normal.
The World Games continue in Edmonton with the weather cooperating nicely.
Only Everett, Peter and myself were at the group with Warren being busy with his guests and Hector with his children. The conversation was light and covered some work conditions and similar stuff. Everett said he had a date with his wife the next night because he had been working too hard and needed to spend some time with her.
I drove at the World games on Friday till early afternoon, then went home, did some laundry, washed some dishes in the dish washer (many of these dishes had not been washed since I was at the house in Blue Quill.) Had a nap and went to the games to watch the semi finals and finals in some of the competition. Susan was not interested so I went alone. I had a nice evening with myself.
Warren called in the morning (Saturday) to play squash. My foot hurt but after some stretching, I was able to win 4 of 6 games with some very good play taking place.
On to work, very slow, 4 people throughout the afternoon. None at all interested in anything but looking. Susan and I went out for supper and a movie in the evening. Late evening, we were both tired so I dropped her off and went home.
Dana had called; he was still working as a volunteer on the movie of his friend's. He was going to Montreal on Tuesday and needed a small loan to tide him over. He was not comfortable with the request but I told him it was a loan that he would pay back when he was working full time again. Told him to look at the big picture and not be worried about the small details. He set the end of the year as a reevaluation time, if he was not working and making the kind of money that he hoped for. Seems like a good plan to me. He and Cory kicked around on Saturday, with Cory having to help fill in some time for a worker that was not able to make a late night shift at a location out of town. This should give Cory some overtime and a little extra money. The movie situation is changing a little at a time and will improve in the next few months.
Sheila is leaving on Friday to go to Toronto for the year. I will have coffee with her on Thursday, should get her a small gift for her travels. I have to make sure that Cory and Dana go over for a visit and offer her some assistance if she needs it.
With the completed sale to Noel's, the monetary situation is better and I can hold on to the sales that are in line for the late summer period. I am of the mind to call a client and encourage her to put a deposit on this home or start a new unit. I will decide after the 15th because I think she will come in around that time.
Monica has not come in to look at the Brighton, so I expect that she was just “wishful” thinking. I am confident that others will come in to fill the void that she has created.
Susan R. is not happy with her job at Shaw and having to drive to the west side, now that they have purchased Videon cable. She is of the mind, as is Fred, that she stay at home and babysit her grandchild. I have to see how all this new working relationship works out for Fred and Susan. It would be an easy out for them to use this situation (the need to babysit the grandchild) as a decision making event.
I will continue to be busy for another week and a half, then things should settle down after the games. I should be able to get some blinds and curtains for the windows in the apartment and when I sell a few more houses I will be able to purchase the kitchen table and the leather sofa for the apartment.

Monday, Aug. 13, hot and still, + 31 oven like air
Tuesday, Aug 14, hot and windy, +26
Went to the office. Chris and I discussed the price and available lots in the Woods for a new demanding client. I met him when he was friends with Lee's sons. I drove out to see the Kimberly Showhome in Summer Side. I could not get in so I sent Susan C. to get some information. Rick and his wife like the design of that house but like the finish of our home. I will see what I can co.
Noel's came over to the show home and met with John and I to finalize the information on their new home. The meeting went well with features being added as we went along. They are to meet John at the Hampton that is being built in Sherwood Park to do the finale inventory. The cheque should be given to John during next week. We are to dig around the 26 of Sept.
Finally another paycheck; although I am not fixated on receiving money for what I enjoy doing, living if much easier with a steady flow of coins.
John took my phone home accidentally when he mixed it up with his. I was able to get it on Tuesday.
I drove for the Games people on Tuesday, transporting some reporters and associated guests to the airport as they left for home. Interesting group of people.
Chatted with Susan who told me that Jason and Holly were being transferred to the Edmonton area for his work but primarily to be closer for medical treatment of their son’s ailments. This move will help them get some speech therapy for their son who does not seem to speak well. Another interesting change, as is always the case, in their family dynamics.
Nora called to ask for a coffee to bring me up to speed about what is happening in her life now that Jeff has decided because Victoria has received counseling they should be together again. This girl has so much pain caused by following her heart. It will be an interesting coffee meeting.
Warren has been busy catching up on his work that has been delayed .because of his visitors. We will be playing squash on a more regular basis in the next few weeks.
Melvina dropped by for coffee and to show her friends the house she is going to purchase. She said the she would have a definite answer by Aug 25. She seemed quite confident that her other contract would come through. It would be nice. The bungalow is showing well and should sell within a month.
Mom and I are to have lunch with Cheryl on Thursday.

Thursday, Aug 16, sunny and hot +30
Very slow day on Wednesday, some traffic but no one very interested. Some friends of John dropped by to look at the completed Cascade. They are living in Wedgewood at the moment. Other than this traffic not much activity.
Had a coffee meeting with Nora to catch up with what has happened in her life. I have not talked to her in about two years. She informed me that she and Jeff were not involved anymore since July 2. It seems that after all the lawyer involvement and dealings with Victoria, living with Nora and getting more seriously involved with working in Toronto, Jeff has decided to return to Victoria. Victoria informed Jeff that she had changed because of counseling and wanted to try to make their marriage work. He told Nora that it was over between them and he was going back to Victoria because of the children. She will not be over Jeff for at least a year. Emotionally she is all over the place, but seems to have a certain amount of grounding to allow her to realize that this part of her life is over. But then again, her heart rules her life not her head. It will be a difficult time for her. Jeff has come to a point in his life that he could not continue working at a relationship that was so foreign and difficult for him. It was easier to return to what he felt was comfortable but not good. This would allow him to concentrate on his work and all the great feelings that it created. The work involvement in Toronto will allow him to water down the discomfort he feels by being with Victoria and all her emotions. He will be able to get away from it on a regular basis and therefore survive. Until, his feeling of loss brings him face to face with a crisis of some sort that will cause an emotional breakdown. It will not happen for a long time since he has so much to concentrate his energy on: his boys, his work, the company and his sailing. Too bad, his non involvement with the group will harm him. Nora said that he stopped going to the second group that he was involved with because it took time away from his work and children. He seems to be afraid of confronting and questioning the thoughts and questions that reoccur in his mind. He repeats that which he was taught when he was growing up. I expect him to contact Nora occasionally in the next few months when he is feeling down and confused. I hope she has the strength and resolve to resist his words and emotions. If she gives in before he is ready to change by being on his own and have strength in his own abilities nothing will change. I do not expect it to happen but who knows. Perhaps he loves her that much.
The hotel Cheryl manages is very impressive. She is working hard to get it into the working shape that will make it an efficient and profitable place. The tenants she had at her home for the World Games were profitable and interesting. She now has a long term tenant that is going to University.
Daryl is still treating her well and they are getting along swimmingly. Cheryl said that Lesel is coming down for a long weekend in a couple of weeks. Stephanie is turning 61 this up coming birthday.
Mother was in good mood; she had a look at my apartment, dropped off some quilts and pillows and talked about how well Cheryl is doing.
Had coffee with Shirley this morning. She is leaving for Toronto on Friday, two weeks at the cottage by her home town and then on to school for a year. I gave her Cory's phone number and said she should contact him for any help that she needed. I do not have her phone number in Toronto.
Men's group just finished for the evening. The guys have gone home and I will just make a few comments before I finish for the day.
Hector had another date but was not impressed by the woman who talked for three hours and was not interested enough in him to ask him questions about himself. We suggested that he just relax and spend some time casually and not critique the date to the level that he is doing.
Warren related his homework that Dr. Joe had given him and how it might work for Hector.
Everett said that giving attention to his wife at appropriate times seems to work better than ignoring her until he was ready for a fight and blowing up at her. She has taken over the accounting of the business with a new computer and accounting program.
Peter will have to work an extra day a week, to make up for the time that he is gone on his holiday to Australia. I talked about my casual relationship with Susan that is evolving with me being so close to her place. I am off to see Susan and her flooring, for a moment then on to Derek and Viola's place for a sleep over and golf in the morning. I was able to move the massage back a little so I would not be late.

Wednesday, Aug. 22. +21 cloudy
Friday golf game was great. Played 18 holes, shot an 85.
Got back just in time for the massage and fell asleep on the table for a short time during the process. Odette is so great she just lets me snore and gets me to turn over at the correct time. Went home and rested in the evening and got to bed early. Saturday was a quiet day at work. Went over to Susan's to admire her renovation work on the basement and helped with the trim and baseboards. Spent some time at my place and then she went home. Sunday, we met up at the Chateau Lacombe for the anniversary brunch for Fred and Susan. Ryan, Kelsey and Samantha were at the brunch along with Susan and myself.
Went to work and met a few return customers. John met with the Noel's on Saturday, with them deciding on the “Surry” Showhome instead of the Hampton. They will make the final decision on Wednesday.
Played squash with Warren on Monday night.
Peter and Jennifer came over to discuss the ins and outs of building a new home. We spent a couple of hours going over all the information they needed to make an informed decision. We will have to talk some more at a later time. Who knows what they will decide.
Tuesday was a very slow day with the weather turning cooler after all the long hot days that we have experienced.
Luke is away on a camping trip with Amanda for four days. I spent the evening on Tuesday at Susan’s. She has been back at work for two days and is quite tired with the non stop activity. She is applying for a position at the Sherwood Park complex for sports. It will be less demanding work than that which she is doing at the moment.
Susan R. is going to quit her job at Shaw because of the new traveling distance plus the attitude of the management since they purchased Videon.
Nora responded to my phone call to tell me that she is finished her contract in Edmonton this week and will be spending the next month in B.C. with friends. She feels that she has to become silent to regain a focus on herself and emotions. She will come out of it better than she went in.
Noel's confirmed that they will go with the “Surry” and I have done up the agreement and will get together with them to get the signatures and the deposit.
A pay cheque before the end of the month. What a concept.
Dennis from Slave Lake dropped by for a chat and to see the house again. His rehab is coming along well but not as fast as he wants it to.

Sunday, Aug. 26, sunny, breezy + 20
The weather has changed to a pleasant state with reasonable temperatures, and light breezes. Evenings are cool with a minimum mosquito problem.
Worked on Saturday with an interesting couple that wanted to build a bungalow with a walk out basement in Spruce Grove. At least he did, she fell in love with the courtyard on the Cascade and was in discussion with him about the possibility of building this house out there. Spent some time with them and then they left to make a decision on their own. I expect them to be back to build with us not with the competition.
Dana called to say he needed money this final time. If work did not pick up he was going to start spreading his resume around and get a part time job. I am getting quite frustrated with the total situation and taking on a great deal more responsibility than is required of me. The financial situation could be quite difficult if some of the house deals do not come through. The frustration level is quite high at the moment with my feelings rising up about seeing Danielle's picture in the paper and the resulting unexpected feelings.
The golf game I had on Friday was very enjoyable.
Went to the Fringe with Susan for a walkabout, she stopped by the library tent and she purchased some used books for her reading pleasure.
Gillian called a couple of nights ago to continue her desire for the family to go to Toronto for the reception for Simon and Kati. She had called Jim and Marion who eventually hung up on her during the discussion. Lesel is in town for the weekend to attend her mother's birthday party and to have brunch with Mom and Cheryl.
Warren and I played squash on Saturday, with me winning the extra game.
We had a confusing discussion of the rules that we thought were squash but really where racquetball rules; that was quite amusing considering our exhausted state.
Read an article in the Edmonton Journal about a fellow who has been using the personnel pages to find the perfect woman for the last five years that documents his efforts. It includes comments about his technique. This article will be of interest to Hector and Warren I expect. Looking for the faults in the woman was a major focus for this fellow instead of noticing the positives that would lead to a nice balanced relationship. It would be interesting to really see what he was hoping for in a woman. He is a home renovator; I would be interested in seeing if he was as particular in the work he did for clients as the woman that he is interested in.
Warren has created a casual relationship with Sally that is working for him at the moment.
Nora is going to the mountains and Washington to recharge her emotional batteries and hold her silence so she can get over the major emotional impact of Jeff leaving her.
I am struggling with the frustration of no signature from Noel's yet although they have given us the go ahead to start the house. I expect them to give the cheque and signatures to us this week, but it will be cutting it close for month end. I have to make rent and car payments and do not want to pull money from my savings.
Dana will have to get serious with his life and work possibilities.
A woman by the name of Ruth came in to look at bungalows, was impressed with our finish and will be giving me a wish list to come up with a price for the home and lot in a few days.
The couple from the spruce grove lot has not called as of this afternoon. John suggested that the area may be exclusive and we may not be able to get into the area even if he wanted us to build there.

Sunday, Sept. 2 sunny +20, fall is in the air in the evening
Labor Day long weekend.
The weather is miserable so a great many people have stayed in town and are doing the show home tour. I had several couples return. Sharon in particular with her daughter.
Cam has come in with his parents to see the spec home that is being built at the end of the block.
I have decided to travel to Toronto to participate in Simon's and Kati special day on the 29th. I talked to John and it seems to be ok with him.
What is money for but to be spent? This might encourage the money to come to me quicker with another sale.
Played squash with Warren on Saturday. He managed to break the strings on his racquet again so had to play with my extra one. I managed to win more games than he did; he seemed to have a lower level of energy than usual. He has been working hard all week with a long day at Lloydminster this week.
Susan spent the day at the music in the park on Saturday with her work again on Monday to fill out her volunteer time along with the music she so likes. I will talk to the ticket agent at Sears to get a ticket for Toronto on Tuesday.

Unknown to me or anyone else not connected to the forthcoming event, the world dynamics will change in the next week. Catastrophic events occur throughout our lives, testing us and altering how we live.

Continuing On

2006-03-27T13:59:00.000-08:00

Saturday, Aug 28, cloudy +23
Moved on Friday, Susan came by with coffee, at noon and after work to help me. Other than that great help, I moved everything myself.
What a day. I have not been this tired for a long time. During the final stages my legs and arms were starting to cramp up. I took my time and worked my way through the discomfort. I stretched my muscles as much as I could to stop my legs from cramping up.
Susan brought over some salmon, red wine and a square to make a lovely supper. We went to Ikea and purchased the bed that I had decided upon. We managed to bring home two incorrect bed pieces even with the help of the staff. The color on the head board was white instead of the wood and then we discovered when putting the bed together that the side boards of the bed were the wrong style. Susan was going to take them back and drop off the correct ones at the apartment. Two of the keys were not working. I arranged with Susan the apt. manager to get the correct ones on Saturday. I slept over at the old place and with some ibuprofen managed to sleep quite well. I returned the truck after fueling it up with diesel. Total cost of truck rental was $84. It was a good deal considering the movers would have been paid $300 plus, the delivery on the bed would have been $40 and the returns would have caused a great hassle. The sofa will be a different story when I purchase the unit.
Luke passed the first stage of RCMP testing with great numbers. He has good reason to be very proud of his achievement. He is also actively purchasing furniture to move out on his own. This will make it easier on Susan who will not have to encourage him to move out. She will miss him when he is gone but the visits will allow them to get to know each other in a different fashion.
Susan is smoking again regularly; she is quite comfortable with what she is doing. Work will be very busy for her this week but then she starts two more weeks of holiday. Holly and family are not coming down in August for a visit as they first suggested.
I have some more cleaning to do at the apartment but this will be done over the next few days. I wait for Cory's friend to pick up the box of magazines, the haulers to get the sofa, chair and bed and if they want the end table I will purchase the two units that I saw at Ikea. The color coordination will be nice. Only two items were broken during the move; a patio chair and the top to a tea pot.
Traffic should be good today, with the weather overcast but not raining at the moment.
Dan, his wife and parents returned for another visit to see and show off the house that they would like to build out at Lakeshore.
Susan's brother in law Bob is recuperating well at home after his back injury but is becoming a bit demanding, his wife is saying. I hope he takes time and treats his back with all the care he is able to.

Sunday, July 29, heavy rains started Saturday evening continuing all day Sunday, +16
Dropped by my old apartment, vacuumed and removed some of the curtains and other stuff from the bathroom and bedroom. Cory's friend did not show up for the box of magazines. I will have to call him again to come over and pick it up.
Went over to Susan’s who barbequed some steak for supper. We put together the bed since I finally had the correct parts after Susan exchanged them at Ikea. Took some doing, some red wine and a couple of mistakes on Bob's part but the bed was finally together. We brought some coffee and enjoyed coffee and sweet squares on the patio as the rain fell gently from the sky.
She left for the short five minute drive home and I retired to bed after putting up a bed sheet for a blind in the bedroom.
The rotating fan in the bedroom has three pull switches that illuminate the ceiling with the moon, stars and constellations. Quite neat. The rotating fan will be a great help if the weather gets hot again.
I slept in till ten thirty after extensive dreams about a variety of people, mostly about Danielle. This is probably a result of the move from the north side after moving to the north side to be closer to her. This closes a door to my past. I will now be able to concentrate on my new relationship with Susan. Have to give this more thought over the next little while.
Warren called this morning to confirm our squash game early this week. We will talk on Monday. He has some company in from Europe so he has to arrange his schedule around them.
Today is Sunday which means that Simon and Kati are married and Gillian can now focus her energies on a different set of possibilities, - Jason, or the grandchildren of Simon and Kati
The traffic was very heavy late Saturday, with several good potential customers. Monica wants me to put a lot on hold and follow up with more information on a house that would suit her. Bobbi and her husband would consider building with us if I can find her a walk out lot in St. Albert that is wide and long enough. Cam, the current owner of a Rock Solid home will come in this week to consider building the Artisan with a change of fireplace position. His friends Shirley and husband are serious about the Richmond when they come back from a Vegas vacation. Karen loves the home that Stoneridge built for her friend in Fountain Lake three years ago. Sawyer, Jan and Alex brought his brothers in to look and appreciate the Cascade again and come closer to start building it in Belgravia or Riverbend. The activity continues with some deals coming together quicker than the ones that I have been working on for more than a month. It would be nice to put some of these to rest and change the color of my bank account.

Monday, July 30/01 sunny + 22
I went back to the apartment after work to meet Mark who is coming over to pick up the box of books that Cory left with me. Cleaned up the place, packed some more things that were left over from the major move.
Stopped for supper at Doans’ for one last supper there, the next one will be at the south side location. Susan called, said she would drop over with coffee later in the evening. I rearranged things until she came over. We sat, had coffee, chatted and then she left to go back home, 5 minutes away. This is a different type of visiting then we had when I was over on the north side. After she left I continued to put things away and empty the boxes. I set up the TV and the music center and watched the movie Spawn that Cory had left me. This was the animated version of the real life movie that came out later. Strange movie but it passed the time.
Was up early, had coffee at Tim Horton's on the south side, drove up to St. Albert, stopped in at the land developer and picked up all the information that I needed to locate some walk out lots for Bobbi and Glen. There are some good pieces of land available for these people. I left a message for them to call me. I was able to locate two homes of the Brighton Type that Monica was interested in. I was able to put a hold on the lot that she wanted. Took some pictures of two homes that Stoneridge had built in the north of Edmonton. I will have them developed and have them available for Monica when she comes in. I returned to the apartment and cleaned the place till the two movers came from WINGS and picked up the sofa, chair, bed, end tables and kitchen chairs. They took all the items, this was a relief to me as I do not have to move them myself. Tomorrow I will meet with the landlord, finish cleaning, hand over the keys and get the deposit back for the apartment.
Wednesday, the video hook up people will come over and hook up the cable.
I should be able to have lunch with mother and catch up on the wedding as I am sure that Lillian has called to tell Mother all about it.
The people from Sunday, Bert and Debbie from Wedgwood are coming back on Wednesday to see the Carrington spec home that we are building, to talk about the pricing to develop the basement with bathrooms for each of their children. She likes the bungalow better than the two storey home that we are in at the moment. The time frame is correct, two and a half months for completion. They want to be in and settled before Christmas. This would be a pleasant and easy sale. They want to be able to see the home built and not have to make all the decisions that are necessary when a home is being constructed.
No dreams last night. The ones that I had the night before are still very vivid in my mind.
I still have not heard from World Games personnel about driving as a volunteer during the next week. I would have expected something by now but they have more than enough people to do the job. I am too busy at the moment to do any thing with them.
The weather has been terrible for flying over the past two weeks, but the forecast is for clearing over the next several weeks. I will be able to get and go flying soon.
I still have not heard from Steve N. It is would be nice to find out how he is doing in his new job. I would expect that the job may be new but the atmosphere with his wife will not have changed. I do not think he would want it to change any great amount. He is too used to the way it is.
I am feeling quite relaxed now that the move is over and there were no great problems or mistakes. I will have to replace a patio chair that was broken. One of the nicest features of the new apartment is the dish washer; I will find it very easy to finally wash all those items that require regular washing but something I would never do by hand.

Tuesday, July 31, sunny, turning cloudy in the afternoon- + 25
Finished with the apartment and turned the keys in and only had a few deficiencies.
My place is just about sorted out.
Had coffee over at Susan's place for a few minutes.
Gave the appraisal price to the Noels current home, who thought they should get more because the realtor suggested $175 to our $155. I said I would deliver the realtor's quote to John to get his assessment of the situation. This is not a "no"; just a discussion of a few concerns about the house.
I left another message for Bobbi and Glen about the information that I found out about St. Albert. Monica has not let me know about the lot in Lewis Estates.
I received information from the World's games people about driving during the next two weeks. Things are coming together.
Dana called to chat, said things are great and he has some good business news. We will talk later in the week. He said Cory is doing well and they had lunch together last week. His job situation must have improved during the last little while.
Warren did not call but I will show up at the squash courts and see if he is there.
The move is complete and I now get on with another part of my life. Susan is definitely pleased with my location and the quick access to a visit is not threatening or demanding. It will be a nice change to have people drop over for a quick visit or a coffee. The chance to ride around on a bike and get some exercise will be a pleasant change. Not much else to thing about or have feelings around.
Susan said that Susan and Fred will be going to the high school reunion on Saturday but will not be staying overnight; Fred probably has to work the following day.

Monday, Aug. 6 sunny and hot +25, clear sky
At work , feeling quite refreshed.
Slept well last night.
Saturday, played squash in the morning.
Worked all day; a slow day, except for the couple from Fort Mac, who are going to build in two years. Picked up Susan and drove to Vegreville and arrived in plenty of time to participate in the pre supper discussion at the reunion place. Fred was there but Susan was at home with a severe cold. The turn out was great, with about 40 grads and most had a significant other with them. Marvin, Rod, Fred and I had our pictures taken as the original crew, we all aged well. Emery and Elaine were there from Calgary. Even Jan and Mike from Wetaskiwin. The supper was great with John and Miranda having caterers creating the food. The discussion was lively with memories and stories continually producing more memories. Most of us ended up sitting around a fire, with Emery playing the guitar and the rest of us singing as best we could. Barry M. was there with his new girl friend. It was a great evening, with most of us departing for our rooms about three in the morning. A determined few remained up till four or five. We all gathered at the Vegreville Golf Club for breakfast in the morning to continue our discussions and some to prepare for the golf game.
Susan and I left for the city after eating and saying our farewells. Fred was to bring Susan back but did not appear before we left.
I made it back to work a little late but in time for the serious browsers. I had only one serious couple and had to battle keeping my eyes open in the late afternoon. I went home, tried to take a nap, difficult because I have no sofa. Went over to Susan's, helped her wash and wax her car. We then went for a bike ride around the area to stretch our legs.
Derek phoned to say the day had been long, the competitions exciting at the World games and they were on their way home. We would get together during the week.
This morning, woke up refreshed, had coffee and arrived at work on time.
The reunion was exciting. I learned more about people and their past, such as John I's drive to make money and become rich. Rod has relaxed but Betty is still driven and seems to be focusing her drive on Rod now that their children are grown, in University or in the job market away from home. Rod seems to be in a good place. Marvin was in fine form, with his active ways and funny comments. Jan is increasingly more concerned and involved with her children's lives, to the detriment of her own self, I expect Mike to level out her anxieties. He seems to have a good effect on her.
The weather has been great for the games, with only a thunderstorm Saturday evening to slow down the entertainment at the Kinsmen Field theatre. The competition has been of very high caliber with the medals being won by a variety of countries. Canada does not rank very high up in the standings at the moment. The citizens of Edmonton are meeting and excelling the standards for hospitality and coordination through their volunteer and organizational skills and talents. I start driving on Tuesday in the mornings for the next 7 days except on the weekends. It will be interesting to have to get up a 6:00 in the morning and then function all day.

Tuesday, Aug 7, cloudy with winds but turned sunny in the afternoon, +27
Got up at 6 to work at the World Games as a driver and I did not sleep well in anticipation of the event. I arrived with a great many other volunteers to drive the participants around the city. I had two trips during the day before I booked off to go to work. Both were people from other countries speaking their native language. They were very pleasant and polite people. The total organization is moving along well with only a few problems that would occur naturally with such a complicated event. I am to work on Friday and then again next week, Tuesday and Wednesday to drive the remaining participants to the airport as they check out.
The work day was slow with some results being available after I phoned some possible clients. One had purchased a home in the Country club and the other did not show up after guaranteeing on Monday that she would. Such is life. Wayne, the appraiser, was to meet with Noel's and appraise their home. I was a little tired at the end of the day. Made some supper, Susan dropped by for a smoke and a chat on her way to Wall-Mart to pick up a mattress cover for the new mattress that she had purchased for Luke's new bed.
Got to sleep early and woke up refreshed.
Warren still has company and went to the Games last night.

Wednesday, Aug. 8, cloudy with sunny breaks, a few showers and breezy, + 24
Went by the office, did some photo copying. One of the owners, Chris had heard from Wayne H. who will be presenting the appraisal to Noel tonight. Chris will handle the discussion and the guaranteed price on this deal.
I dropped by Ikea to purchase two end tables to compliment the bed I bought earlier. I should be paid for the Noel sale soon which will address the red numbers in my bank account.
Talked to Cory and Dana over the past few days. Dana has had some work, but the quote he gave for the one day set up is not needed because the unit is not going ahead. Cory had only two days of work last week, is short on his rent, (what else is new) but is expecting full work calls during the future work. Jason is back, setting up for the Chan movie. Both, Dana and Cory have had lunch with Jason and will be working on the unit as much as possible starting in one week. The money situation is tight for both of them, but they do not seem to be too concerned. Jason is doing some extreme games, motorcross and skydiving, that will drive Lillian to the edge of worrisome stress. He continues to require attention.
The memories of the reunion are still strong and pleasant. I should look up Marvin and have lunch with him when I have a chance.
Shirley is leaving for Toronto next week, so I will call her for a quick coffee and get her address and phone number to pass on to Cory. The time has gone by quickly since she was informed that she was to move to Toronto. The heat wave continues in Toronto and the Ontario area in general. It is the hottest this year since four years ago. The boys say it is hot but bearable; although they are both young and healthy. The bike that Cory purchased has a small crack in the frame but he is attending to it with the shop that he purchased the bike from.
Susan had lunch with the fellow that she had a couple dates with when she was trying out different guys, so she could match make him with some girl friends of hers. This information was a little irritating to me but within the boundary of good taste. She is still in charge of what she wants to do. I will get on with my life and not become too out of sorts because of it.

The Packing never ends

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Thursday, July 12, sunny with clouds in the evening, possible showers + 24
I continued to do the things required to move to a new apartment.
I picked up my accreditation from the World Games headquarters in the afternoon. Nice outfits- green tops, blue shorts, blue Adidas runners, blue hat- a few pins and instructions.
Arrived early at the showhome to meet a client who came by early to see the bungalow. Her ex-partner, Larry, came by a little later with their daughter. We all went over to the show home. She suggested that the closet was too small for all her clothes. Also her daughter would have to sleep in the basement. Larry was adamant the land developer owed him a favor so he might be able to have the show home released earlier than the end of Jan 2002. He was going to make an offer after he contacted the land developer and proceed with buying the home. She said that it would not work out to build a home like this if she could not get this one. She had her own plans that would be better to build.
I do not know anything for sure, except that there is some kind of movement. A client and her friend Jo Ann came by to admire the home again. She has confirmed some contracts and still would like this home available for her at the end of Jan. 2002.
Everett said he might but his voice said that he was not coming to the mens group meeting.
Hector is away on holiday for a couple of weeks, as is Peter.
Warren is working till late tonight so he cannot make the group. Warren's work is coming along nicely, he is aware of much he is working each day and is able to balance the business activity with the personal time that he is spending on himself and with Patricia. He is off to Yellowknife next Tuesday for the week. We are to play squash on Saturday. My back held up to the games we played but it got tired at the end. I suffered no ill effects on Thursday as I expected I might. The sauna heat, stretching and activity were just what it needed.
Susan was busy but was able to relax on her outdoor swing in the cool evening air.
I received some final information about the reunion on Aug. 4.
I have not heard from Derek or Viola for a while. I expect they are busy babysitting their grandchildren or they are on holiday in the mountains.
Shirley and I will get together for supper next Friday to celebrate her birthday. The days will get busy after that with the games and my moving. I will suggest to Cory that he offer his babysitting expertise to Shirley during the first few months she is in Toronto.

Saturday, July 14,
Monday, July 16, Cloudy, + 18, calm, some rain showers
The weekend was quite turbulent with the weather hot, moist and muggy. We had severe weather with hail, heavy rains and a funnel spout touching down near Caroline on Friday. Saturday was hot and muggy but the rain held off till Sunday.
Spent the evening at Susan's, sat around talking, watched a little bit of a movie on the new DVD that Luke had purchased and then I went home. Holly and her family were coming during the next day to have a chance for Mathew to see an ear specialist in Edmonton.
I took in a great baseball game in the evening that was truly enjoyable. Had a great time with hot dog and beer watching the young athletes perform.
Played squash with Warren in the morning. I did not play very well. My mind was somewhere else.
I purchased a shredder on Friday, spent most of the day going through my files and cut up most of the accumulated paper from 7 years of storage. I packed up most of the paintings and other items that were not in the box yet. I went through the envelopes and found some letters; photos, cards and other items that Danielle had sent that expressed her thoughts and passions during the first two years that we were together. It was rather difficult and mind shaking to remember the feelings and thoughts that she expressed during that time. It took a great deal of time (several days) to get my mind around these thoughts. I even found some cards from Sharon. I managed to dispose of all the pieces of paper that I found.
Dana called on Saturday to chat and make sure that all things were OK. He was working on a film his friend was making. He was doing it for free to get some experience and to help her out.
Cory called on Sunday to fill me in on his activities, his purchases and his latest dating exploits. He is going to shave his head again because some clothing he purchased fits that style of head appearance. What strength of courage!
Susan is doing well with her family and her friend, Gail. She has been able to question Gail about what her motives are pertaining to her daughters that are moving away from home. She is talking with Gail about what she can do to change her life to accomplish more than taking care of her girls that are growing up and moving out.
Bob, Louise’s husband, is still trying to work but at a reasonable pace. His sleeping arrangements have changed since he finds it very difficult to climb the stairs. I hope he gets better quickly.
Susan said that her Fred is working full time and living out at the job site. Kelsey has moved into the home place to help things along with the new child.

Wednesday, July 18, cloudy and moist all day, with severe thunderstorms to the west, some showers in Edmonton, +21
I am getting frustrated these days. I am starting to lose my patience with the inactivity of the people who are thinking of buying these homes.
George has not shown up with his family. Larry has not contacted me or John.
I called Larry and left a message. He called back to say that Cheryl had purchased a home on Monday and would no longer be interested in our home.
George said that he would be dropping by in the latter part of the week to see me. I will see when he comes in. I called the RE max agent who is looking after Deer Mountain and will be meeting with him on Friday to get a better understanding of the land and the necessary paper work. Debra will have talked to him by the weekend so I should be able to provide him with as much information as he needs to make a decision quickly. Debra said he should qualify for the mortgage and all the monies he needs.
Susan is busy with Mathew and is very happy with the visit. It is nice to see her happy again.
Mother was in a good mood when we had lunch at the Mirabel. All the family had been in contact with her by phone, taken her out to eat and treated her well. Cheryl, her niece is well involved with her new job and feeling very comfortable with her new man. The visit by Andrew, an old boyfriend, has unsettled her a little causing her nerves to be on end somewhat.
I suggested that she be as open with him as possible, when she asked what to do. He is very aware of how unsettled she is and how she can be manipulated. He will not leave until she closes herself off from him.
I have not heard from Derek after leaving him a message in the morning. He is keeping busy I would think.
Peter is back from holiday. He, Everett and Hector will be meeting at the second cup on Thursday since I will be meeting with George and family in the evening, I am quite sure. The weather is too foul to fly so I will have to put it off for a couple more days.
I checked out the beds at Ikea yesterday and will probably get the unit from them unless I find something that I like more at Scandia furniture.

Thursday, July 19/ Sunday, July 22- cloudy, rain showers + 19
Saturday was busy with a steady stream of lookers, nothing immediate. A couple is being transferred from Regina in the next few months, looking for a child popular area with a great amount of greenery. Another couple wants a special lot and house in Lewis Estates. Angela and daughter came in to see the home and decide whether they want a two story instead of the bi-level. They will come in on Monday to write up the paper work. The lot on the corner is gone although they do not know that yet. I will pass on the information will come on Monday. Melvina came in with her ex- husband to see the house and proclaim that it will be hers. I am to call her if there is an offer on it. We can also build this one if it is sold. She has had success with her contracts coming to a successful conclusion. I left a message for my client to come in and we would discuss the requirements for Deer Mountain.
Also, I faxed a note to Adrian and Trish from Devon to say I had a plan for a bungalow that they may like.
I played a couple of games of squash with Warren on Saturday morning. He pulled a back muscle on his run to the court and was in such pain that he had to stop playing mid game. He was off to the chiropractor in the afternoon to get some help. Strange type of injury.
Spent the evening having supper with Shirley and a group of friends discussing her future and past before she is flew off to Toronto. It was a great evening of discussion, reminiscing about all the possibilities for her future. She is more comfortable and relaxed in her life than she has been for the longest period of time. The upcoming settlement of her mother's will, the subsequent opposing points of view between Nora, sister, and her older brother is causing some level of stress. She has come to terms with what the agendas of the siblings really are. She will survive this encounter even though the discussion and settlement of a mother's will has to be a difficult process at the best of times.
We had a great time, with the evening going by to quickly. Devin was still up, so everyone went home and Shirley put Devin to bed.
Saturday night was spent at the CARES BBQ out in the country. Susan was quite exhausted from her visit with Holly, family and her friend from Vancouver. She relaxed during the day, visiting a green house and then napping during the day. She had decided to take up smoking again, after enjoying a couple of packs of cigarillos. She purchased a package of smokes in the evening with her shopping but managed to lose them before she arrived home. I suggested that she not read anything into this occurrence and just go out and buy another pack. I am ok with her decision about smoking and will be happy if she is relaxed about what has happened.
I finished scrubbing the stove rings plates and rings so they look almost clean and new. It is easier to do it slowly and in steps than all at once.
The rep at Stoneridge homes in Sherwood Park said that Dennis from Slave Lake was in to see the home last week. John suggested I call him this week to find out what is happening if he does not drop into the show home.

Monday July 23, sunny and windy +26
I went over to Susan's for burgers in the evening. Talked to Luke for a few minutes, then he went off to a show. Susan was in a good mood. We went for an hour walk after supper with Dusty, her pup. Susan said she needed the exercise. I went along for the support although I am not one for walking. Felt a little angry and put out for having to walk for such a long time. But it will do me good. It will do Susan more energy if she continues to do it. She brought out a cigar and smoked it after we got back. She kept asking me if I was angry because of the tone of my voice and some of my remarks, of course I said I was not.
She shared with me that she had gone out on more than one date with some guys but found it quite frustrating, but I think a bit exhilarating. I did not handle it very well and was a little but miffed when I heard that she had stepped out more than once. Oh well, such is life. I will just back off a little and motor on.
Cory called while I was out but I expect to talk to him tonight. He was working early so had to get to bed. Dana called later in the evening. He was in a good mood and was still doing the volunteer work for his friend. He is building some good relationships that will stand him in good stead in the future. He needs some more money to make ends meet this month because he did not work that much, but he expects to start some serious work next month. It is only money.
Did some more cleaning, shredding on Monday. I called on a colleague from my old company to come over to pick up the boxes of wire. We talked about the company and flying. I suggested we do some more flying together in August when we all have a bit more time. It is really difficult for him because of the expenses of such a large and growing family. He will survive.
Derek called on Saturday but has not called back.
Warren's back is better but I expect we will not play squash again till Wednesday.
George, Angella and Lucy came into the show home in the late afternoon and made a decision on the Hampton III with a little redesign on the top floor. They signed all the papers subject to the appraised price on their home. I will get together with John at the office on Tuesday to complete the paper work for them, get the pricing on Roth's home and the correct pricing on John’s home in Deer Mountain.

Tuesday, July 24./ raining all day + 15
Changed address at the bank and ordered new checks. Dropped by the office, formalized information with John about Noel's new home and firmed up prices for John and Dennis new homes.
Spent a few minutes chatting with Susan who was having a bad day. I felt quite good about her today.
Went to the showhome, two people came by in the rain. Two more basements are being dug across the street.
Talked to Cory last night. He has been working steadily and is feeling quite good about himself. His new hair cut suits him well with the new clothes that he has purchased. He is not complaining about his work but is just waiting till more substantial work comes along from other areas of the industry.
Gillian is gone as of Monday, so Cory and the new woman have the house to themselves. He said that he spent some time with Dana over the past few days enjoying each other's company.
The battery for the computer has come in and I was able to pick it up this afternoon.
The weather forecast is for rain over the next couple of days turning sunny on Friday, when I am moving. I won't be able to make it to the exhibition this year, but it is not a great loss.
Still have not heard from Derek since he left me a message on Saturday.

Wednesday, July 25, raining all day, + 13
The battery for the computer works well; don't have to boot up the unit every time I have to use it. Slow day, did some more shredding, cleaned the bathroom and put some stuff in some boxes.
Derek called to say that his friend passed away from the cancer that had consumed his body over the past two years. Last year at this time, we were talking in the patio at Derek's new home. Only one year.
Death has come close over time but not in such a methodical fashion. The funeral is this coming Saturday.
I sent my condolences. I will have to tell mother.
Cheryl is going off to Vegas with her new guy.
Gillian called in the morning before she left for Austria. A young lady is occupying the room upstairs. She is going to Art College in September. Mother said that there was no good reason for a person to take art as an occupation since there was no money in that area. Gillian seemed to do all right.
The landlord from the new apartment called to set up an appointment to pass on the key so I would have access to the unit. I will drive over on Thursday to have a look at the place again and get the key. I will try to stop at Ikea and purchase the bed so I can pick it up on Friday with the rental truck. This will allow me to save some money on the delivery charge. Susan is getting quite excited about my move, perhaps more than I am.
I booked a room in town for the evening of Aug. 4, Saturday for the reunion.
Warren's back is still not quite in good shape, so we are going to postpone playing squash till next week. He has some relatives in town for a visit, starting this weekend. Oh, summertime visits.
The emotional feeling of Susan dating other guys has subsided over the past week. I tease her about it but I should really express myself clearly to her. Perhaps I will have the confidence to do this sometime in the future. She is still wavering about buying cigarettes since she lost the package that she purchased at the grocery store.
Since my friend Susan has not called to get the directions to the High School reunion, I would expect that she and Fred will not be going to the do. Unless they have the directions they will do what I would have done and just drive around. If they leave earlier in the day, not something Fred would do, they will be able to eventually find the location.
I am comfortable about the agreement with Noel and do expect everything to proceed along nicely. After the appraisal, John and I will meet with them to confirm the selling price. At that time will be able to give my invoice and get paid. It would be very nice if another deal came together, the Sawyer sale, so the invoice would be a memorable payment. I expect that it will come about in a timely manner.

Thursday. July 26, Cloudy in morning with sun and rain showers in the afternoon +22
I continued to put stuff into boxes.
Susan came over during her lunch break to have a smoke and see the place for one last time. She said that she would drop over during her lunch break and help me move some of the lighter stuff.
The afternoon at the showhome was quiet with a return visit from Dan, who has a lot reserved in Lakeshore, he dropped by to get the dimensions of the Cascade for a possible construction in the spring or earlier. He will bring his wife to see the house again during the weekend.
Only Hector came to the group meeting at the show home. Peter is in Saskatchewan, Warren had meetings in Spruce Grove and Everett had some business he was unable to leave. We had a good discussion about dating and finding someone new in his life. He said that Annette was spending time with a fellow at a campground up north with their children. His company received some money and a study they created will be published in a scientific journal. This will lend some credibility to what they are doing.
I am ready to move tomorrow. I expect the weather to be sunny but cool. I will take it easy and spend the whole day moving so that I do not get too tired out.
I should have time to stop and get the bed from Ikea so that I have some place to sleep.
Hector is spending $400 to have an agency introduce him to women that are compatible to him and his way of life over a period of 6 months. He believes that the value of the money paid will create a commitment on his part and on the part of the women who offer themselves to the agency. I look at it as a large expense, but then I fly and get only a emotional high feeling out of it. I guess that he is expecting an emotional high out of the women that he will meet.
Different thoughts and expectations.
I still have not received any information from the World's people as to when I will be needed as a driver. I would expect that because of my different schedule, I will be slotted in at the last time possible. There seemed to be a great many volunteers to fill the necessary positions. The time has passed quickly and August will soon be here.

Moving On

2006-02-19T12:26:00.000-08:00

Sunday, July 1/01
Canada day, cloudy with showers + 20
I continue to clean out the apartment in my effort to ready myself for the move to the south side on Aug. 1. The collection of items that have been setting for six years that I have not used or will not use is amazing. I do not struggle as much as I used to, in deciding that these items are better used now by other people than possibly by my boys in the future.
Good Will and the Value Village people are the recipients of the boxes and bags that I am collecting. Pure trash is going into the garbage bin. I am repacking the boxes that Cory left before his move to Toronto. I asked him what to do with the box of car magazines that he left with me. He said that he would call Clayton and Marshall and have me deliver the box if Danielle was agreeable. It will be an interesting meeting.
The chain and rifle I will deliver to Cheryl, for Terry and use on the farm. Paintings, books and decorative items I will pack mid month. I will start changing the address with my contacts during the month. Pick up of the sofa, chair and bed by Good Will is arranged for the end of the month. I still do not know if I will hire some movers or do it myself. I will decide by the end of the first week. My testosterone is kicking in here.
Susan attended a Chinese/ Vietnamese wedding last night with a friend. Very different and extravagant, she said.
Warren and Sally drove up north to participate in a sweat lodge for the weekend. He is trying very hard to make this work with Sally. His single mindedness about her is quite remarkable.
Friday night, Susan and I bought some flowers and plants after we had visited the Elk Island Park for a afternoon of walking. I planted them alongside the little blue flower that is starting to bloom in my planter. I was able to fix the storm day spring that Luke and his friends had broken while Susan was away on her trip.
Holly continues to suggest that she and Jason are moving to Edmonton, after he quits the RCMP. Only for six months but I feel that it will have a greater disruption in Susan’s life than she imagines.
Traffic is good in the house with some serious people coming through and making inquiries. Trent and Donna, some rich young adults love the house and want to build it within two years when the lot they desire becomes available. They still do not understand that many things change in the period of two years. I will look forward to helping them build a house at that time.

Monday, July 2, sunny, +22, winds Sunny, hot and breezy.
Traffic was light but some serious people are looking for a bungalow that has already been built.
Went over to Susan's to relax, wash the car and then went to see the fireworks at Millwoods.
Susan worked on the garden and puttered around the yard by herself. She is taking Friday's off for the rest of the summer because of the overtime work she did during the last year.
I talked to Cheryl this morning; she is busy getting her rooms ready for occupancy during the Worlds Games and for future tenants. Daryl has been gone golfing for ten days, returning tonight, an event anticipated greatly by Cheryl. Her new job is hectic, with a few loose ends to complete but basically a good position.
Mother is angry about a statement I made regarding a thrown knife in my youth that I made when we went out to the Casino.
The day had good traffic with a couple of interested people, Ray on the Richmond and a return by Regina and her friend on the Cascade. She is serious about having the Cascade built on the golf course with the Atrium built as a room for her piano. She has the money and only will have to sell her home but it will be a negotiation to the last. The young lady who bought from another home builder brought her mom and dad in to see the home. They have a house south of Sherwood Park but were a little interested in this home. Maybe something will happen in the future.
Winds have picked up so probably no flying. I have not heard from Warren so I expect we will not play squash unless he calls later. I expect that he does not remember the hours that I work.

Wednesday, July 4 -Independence Day in the USA- hot and windy, clear +31
I went for my monthly massage from Odette today. She found a little muscle tension in the right leg calve and Achilles heal area from my old injury. We had good discussion today about life, dreams and death. I managed to share with her some of my life story and she hers with me. Unmarried, no children professional woman; it was a pleasant discussion.
Susan said that Bob (her brother in law) was injured in a water skiing accident in BC. He injured a vertebrae in his lower back. Could have been paralyzed but all he ended up with is a sore back and therapy. I hope he slow down and takes some time off before he returns to work. I am not confident that he will. Louise is showing a brave face, but she is very concerned. Susan is also. Things happen so quickly.
The squash games with Warren went well. The games continue to be very invigorating. We are to play on Saturday again.
I passed along the prices and information to a client from Regina last night, with a follow up phone call to confirm and answer some questions about the sale of her home. I talked to a banker about contacting a mutual client and to stress the fact that he is still looking to build a house on the new land he has found east of Sherwood Park. I would expect Dennis from Slave Lake to show up tonight to discuss the house.
Had lunch with mother today, she was not as grumpy as she was over the phone. Her visit to the doctor was not a comfortable visit and I expect this has made her mood a bit more caustic. Terry, his drinking and eating has not made it any easier for mother. She is even criticizing where Cheryl is working and how far away it is from Edmonton.
The world continues to turn.
Tried to go flying on Tuesday morning but all the planes were booked out; perhaps on Friday.
Everett is doing some work in High Prairie. This is a location that would be interesting to fly up to.
Warren and Sally enjoyed the sweat lodge over the weekend. He seemed a little more relaxed about life and his work.
Dana is getting more work. He is a little surprised when I said that I was moving. He had talked to some school friends and suggested they might be calling me to get some information about work.
Susan seems to be concerned about Gail, a neighbor and her actions relating to her kids. I would expect that it is as a concerned friend that she has this confusion. Not much else.
The discussion with Odette was an interesting sojourn. After the discussion about the vertebrae and possible outcome to rehab we got into a discussion about responsibility and opportunities. She is a good listener, asks relevant and specific questions. She thanked me for sharing the information and thoughts I had with her. An interesting woman with great hands, although I have no intimate thoughts about her.
Talked to a manager from large home building company last night. He said that they were building a house a day this year. Quite a production. What opportunity for success and problems. Our production of 39 units pales in comparison on the total number side, but financially is equivalent in compensation. The number of problems we have is insignificant in comparison.

Monday, July 9, hot and a little breezy, sunny + 29
Thursday was a great day.
Traffic was good with a couple of people quite interested in the showhome.
Finally I managed to get a haircut.
Vicky is no longer with the hair salon; Kim was the lucky girl who got to give me a hair cut
Everyone but Hector showed up for the group.
Warren discussed Sally as usual. Peter was able to take some criticism at work and not feel threatened. I talked about something? - The lack of sales and the ability to continue and not get depressed.
Everett was quite excited about the new vision he has in dealing with his wife and the sharing that he sees as necessary. This he learned from his Excellence Course that he is taking over the year.
Susan has been quite busy with work and personal concerns. She is arranging a different type of communication with her dad, who has gone completely deaf. They are using a telephone answering machine, to be able to get the complete information that is sent to him.
Bob is quite sore and has difficulty walking but is coming home next week. A friend is flying into BC so he can drive the truck and trailer home. Louise is not able to do the driving. He will be on pain killers and rehab for a while I would think. It is great that he is not seriously hurt so his back will heal and regain mobility with therapy. Small wonders.
Susan has been visiting and dealing with suggestions from her daughter regarding Mathew's speech problems and the possibility of them coming to Edmonton for specialists. This is causing Luke and Susan some sleepless nights. The confusion and dynamic changes that will occur if Holly and son move in will be dramatic. Luke will have a great deal of difficulty in adjusting to this development. But it is a part of growing up. This could be the encouragement for him to move out and get some life experience. I think Holly is tired of being a grown up and is looking at a way of being taken care of. Jason, her husband, will not let her become a little girl again.
His leaving the RCMP and moving into Alberta to be closer to civilization is going to cause a great deal of problems for everyone involved.
The weekend proved interesting. I missed a message from Warren regarding our squash game time but I did not get too frustrated by being late. I managed to win 5 of 6 games some how. Maybe it was the stress and mental speed.
Friday I took a 172 up for a flight to a location in the east of the province and back. I played with the GPS to establish the direction to Slave Lake. I will have to check out on the new Cessna Skyhawk so we can travel up to see Everett's work in High Prairie and the Roth home in Slave Lake. Finding these places will be a lot easier with the GPS than by dead reckoning.
In the evening, I attended the drivers meeting for the World Games.
We will be starting about the 21 of July and driving to the 15 of Aug.
My packing continues. A little each day, with a clean up as I go along. I will do more after I get some boxes from Susan on Monday.
While cleaning and packing I managed to break the glass top of my kitchen table. After all these years, I have had this table since Linda and I bought it on the farm. A slight sharp hit from the tape machine and it cracked across the middle. I will check the cost of buying a new top, but I would imagine that I can buy a total wood table for the same price. It is time for a new kitchen table I would think.
The picnic in the park with Susan was nice. We met after my work and her nap, ate, talked and then went for a long walk. She told me, but did not show me her new tattoo, that was in the making for 2 years.
She is quite proud of it. She is taking control of her life again. This is nice to see.
Gail, a neighbor, and her concerns of control with her daughters continue to weigh on her.
Susan is going to have a talk with Luke to allow him a better understanding of his role in the upcoming months- with Holly, his job applications, and his education. Susan is fairly easy content with herself although I gave her a hard time by mocking her when she was putting to much emphasis on some events in her life. She attended another wedding on Saturday, which turned out quite long and boring, but highlighted by great amounts of food, merriment and a guy hitting on her, by telling poor jokes.
Holly and Mathew are arriving from the north next Saturday to stay with Susan for a couple of days, then Bon, a west coast friend, and her fellow are stopping in for a couple days and the summer continues. All in all it is working out quite well, not having to go over and see her to much. It relieves the pressure and allows both of us to do what ever we wish. It is a nice easy feeling. No guilt and abandonment issues are apparent at this time.
A couple, who had a Rocksolid home built in 1982, now desire to have another built in Lewis estates. The came over on Saturday, we talked about lots on Sunday, they came by to look at them on Monday. Later they asked John to call them to confirm a few things. They will bring their daughter over on the weekend to see the area and we will proceed. This will move along to another sale, one that was not in the loop as of last week. Another couple, who had a Rocksolid home built for them in the 90’s, really love the showhome. I sent them home to think about making an offer sometime in the near future. I expect I did the correct thing by not writing them up immediately. If and when they come back, they will be serious.
The weather forecast is for hotter weather over the next several days. The rains and thunderstorms should be spectacular.

Wednesday, July 11, cloudy, +22 calm
After the blistering hot day of Tuesday, +33, this day is quite pleasant. A record was set by the temperature. There were thunderstorms to the north last night but nothing in town.
I spent the morning still packing, got rid of the broken glass table top that I had cracked and did some laundry.
Dana and I talked on Monday night. I was checking on his mood since he was sounding a little down when he called.
Gillian called later in the evening after I had left a message for her or Cory. She has calmed down a little about the wedding and now is buying clothes for the trip and the wedding day. Cory was issued a new uniform for the company he is working at. He is happy about the situation since he can work as many hours as he wants to. The work has slowed down at the moment, although the new contract has been signed and ratified. The new work will start in about two weeks.
Dana is a little tentative about some dental work he requires but I suggested that he check out a dentist, find out what has to be done to his teeth, how much and arrange some appointments. At least this will get his mind off the boredom. He is spending time working as a volunteer expert on his friend's film for about a week. I told him that now was the time to clear up any dental problems instead of waiting till he was working full time and had not time to take off, for any tooth problems he might have. He seemed to be ok with the suggestion.
A previous client called to say that she had not built a home and was interested in the spec. bungalow that we are building at the end of the lane. She and her ex husband will drop down to see the unit on Thursday. A small but pleasant call although Susan said not to get excited about this occurrence.
George and Angela will bring their daughter to confirm the lot and type of home that they want built in Lewis Estates. It would be pleasant if the lot they were interested in would become available at the end of the week.
I managed to pack all the pictures and items in the apartment in most of the boxes. Susan will provide a few more boxes to complete the job. She is quite excited about Mathew, her grandson, coming down for a few days on the weekend. Luke purchased some cutlery in the event that he is moving out to his own apartment.
Warren was busy on Monday evening, so we are playing squash this evening, I would expect. My back has been having a few twinges and is a little bit of a nuisance.
I have managed to change most of my addresses on the mail I receive with a few places that I will have to visit in person.
I have not heard from Dennis since last Thursday. I faxed him the new price and house plan last Saturday. He is in town this week and I expect to see him at the show home this evening, even if Gary says that he would find it hard to do the work up north because of worker shortage. I will let fate handle this and take it as it goes.
I visited Sofa land, checked out the leather and cloth sofas and chairs, discussed the products with the saleslady. to get a better understanding of the product line that is available. I will have to go by the shop in the west end to see again what they have on hand and compare their prices. First of all, I will have to purchase a complete bed set and have it delivered after I move in. I will consider end tables to replace the white ones that I have on hand at the moment. When these two sales come together, it will be easier to make decisions on the price and extent of the purchases.
I called Jan to touch base with her and Alex regarding any developments on the downtown lot and to answer any questions about the house. She was still enthusiastic about the house and the lot. She felt that the house should blend into the area so some modifications will have to take place on the house- a veranda or something similar. I suggested taking photos of the house fronts that she liked, bring them in and we would accommodate their wishes. She said they would come in around July 24. Things are moving along well on this front.
Dennis R did not drop by this evening. Such is life.
I left a message for Susan to call about the location of the Reunion in Veg. on the long weekend. She hasn't called back yet so I may call her tomorrow.
Susan is more disappointed with the lack of sales than I am or that I show outwardly.

Moving

2006-02-05T15:07:00.000-08:00

Thursday, June 21, sunny and very warm +27

The squash games, last night, were very good, with Warren winning most of them. I am not playing hard enough at the start of the games.
Met with the company owners at the office and determined that they would build a home up in Slave Lake for a client. The price would include the traveling costs, which will increase the house cost. The client was quite excited that this was even possible and will come by next Tuesday to discuss the situation further. He will discuss the situation with his wife over the weekend.
Susan is very busy these days catching up on all her friends and relatives. She will meet Mom and I for lunch; then we will go to the casino for a couple of hours. Then she is off to pickup her friend Maxine and her dad for supper at Louise's place. She said they have to discuss Luke's decision not to travel to Europe. He will be going to school and applying to the RCMP and the city police.
She said that Bob and Louise would not be happy about this situation since their daughter will have to travel in Europe by herself. I am not going to be involved so we will not see each other till Saturday.
I may go golfing in the evening if the weather is acceptable. Still have not heard from the new apartment people but they said the earliest possible date would be Friday.
The mens group will be meeting at the coffee shop for a little variety.
I am not sure whether I will put the personal ad into the Examiner soon. I will talk to Hector and get some more information.
Also, I will see how the relationship with Susan moves along.
I will have to give Shirley a call and arrange a coffee date sometime next week to catch up on her activities. She will be going to Toronto soon to arrange her living accommodations for the year.
The weekend, if the weather holds, should be productive as far as clients making up their minds concerning the building of a new home before the fall. The young nurse who has been coming in and enjoying the showhome, butwho wanted to build a smaller unit, is building with another builder in an adjoining are. What a bummer. Oh well, I will live.

Saturday, June 22, sunny + 24

Had a frustrating squash game with Warren. I was up for it but could not complete the shots and therefore lost most of the games. I felt I should have done better. I envisioned that I would. Have to do something different on Monday night. Because of the power we had in our strokes we managed to destroy two squash balls during our games today.
I continued cleaning the apartment and found some more things to throw out. I then went down to Commonwealth Stadium to watch the Canadian National Track and Field competition since I had some free tickets from the volunteer association. It was a pleasant evening watching the young energetic athletes. Watched a young man from Ontario set a new Canadian javelin record on his last throw, quite a rush. Turned a little cool by the end of the evening. Returned home, watched some TV and then retired for the night.
Traffic in the show home has been slow today. The deals that I have in the making should be coming to completion in the near future.
I have to go in and get a security check before I am allowed to be a driver in the World's Games. I will go down this week sometime.
Everett did not show up for the group meeting on Thursday. Warren was a little concerned.
He and Sally had supper last night and then did a light work out. They are getting along a little better but she is still not sharing her thoughts with him to the level that he would like. He said that he was feeling focused these days; that is why he as able to win so many games in squash. I still have not heard from the new rental place about my application to move in.
Mother said that there was some confusion about when and if Terry had actually responded to Simon's wedding invitation. I think I will leave it alone until someone else brings it up.

Monday, June 25, Sunday was Sunny with a few clouds, a couple of thunderstorms to the north and south,+18

I wrote this out on Sunday but managed to delete all the words accidentally. The traffic on Saturday was steady with one good prospect. I will get back to them on Monday with the required information after discussing it with John.
Called Susan to arrange getting together at the park for some outdoor music.
Warren and I played several games of squash in the morning. I managed to win only one or two out of seven. I had gone into the games with the full intention of winning the majority, but it did not happen. I was a little frustrated with the outcome. It would seem that I start the games with very little energy. I have to be more up for the first game and let it carry me forward. I would think that Warren gets energy from winning the first game. I will have to see what the outcome is when we play on Monday. We managed to break two squash balls during the games, which would mean that we are playing at quite a physical level.
Sunday was cloudy but warm. The traffic was slow but one prospect came in and was very interested in our showhome if it could be built on a lot in the northern part of the city. He said he would bring his wife in on Monday to look at the house. He wrote out his name and phone numbers to ensure that I had it. A little unusual but I will see what comes of it.
John said they sold the new showhome in Sherwood Park, with occupancy in three months. A realtor sold it for them. It is good that houses are selling for the company and they are being kept busy. I am starting to get a list of potential sales, so everything will come out fine.
Dana called last night to regale me with his exploits of escorting two French women around Toronto for two days. He survived just barely, he stated. He is in need of more money to cover off the power bill, but is working continuously with the promise of more work.
He said that Cory gave his two weeks notice and will move on to another aspect of the film industry. I am sure that Gillian will have a certain amount to say about his decision.
On Monday morning, the landlord of the new apartment called to say that my application for the new apartment was accepted and I could have the unit if I wanted. Said I would and would like to move in early if possible. We will keep in touch.
I will tell Susan when we get together again. I am interested in her reaction. The move will be a change but with the noise on Saturday night from the apartment below me I am looking forward to a new place. Now about living on the ground floor, I still not comfortable with this concept due lack of security and view. Also, driving from the place to play squash on Saturday mornings will take more time, but I will manage.

Tuesday, June 26, Showers all day, +11, good rain for the farmers, not great for flying

The squash games I had with Warren were as excellent as we have ever had. Four games in an hour. Sally came along to work out while Warren played squash. She was in a good mood, with Warren responding in kind. It seems that they are getting along quite well. Nice to see the warmth between them.
I filled out the necessary paperwork for a security clearance to be in the motor pool for the 2001 games. Now all I have to do is find out when Orientation is.
I have to drop off the anti freeze and oil that I found in the apartment at the recycling station when I can find it.
I followed up on the commitment I made to a client to find a financial institution that would get him a mortgage. I feel that this will work so we can get this house built for them.
Enough complications already!
Mark and his wife did not make it to see the show home but they said they would do it this week sometime.
I am more relaxed about the money concerns since I cannot do much about it and in real terms I am in better condition than I have been in a long time.
Fred was hired to a permanent job with a local company and is discussing financial concerns with his Susan. Quite a surprise that he would give in and take a permanent job instead of his habit of always taking short term jobs.
Thoughts- Dana and Cory have such potential and so little debts that any opportunities they explore carry very little risk. Cory should do well with just his enthusiasm.
Dana will continue to make progress by becoming more serious as he grows up.

Thursday, June 28, Sunny and warm + 24 , winds in the afternoon, winds up from Kansas, humid

Wednesday was slow, but the traffic was serious. I had an inquiry about the spec bungalow we are building from Bill, who toured it last Monday. He said that he would be back next week for some prices. My client stopped in to discuss the price of building the Cascade up north. I showed him the options along with the price, he was OK with both. We went over the changes that he would like made in the house and the related costs. He spent about 1 1/2 hours in our discussion. I will have to get back to him with the prices for the stucco, a larger garage and driveway. It was a good discussion. He agreed to make a decision next week to ensure that we can build the home before winter. He was to discuss the terms with his bank, his wife and make a quick decision.
I have a good feeling about this, even thou Gary is complaining that he will have to drive up to Slave Lake every so often. Perhaps I can fly him up there to help with the time frame. I will have to make a trial flight to see what it is like and how complicated it might be. It would be good for my flying hours and I might be able to bill the company for the time.
Spent this morning and afternoon cleaning out the apartment. I still am finding things that I have not used for four or five years along with items Cory left which will never be used. I repackaged some of the boxes Cory left when he went to Toronto. I will have to ask him about some of the other things, magazines that he left with me; if I should dispose of them. I would expect that he will never look through them again for any real information. It would be a waste of time to haul them from place to place. I will have to give the recycle company a call to pick up the sofa, chair and bed sometime near the end of July.
Everett called to say that he had to meet with a client so he would not be able to make the group meeting today.
Susan suggested that we go for a drive to a lake and have a picnic. Sounds like a great idea.
Had another great sleep last night. I seem to be able to relax a little more even if the situation has not resolved itself completely.
Fred and Sue are concerned over the events in Kelsey's life. Kelsey’s partner is acting like the child he is. He has not settled down into a father role. In fact he has gone the other way, his spending time with his male friends which included time spent with another girl. It is a hard thing to grow up. Kelsey still has a lot invested in him. It seems that Sue and Fred are staying out of the conflict as much as they can.

An Untapped Cache

2006-01-27T11:20:00.000-08:00

Saturday, June 9 +23, sunny with a slight breeze, a great summer day

Warren called to play squash this morning; we had a great set with each of us winning the same number of games. Because of the games I was able to get rid of the aches and pains from my golf holiday in Kananaskis on Friday.
I had driven down Thursday night and stayed in Calgary overnight; I was up at 5 am and drove to the Kananaskis golf course in the clear morning air. The mountains were breathtaking as usual. Played golf all day and just relaxed in good company and a friendly atmosphere. Had a bit to eat and then drove home. The traveling on the highway was the most difficult part of the journey, with all the speeding and reckless drivers. My hands and feet took quite a physical punishment with all the activity but they will get better with a little care and attention. Next time I will have to drive down in the morning, golf, stay overnight and then golf in the morning the next day. It will be easier and the scenery in the bar might give rise to some interesting results.
The discussion with the guys on Thursday night was interesting. Peter was in Calgary, but Warren, Everett, Hector and myself were present. We spent most of the time listening to Warren's recounting of the difficult work week that he had. He was getting back into the competitive business work atmosphere, very cut throat, and his alarms were going off telling him that he did not want to participate in this sort of activity. He was able to recognize what was happening and put himself to one side, even though he was being affected by it. The upcoming meeting on Friday was causing him some stress but he had decided what he was going to do and felt quite comfortable about it.
Everett was reacting very strongly about his wife's actions and energy level in the evening at their home. I suggested that he tape the Oprah show, play it when Louise was around and discuss the topics if they were relative to their interests. He said he would. He is developing an attitude that what is , is, and he should not get to bent out of shape that it is not what he wants it to be or what he thinks it should be. A big step for him.
I have not heard from Susan, it has only been since Sunday, but it seems like an eternity. I know she is well and enjoying Mathew and her daughter. If I remember correctly, today is the day that she and Anne start their trip up north. The weather promises to be good and the scenery is called spectacular. It will be nice to get a phone call from her when she gets back.
I doubt if I will get a call from Susan, the bird lady. But stranger things have happened. The discussions with my clients are moving along quite nicely with some concrete results in the next couple weeks. I am concerned about how Gillian is reacting to the events surrounding Simon's wedding.
As to be expected, Cory and Dana’s are living well and are enjoying their lives.
Dana will be a little more relaxed and more confident now that he is working more and using his skills to the level that he can justify. I expect the work to continue.
Cory will probably stay with Gillian at her home till the fall and then take a place in the city by himself. It will be of great concern to her, but as long as she is not owed any money, it will be no problem.
Jason's continued need for Cory and Dana help and work experience will be a bonus for both of them.
The real possibility of my going to Toronto for Simon and Kahti's reception is something I will have to keep in mind. It will be a sore spot if no one from the family goes to the function in the fall.
Terry and Merci have no intention of going, even if it is in Toronto with the attitude that they have at the moment. If Gillian continues to press the issue on the location of her painting; the emotional tension will only get more strained.
Monday, June 11, Sunny and bright, + 21
Dana called early last night, in a good mood. His visit with Shauna, his girlfriend from back home, was a great deal of fun. He also worked a couple three days and has more lined up this week. A major film is in town and he expects to get on board with it. Jason is not involved so Dana feels good that he is doing it on his own. He has managed to pay down some of his bills, along with settling his account with Cory.
Cory is going to take a few days off work to get involved with the special effects area of film to see if he likes it and can handle the inconsistency and the erratic money flow.
I still have not heard from Susan, it seems like a long time but it really isn't.
Had a couple of clients come in to further our discussions about their new homes. It is giving me something to do and keeps me busy.
Warren and I played a great series of squash games on Saturday and we will continue the activities tonight.
I received some information that a client continues to shop the suppliers for the house that he wishes to build. I will let John know what I have discovered. John suggested that it would be no problem if I wanted to take a Thursday off.
Gary said that he would sit in for me. Possibly in July, I can take the time and go down to the south country and do some golfing. Everything else seems to be going along quite nicely. No real great trauma or difficulties in my life that are apparent to me when I check with my feelings. The need to have female company comes by in waves and really is of no great significance when I think about it.
When Susan returns I will be able to get a better understanding of her feelings and emotions. I would really like to be with her, under what terms I will have to discuss with her, but if she is not available I will continue on with myself and keep my emotions open for the next female to come into my life. I would like to continue as a friend with Sheila until she leaves for the east to go to school.
It is apparent that Dana and Shauna have something special in their lives but I will let him discuss it with me. It will be some time before she is coming to Toronto so they have time to decide their living conditions. He is still determined to go to Australia to do some work and sightseeing.
I expect that Cory has given up his dream to go down to Atlanta. Even he must be aware that Greg, his boss, is not someone who easily keeps his word. Time will tell.
Tuesday, June 12.Cloudy with rain showers, + 18
I did laundry during the morning hours. Did some house cleaning, noticed that the ski boots were in the outside closet, not having used them for a couple three years, I decided that they would be better off in some one else's possession. I left them outside by the trash bin; some one will pick them up and put them to good use. I managed to clean up some other items and dispose of them. I felt good about doing this. I located the map that I acquired when I went sailing in the British Virgin Islands. I am going to get a frame for the map and mount it on the wall, wrinkled paper and all. Contacted Andy, a client, during the afternoon and faxed him the information that he asked for. Called John M for an appointment on Wednesday but he suggested next Monday would be better. So be it.
Warren called to confirm the squash game in the evening. We had a great series both winning three games. The shot making is getting quite intricate and varied. The work out was very good, with no ill effects on my ankle tendons. I discussed with Warren the possibility of placing an ad in the personal column of the Journal just to see what would happen.
I listened to a professional, on the radio; explain that we should make a small list of what we want to do before we die. This would be something that everyone or at least I should do to see what will happen.
I suggested that Hector bring along his personal ad to give me some direction and information about what to write in the ad.
Everett is not able to make the meeting on Thursday.
Called Cheryl for lunch on Wednesday. She had to go to the dentist in the afternoon because of a broken tooth but we had lunch in the early afternoon. She had spent some time at the new job at the Hotel that she will be managing. The owners seem to be quite alright but any new undertaking has a certain amount of stress that goes along with the new people and environment. All in all, she is quite happy.
I was able to get a birthday card for Susan. Although she has been gone only for a week and a half I am missing her and do want to see her. I hope her trip and time away with Anne is a good experience for her.
Work is continuing along quite nicely, with the company building a large bungalow on spec at the end of the crescent. It will be nice to sell this unit to someone who needs a home quickly. The days are passing quickly with the time getting closer till when the home sales are finalized. My accounts are below the line but a sale will make up for any problems quite quickly.

Thursday, June 14, rain in the morning, cloudy with sunny breaks in the afternoon, +21

Everett was not able to attend because of his daughter's awards night. Everyone else attended at the showhome. Hector had to leave early to baby-sit his kids at seven in the evening.
We had a good discussion with Warren about a close friend of his calling him “her hero”. He had a great deal of trouble coming to terms with the concept of if she really knew who he was and what he has done, whether she would still consider him a hero. After some discussion he was able to be more comfortable with the comment.
Peter was trying to be comfortable with the angry emotion he is feeling about his wife still spending so much time at work, even with the end of the school year at hand. It may be that she did not go to see their son's soccer game, after he expressly asked her to come to see him play. She said that the work at school was of more importance than the child's activity.
I had asked Hector for his personal ad that had been placed in the Examiner to help create my own personal ad.
After some discussion about the ad that I had created, a few suggestions were made by those in attendance to clarify the intent of the ad.
Because of the merit of doing something/ anything; ergo getting on with life, not waiting because of the “unreliability of life” I have decided that only good events could come of the publication of the ad. We also decided that Warren would benefit from the ad in a secondary fashion; I would pass on all the culled contacts that did not meet my level of interest. We also decided that there would be no charge for Warren to receive these contacts.
Traffic is slow at the show home, but this is to be expected on the Thursday.
I was able to frame the ocean chart that I brought back from the British Virgin Island sailing trip. It has turned out to be quite an impressive piece of art.
I received a postcard from Susan today saying that she was thinking of me, along with expressing her love for me. I will have to wait to better understand her feelings when she arrives back home and we have a chance to talk again.
Cory called last night to say that he had a bit of a cold and was taking a few days off work to recuperate. He also had put his name in to work in special effects on any production that was available. As is his way, he informed the company that he is currently working for, that he was doing this just so they would know. He is quite strong in his ability to say what he means and believes in. He is not a person to go around people's backs. This is a very strong characteristic, I wonder where he gets that from; probably his mother. His bike is performing well. He is getting a great deal of enjoyment from it and said that he is having it serviced on a regular basis. The weather has been quite nice and except for a few rain showers, the weekend should be good enough to go golfing in.
Saturday, June 16, Cloudy all day, with rain showers off and on all day, heavy rain in the evening +14
Traffic was slow during the day, with a few interested parties. I did some reading, but just a slow day. Thinking of Susan , where she is and what she is doing. Wondering what her state of mind will be when she returns. Played squash with Warren in the morning, we both won three games. After losing the first two games, I was able to win three of the last four games. I felt quite tired after golfing at Couger Creek and walking the course, some of the time in the rain. I stretched out after the game but still felt it in the legs in the morning. Derek called before I left for the squash game to invite me to stay overnight at their place and golf in the morning. It was a nice thought and I was quite flattered by this gesture but having to work at noon on Sunday, I was not able to go. Watched some golf in the evening while I enjoyed a coffee.
Sunday, June 17, cool and possible showers during the day, Father's day.+12
Had a chance to look at my bank account which is going down slowly because of no sales. I am trying not to obsess with the state it is in. One or two sales will quickly rectify any problems that may occur. I can continue on in this fashion for quite a while but it is difficult on the mind not to be productive from my point of view. There are a couple of sales in the wind and I know things will be all right, but it is still hard not to worry. I am more concerned with the upcoming meeting with Susan when she returns from her trip up north. Logically, I can come to terms with what is happening but emotionally I am still struggling. This is sales and I should be aware of the ups and downs of the business. As I have said many times, do not deal with the problems that may happen, deal with any problems on hand, of which there are very few. Wait for the problems to occur and then have the possible solutions on hand to put them to rest. What a thought.
Still cannot find an Edmonton Examiner to have a look at the lay out. I will have to call Hector for a copy.
There is a big air show in town with some British Harrier jets on hand for the display. I drove by to have a look at the massive fighter jets. All steel, armaments and business. They are meant to do a job, handled by professionals who know what has to be done and how it is to be done. I have a feeling these units are so unstable that they can turn on the pilot and kill him quickly if he is not careful.
I expect the traffic will be slow at the beginning of the day and pick up later as the kids have their way with their dads.
I am proud of the way Cory and Dana have turned out and it is nice to see them turn out so comfortable with who they are.

Monday, June 18, sunny with clouds , + 19

Completed the wrapping of the birthday gifts for Susan. She called in the morning to say that she was back from her travels. I went over and had coffee in the early afternoon and heard about her trip with Anne up to Juneau and Skagway Alaska.
Talked to Luke about some decisions he had to make before the end of the week, whether to travel to Europe this fall with Kyla, get a job, continue with his interviews for the City police and RCMP (become responsible) or go to school. The first police interview suggested that he move out on his own and get a little life experience. He is in a quandary but will make a good decision, which will strengthen him. It was very nice to see Susan since we have not seen each other for a while.
The driveway for the showhome is being constructed with the concrete pour on Tuesday which will not interfere with show home traffic since it is so slow at the moment.
An evening thundershower with winds is keeping everyone close to home.
John and I are meeting with a client at his place to continue with the finalization on details on his new home. I expect it to go quite well.
Gillian called late last night to express her frustration with none of the family calling Simon and Kati about their wedding. She is very distraught that none of the family is showing her and Simon the proper respect. This will continue well after the fall gathering in Toronto for the newlywed couple.
Gillian will continue to be frustrated by the lack of response from the family. I do not have anything to say that will make any sense to her, relative to the intensity she is displaying because it is her son's wedding. Her comments regarding the great low level of responsibility that Jason is showing to those around him is disproportionate to what he is really doing. Oh well, families are an intricate lot.
Cory is thinking of making a decision to work full time in the special effects area. He will do well.
Dana is continuing to do well in his field of work. He was a little frustrated that he missed out on a special effects jobs because he took some straight labor work but it shows that he is trying to get all the work that is available and is not being to picky. A nice sign; shows a degree of maturity.
After a discussion with Susan, I will make a concentrated effort to move to the south side so that time will not be such an issue in our relationship. I will have to resume my search in the next couple of days and revisit the loft on the south side.
Wednesday, June 20, hot and sunny with a possible thunderstorm in the evening, +26

Workman poured a driveway for the showhome on Tuesday so we kept the unit closed for the day. I did some shopping during the day for odds and ends.
I talked to Susan during the daytime before she went to see her dad.
Checked out a couple more apartment rental units and made an appointment to see a unit on Wednesday afternoon.
Went over in the evening to see Susan and continue getting reacquainted. We went for a walk with Dusty, her dog, before it got dark. We tried to redefine our relationship and discussed how we wanted to interact in the future. It was quite relaxed and comfortable. She got a phone call from a friend whose father was quite ill, so I left her to the conversation.
Warren called me to arrange a squash game for Wednesday evening.
I picked up mother for lunch on Wednesday, to discuss the wedding that Simon and Gillian are in charge of.
Mother is quite angry that she is not being treated correctly.
Terry is on the list of people who are ignoring her, along with his attitude toward her. Cheryl is frustrating mother because she does not want to settle down. Gillian’s discomfort is the only bright spot. Mother is happy that Gillian is so flustered by the wedding not progressing as she wants it to do. Such is life.
I dropped by the apartment to have a look. It is a ground floor unit facing south east quite secluded from the street noise and intrusion. As large as the unit I am currently in with the appliance, storage space and general decor quite modern. It will be painted when the present tenant moves out. I filled out an application, left a deposit and I hope to move in Aug. 1. The rent is $550 per month on a yearly lease. It would be a benefit if I could move in before the end of the month to allow for a cheaper move and I would have more time to get out of my place, clean it and move into this one. Moving into this unit should be quite easy because it is on the ground floor with access from the back through the patio door. I will arrange for the sofa, chair and bed to be picked up by Good Will before I move so the move is easier. When I purchase the bed and sofa I can have them delivered directly to the new place. What a plan. The manager lives in-house so I should have no trouble with any noises from the other tenants. I noticed a tennis court across the street. The new YMCA is down the street a couple of blocks. It will have good facilities for racquetball games between Susan and myself.
John acquired some information about the lot in Sherwood Park that John and Nadine are interested in. I passed along the information on Tuesday. John said he would have a look at the property and get back to us. I told him that the lots were moving quickly and that he could secure the lot he preferred with a deposit of $1000 that would hold it for 21 days.
I am getting some traffic at the show home today. With the weather being quite nice, people are starting to feel pressure to make a decision if they want their new home to be completed before winter.

The Tension is Mounting

2006-01-18T20:00:00.000-08:00

Monday, May 28, clear with clouds building, extreme winds +56 km, + 25
The supper at Cheryl's last night was enjoyable.
Met Daryl, her boyfriend, at long last, he seems to be an agreeable sort of fellow. Cheryl’s dad and partner, Merci, were at the house when I arrived. Mother and Cheryl’s younger sister, Lesel were also present. Cheryl’s brothers showed up later in the evening with some of their “Mud Bogging crew”. Terry was quite pleased with his weekend of dancing with Merci. “TJ”, Cheryl’s son, has grown up nicely and plays by himself with toys including his Nintendo on the TV. Lesel is as beautiful as ever and brings a great deal of confidence with her because of her job in San Francisco. Mother was pleasant but was a little unhappy that Cheryl has changed jobs again. I am sure mother did not sleep well last night.
Gillian called to talk with Lesel, asking her if she was able to come to her son’s wedding in Austria. Most of the family are still not able to understand how important the attendance of the family to Simon’s wedding is to Gillian. They also do not see the value of attending the function and how little they would miss at home by going to this once in a life time event. It is easier, they think, to make up excuses why they cannot go then to see what they will gain by going.
I spent the morning looking at new rental units on the south end of the city. The prices for the new places are higher (100 to 175 dollars) for places that are not as nice. The only interesting unit is the one bedroom and loft in the south end of the city. The move-in date of Sunday, July 1 is not a good day considering I have to work on that day. Aug 1 is on a Wednesday which would be much better.
I am not sure why I am moving to the south side? Is it to rescue a relationship that has changed in Susan's mind to the degree that she is no longer interested? Am I doing a positive thought process that will, by moving closer to her, show her that I am determined to save this relationship? I will have to talk to Warren about these things during or after our squash games.
I am going to call Susan, the bird lady, this evening to try to talk with her. I do not know if she is out of town and did not get my message or is just ignoring me? This should clear it up one way or the other. It will make me feel sad if she is not interested in continuing the discussion we had at Shirley's party. I do not know what to expect? The feeling of loss in not talking to Susan over the past few days has not been as great as before and will continue to subside as time passes. I am not sure how much I will miss her when she is on her trip up north.
Susan’s friend called last night to chat. She is concerned about what is happening between us after she had talked to Susan. Her husband, Fred is working up in Fort McMurray on a regular basis.
Dana called last night in a good mood. He had worked several days last week with Jason and was to work again this week. He said that Jason was in charge of a large Walt Disney movie that should last till August. He was told by Jason that he has continuous work as long as the shoot is in Toronto. This would enable Dana to get back on his feet again, financially and emotionally. Good for him. He is still low on money and asked for money to clear up a cell phone debt.
Tuesday, May 29, day turned cloudy and cool with rain all afternoon, +11
This should help dampen the massive forest fires that are occurring near the City of Slave Lake.
I had coffee at the north Timmy’s when Ann, Susan’s friend, appeared to pick up coffee and a donut for her break. We chatted a while about her work, then a little about the situation between Susan and myself. We had an open discussion about the situation. Her understanding of the situation was interesting. She feels that this separation is a temporary event.
This is getting to be a small world as far as I am concerned. To bump into her three times over the last two months all in different localities is quite an amazing coincidence. She is pleasant to talk to, though.
Since she enjoys golf there might be a golf game in it some time.
Tried to contact Susan, the bird lady, in the evening but she was not home. I did not leave a message. I will try to contact her again for coffee on Wednesday or Thursday.
Cheryl enthusiastically took the job at the hotel/ restaurant complex.
She and several others quit their positions at the hostel association because of the management and the board of directors. She commented that she may be moving to the area near her work over the summer to create a little stability for TJ. Mother is still quite perturbed by all this movement by Cheryl and her inability or desire to hold a long term job. I offered my opinion that it was Cheryl’s choice to be erratic, something she has done all her life.
Set up an appointment to get my car fixed (new clutch and a major tune up) next week. I will get it done so I do not receive any surprise breakdowns on the road. Now the timing belt is the only item to replace, but I know that I have 20 or 30 thousand Km more before I have to do it.
Warren and I played a great series of squash matches last night. He won the series but it was very close. I went into the match thinking that it was his turn to win because I won the last series. I played to win but not hard enough, I guess.
Derek called for lunch, but late, so I was in the middle of doing laundry and said we would do it another time.
I checked out several other apartment locations for prices and locations. The move and new apartments will be expensive. I will wait for a while and get some more information and possibly move Aug. 1, if I am still inclined and if I still feel a need to be on the south side to be closer to Susan.
Time moves on.
Wednesday, May 30, Raining all day finally, cool. +11,
The continuous rain will give a welcome relief to the land that has been dry for the last year. The massive fires north of Edmonton will be brought under control by these rains, I hope.
Talked with Susan for a minute to arrange a coffee meet on Thursday. She said that she did some more thinking after our meeting last week, I would have suspected so.
Very little is happening at the moment in home sales.
Neither of my clients has called back after the messages I left. It is up to them; I should not feel a rush to create closure. I am sure they are feeling under greater pressure than I am, to get something done. I can last for a long time under these conditions.
The single pay check from one home sale is enough to satisfy my needs for a couple of months.
A relaxed posture, being here and now as Warren says will allow me to enjoy these special moments that I am being granted.
I was able to get the prices and information necessary for me to order the battery for the computer from a local computer store.
I am going to lay my interest in Susan, the bird lady, to rest until she calls. If she is not interested and I push it, all it will do is frustrate both of us. If it happens -it happens, if not - oh well.
The thought of the where-abouts of Jim and Jeff has been in my mind over the past short while. I would hope that they reappear and join the group again. The possibility of meeting Nora again is remote but I would be pleased if it did occur.
May 31, Thursday, sunny and warm +23, rain in the forecast
The month is ending and June is upon us.
Had my teeth cleaned today which turned out ok but got the news that I might have some possible trouble around several teeth. The dentist would like to send me to a specialist. I am going back in three months for another cleaning and continued maintenance of the offending teeth. Not what I wanted to hear but these are the events of life.
I had a good meeting with one of my clients about their new home. They need further specific numbers on their wish list for our next meeting in the middle of June. The processing of the estate will be settled by the end of July at the latest and we can proceed. It is nice to feel that things are moving along.
Looking forward to seeing Susan tonight for coffee.
Small world, my client works in the same U of A department as Susan, the bird lady.
Cory called to share his joy about his new bike. Even he thinks it is quite an incredible bike. 24 gears that allow a rider to climb an almost vertical wall. He is having a great deal of fun with it. He is filling in for Dana on Jason's crew in Hamilton today. Dana has to pick up a friend from Sask. so cannot make the day's work. Dana has been working steady for the last week with continuous work for the foreseeable future. The Disney film is a go with major work for Dana starting on June 3/4. I was able to talk with Gillian for a short time last night after talking with Cory. Her two lady painter renters of the top room, paid, but did not stay the full month. Gillian said that she did an enormous amount of work hauling up painting tables and all the necessary things for the women and feels quite sad that they did not continue their stay. She is almost beside herself with sadness that no one from the West is going to Austria for Simon's wedding. She said that not many of Simon and Kathi's friends from Toronto have said they are going to the wedding in Austria. Gillian and Jason are going to have a great party for Simon and Kathi in Toronto at the end of September. I am sure that she will start insisting that those who did not go to Austria come to Toronto. She continues to ask as a child would, instead of asking once and leaving it alone. She has no insight to how debilitating this is for her. She feels quite slighted that she has done all these things, such as coming out west, and no one is doing enough to come to her son's wedding. The purchasing of Jason's suit to ensure that Simon's wishes were adhered to was quite the inspired touch by Jason. He has this ability to say no with the full knowledge that Gillian will rise to the occasion and arrange for the necessary work to do be done.
He will be in for a great loss when she is not able or willing to do this for him. If he gets a woman to act like Gillian she will not be able to make him happy. She will never be able to do enough for him. He will not be happy with a woman that does not do these things for him; he is quite spoiled by his mother.
The men are meeting at the Second cup because of the appointment that I have at the house.
Tomorrow is the massage that I am looking forward to. Odette is the new girl. I will have to ask Susan her experience in getting a massage by her.
June 2/ Saturday, cloudy with light splattering of rain +17
Odette is the daughter of Ernie the photographer from my home town. She has a very good technique. Had the massage in the morning, lunched at Gino's then went to Goose Hummock for a round of golf. The winds continue to blow briskly from the south east. The golfing was good, with my game adjusting to the wind whenever necessary. Had a excellent supper at a local restaurant than returned home to watch a little TV.
Susan called in the evening to talk about some thoughts she was having about her journey, personal and physical.
Luke is determined to travel to Europe this summer or fall to get some experience in life.
Susan’s niece, Kyla, says she wants to go but Susan does not think that she has the maturity or the distance from her mother to make it happen.
Met Susan for coffee at Chapter's on Thursday evening. She was frolicking around and being quite sexually aggressive throughout the evening. She is experimenting and exploring her desires at the moment, along with testing me to see how strong I can be in resisting her. She wants to be able to be free to search for things and still sample my life and intimacies. I will hold her at arms length to allow her to see the picture as a whole. She is acting like a teenager. She is willing to experiment with her life as she has not been able to do before. Her reluctance to become physically involved with another man to achieve what she is looking for is both amusing and entertaining. I have felt a small tinge of jealousy at this news.
Warren and I had another great series of squash games on Saturday morning. He informed me that Canada development bank has turned down his request for financing. They suggested that he did not want to grow fast enough for their requirements. He was a little sad about this information but we did not have a chance to discuss it further.
John and I made a call to a previous client to get more information about the status of the price reduction of the lot but I have not heard whether she has responded on Friday or Saturday. The meeting with another client went very well with the price point being accepted. We are fine tuning the requirements for the house with another meeting slated for the middle of June. The executor, his brother, will be in Edmonton at the beginning of July with the settlement of the estate during the month of July. They said, at that point they would commit to the new home.
The brisk wind continues from the south east. Clouds are building from the west, creating the potential of rain that is sorrowfully needed. The northern forests are still tinder dry. The jet stream looks like a wisp loop centering the dry heat that is centered over Alberta. The western prairies are drier than they have been in 75 years. It will be another difficult year for the farmers that are already on the brink of bankruptcy. Perhaps this will be a message to many of them to move on to another way of life and existence. The gardeners have arrived at the show home to plant the foliage that is required to make the courtyard the unique space that it was designed to be.
Tuesday, June 5. Sunny with cloudy periods, +21 , some winds
The two days of rain on the weekend was gratefully received by the fire fighters up north, the farmers and the public in general. Monday and Tuesday call for occasional showers with some winds out of the south east.
Susan left for up north on Sunday afternoon. I chatted with her in the morning before she left. She is still brimming over with expectations of fun and frivolity in her life. She is being quite a pixie in her actions and spontaneous relations with me. I am standing my ground if only to frustrate her and give her something hard to work her emotions against. We will see what her travels, discussions with Anne and her discontinuance of anti smoking drugs will bring. Two weeks - and I am lonely for her already; maybe because she is not in the city.
I had lunch with Derek on Monday. He has settled down a little after his anxiety attack (heart attack) scare. He is still aware of the fragility of life. But he is more aware of what he can control and what he can not. He was concerned about the lack of sales and the subsequent effect on my emotions as opposed to the financial concerns.
The routine is getting quite depressing and frustrating. My clients are not responding to any phone calls; one agreement is still a month and a half away; now the other deal is something I have to be apprehensive about. I am not sure whether he will commit to building a house or if he is just getting some information.
I will put a positive spin on it so we will achieve positive results. I will ask John to take part in the meeting with him on Wednesday night.
On the other hand, Mother is well. She is finding humor in Gillian's continuing discussion of the upcoming wedding and all the details that are not coming together fast enough.
Cory is working continually and enjoyed the day spent with Jason on set, when he took Dana's place. Dana reports that he has been working at a good place and is happy with what is happening; although the Walt Disney film that was to start this week has been postponed till the fall. Dana has company from Sask. for the past week and is quite happy showing her around Toronto.
I contacted Shirley for coffee but we cannot meet till next Thursday. I have decided to travel down to the south country on Thursday to golf if the weather is reasonable. I was able to do the service work (clutch replacement and major tune up) $1500 on Monday so the car will be road worthy. The mechanics did not find anything else that needed replacement at the moment. The brakes, steering, all belts and hoses were good. Timing belt, tires and windshield can be done in the fall.
I am having a difficult time dealing with the quietness of the situation but I remind myself that I am quite busy taking care of myself. This unreasonable demand on myself to be excessively busy is just a feeling that comes from my inner child when he becomes nervous. This too will pass.
Warren canceled the squash game last night because of business conflicts but we are meeting tonight to get some exercise in, perhaps coffee later.

Restless Suspension

2005-12-21T16:01:00.000-08:00

Sunday, May 20, windy, cool, cloudy, the weather continues to be miserable
The time passes slowly.
No real exchange of closeness through thoughts, discussions or meetings with any female. Floating in the ocean of life, not tethered to anything solid. The only thing solid in my life is my faith and belief in my self. It is a chance to be alone with myself. It would be nice to share with someone but not essential at the moment.
I am anticipating a phone call from Susan, the bird lady. It might not happen but it would be nice if it did. It would give my mind a focus away from the other Susan.
I expect, she is still struggling with her decision. I would think that her surgery has been successful and not a concern anymore. Her time and freedom from required work deadlines may be a cause for concern to her. It will be interesting to see if she will have the courage to call. I do not know if this is just a temporary blip in our relationship with her running away from something very stable and reliable or as she states toward a new experience. I should call her next week if she does not call before then. I feel it will not be a show of weakness on my part. I will have to talk with Cheryl about this situation to get her point of view. She suggested that Susan may just be testing me.
Who knows, I certainly do not, I will just do what I feel and think is correct for me under these circumstances. I am actually living a full and meaningful life as it is. I have to be aware of what my insecurities are saying I should be doing and what is normal for me to be doing. Thinking I should be doing something because I believe that other people expect me to do these things to be normal, is a fool's game. Although I never saw myself as normal I have to careful not to feel bad because I am not doing all the things that could be done. Flying, golfing, reading, writing and enjoying myself with movies would seem to be more than most people are doing in their lives. The relaxed state that I am in at the moment in my life is something that most people would give a great deal for. The money situation is great at the moment, although I would like to sell another home, it is not necessary for my self esteem. Even the money is not required at the moment. I am fine without it. The sales will come. The meetings and interest by the potential buyers are increasing. I acknowledge the old fear that I am not doing enough or not being enough will always be with me. I will have to be aware that this will always play a part in my emotional stability and actions.
Derek will have to acknowledge the stresses in his life before he hurts himself. I hope that he has not gotten himself into an untenable situation in his life.
Fred has secluded himself within his belief that the less he shares, the better the situation will be. He is concentrating on the new granddaughter. His belief that his son in law will continue to be problem will probably be true.
Tuesday, May 22. Sunny, no wind +22 a beautiful day after a week of wind and cool temperatures
The days are long and the nights are longer. This disengagement from Susan is a continuing concern to me. I had a discussion with Cheryl this afternoon to gain her insight of what Susan is doing, thinking and feeling. It gave me a better perspective of the situation.
We talked a little of her feelings for Daryl and other men in her life. Her life is so good it is frightening, she said.
Still do not know whether I will call Susan today to chat.
I arranged for a coffee meet with Shirley on Thursday before she goes off to San Francisco to see her sister. Her friend Susan, the bird lady, still has not called.
Cory called last night to discuss his new bike that he is picking up on Wednesday. While biking he managed to strain some muscles in his back last week, had some x-rays taken on Friday. The doctor gave him some instructions on taking care of his back plus some medication for a week or two. He said that he is taking his birthday off to enjoy a good meal and entertainment. I said he was worth it.
Dana should be working and getting back involved with life.
I am looking forward to lunch with Mom on Wednesday.
The weather should bring out the buyers this week. The outside construction workers are really enjoying the great weather. They are getting in as many work days as possible.
My new client should contact John today to finalize the agreement for her new home. Just in time for a pay check for the end of the month. If this happens I will get the car tuned up, new clutch at the end of the month and then take a golfing trip for a couple of days.
Cheryl's suggestion that I make it clear to Susan that I value the relationship we had, is a valuable and real insight into how she may be thinking. I will have to think more about making such a statement, even though it is true. What a complicated life we lead as we get more knowledgeable and have greater insight. Perhaps it is wiser to stay ignorant and uncooperative. It may not be more productive but at least we will have more excuses when it fails. But alas, ideas once understood and realized cannot be forgotten. I will have to come to terms on what will be lost or gained if I call her up to discuss how she is. Will a lesson be learned better in a vacuum then it can be learned in participation with another person?
May 23, Wednesday, +28, sunny and quite warm, a beautiful spring day
Well this is Cory's birthday, 27 years old this morning. He is starting to get old, starting to feel aches and pains from strenuous work. He is going to take the day off he said. I hope that Eleanor, his girlfriend, treats him well today.
Dana should do something with Cory if he is not working on a film set. Perhaps it is better that he be working than spending the time walking about and feeling frustrated.
I had a good lunch with Mother. A bit of a chore considering the mood I am in with all the frustrations I am feeling with Susan.
I have called Susan several times over the last two days but she has not been home or is not answering the phone. I finally left a message stating that I did not think she was still talking to me. She called back to say that she is doing the correct thing. I am not even sure that I know what correct thing she is doing. I will have to ask her if she knows what it is. I am feeling better having heard from her but this still does not address the problem between us. Many thoughts and perceptions are present in my mind at the moment.
I am having coffee with Shirley on Thursday, to catch up on her thoughts. I have no idea how she is handling my request to get her friend Susan to call me. She can get angry, hold a grudge and not show it. I have seen her do it before. Oh well, nothing ventured, nothing gained. If it does not work out at least I will have the war wounds to display.
I did up a quote on a home in a developed area but will not present it until next week when I have the real costs for the removal of the home that is currently on the lot. The couple seems amenable to guaranteeing the price for a December build with a deposit and an agreement. A second couple picked up a quote for a home they want built north of town on an acreage. I had talked to them a month age; they contacted John and insisted that we quote on their home. They have two other quotes that are both less than ours but they are aware of our quality. They also have a budget they want to stick to. I know that budgets sometimes get changed when the real value is perceived. They will get back to us either way on Friday when they have made a decision. They are anxious to get going. This sale would be a pleasant development.
There are many irons in the fire so the agreements should start occurring soon. Then I can pamper my car.
Thursday, May 24. Sunny with some winds, smoke in the air from bush fire up north +24
Shirley and I had a pleasant coffee in the morning. She and Devin are off to San Francisco for the weekend. We discussed several items before I shared with her what had happened between Susan and me. She was sympathetic and apologized for her response when I talked to her on the phone about her friend.
Shirley told me she had passed on my interest to her friend along with my phone number. She responded pleasantly to the news of my interest. She is in the busy “traveling” time of her work. Shirley gave me her home phone number and suggested I give her a phone call. I will do that later on Friday or during the weekend. Managed to contact Susan and arranged a coffee date for later this evening. After talking with Shirley I am in a better and more settled frame of mind. I will be able to spend some time with Susan to express a few thought about what I see happening as well as asking her what her beliefs are at the present time. I am willing to fight for a continued relationship with this woman, to a certain point. I am aware that I may not have fought hard enough for some of my previous relationships. I gave them up to the common wisdom and what “will be will” be attitude. It will be interesting to see how Susan reacts to these statements. I am not sure whether this is all game playing, Should it be game playing all the time? Is it necessary for a relationship to continue to exist? Why is there a continual need to be pushing or pulling the other person to create an atmosphere or a direction that is exciting or alluring instead of “just being” is an interesting question. Creating activity or a positive vision instead of just being; which causes a feeling of not having a fulfilled life may be unfair but may be a requirement for a great relationship. Being fair may not be all it is cracked up to be.
Derek responded to my phone call. He has returned from the south trip, relaxed and happy. We are to get together next week for breakfast or perhaps golf.
The smoke in the air and the stronger winds may prevent me from flying in the morning. If I cannot, I will drive out of town and go golfing in the morning.
In the afternoon I spent a few moments sitting in the new 172 at the flying club and acquainting myself with the airplane. It is not much different than the previous plane but the greater horsepower will require being checked out in it.
Saturday, May 24, sunny with smoke haze in the air from a fire to the north, +24
Well, I had the coffee meeting with Susan Thursday evening. We were both nervous but I was quite aggressive in stating my position that I loved her and I was willing to fight for this relationship. She was quite startled but still unsure. She was not able to explain what she wanted other than something that we did not have. She wants to experience more. I was taken aback when she told me that she had gone out on date with someone else. She said that his attempt to kiss her startled her. It was a quick reminder, to her, that there is something I have that others do not have. I reminded her that she would have to kiss all the toads out there to have chance to fall in love with a prince. She is not willing to do this at the moment. She said that she did not want to date again; just a statement I assume. We discussed the changes that had occurred in our relationship and how it affected both of us. The lack of commitment from her was a little eye opening. I fell back into the habit of appeasing her and not stating my limits to her. I thought she was wiser than that but it seems that is what women or people want. My decision not to move closer to her home had an effect on her. She drifted away because she felt we were not spending enough time together. Her trip up north with her friend, Ann, to see Mathew, her grandson, and the North Country in June will help her come to terms with how I figure in her life.
I still miss her but the feeling is different than the fear I felt before.
She has suggested some alternatives to being apart, like traveling South for an overnight for golf and to sleep together just for the sex; also going to a school reunion for the fun of it as a friend and to sleep together again. I said no to all of these because I feel that she is just testing. I also do not feel like being used. The teasing she did to try to get me to kiss her in public and then turning her head away when I offered in the parking lot proved it. I told her what I would do but would not tell her what she should do. I did not mention Susan, the bird lady, not that there is anything to mention yet. A chat with the bird lady would be a nice diversion.
The mens' group was enjoyable.
Warren shared with us his attempt to be more intimate with Sally and the subsequent heavy emotional pressure that was created because her statements, expectations and conditions. He said that it took a couple of days to come to terms with their discussion.
We played several great games of squash on Saturday.
Susan had expressed the feeling that I was more interested in playing squash with Warren that raquetball with her during the years we were together. This statement was very painful to hear but I later realized this was part of her turning away.
I spent Friday playing a round of golf at Victoria with two senior fellows and younger guy. We had a great time as we walked the 18 holes.
I was able to try out several things and had an enjoyable game. In the evening I treated myself to a base ball game with a beer and a hot dog. There even was time for a nap in the afternoon.
Sunday, May 27, +21, sunny but very windy
My anxiety stemming from Susan's actions are lessening.
I had supper last night, coffee and read the paper outside on a fine May evening.
I left a message for Susan, the bird lady, for her to call today if she wished.
The day started out quite beautifully, sunny and warm. A very strong south east wind came up in the afternoon. At least it will help contain the fire north of the city. This new wind direction will blow the fire back on itself.
Cheryl is having supper because Lesel, her sister, is in town for a short holiday. Her family will be there to help the celebration.
Mother should be in a difficult mood again, now that Cheryl has quit her job, yet again, at the hostel and taken another job.
The traffic at the showhome has been consistent in spite of the wind. I have some good comments from clients but no real interest in building a home.
I sure hope that Susan, the bird lady, calls for a chat and a confirmation that she is interested in further interaction with me. Perhaps she is out of town at the moment?
I will have to look into apartments for rent on the north side before the end of the month so I am able to give notice if the rental prices become unreasonable. July 1 is on a Sunday which would make the Friday move on my day off quite easy. The area that I am in at the moment is starting to acquire too many old cars and trucks.
The music people from downstairs will not improve their attitude, I am quite sure.
Perhaps it is time to move back to the south side.
I will arrange for some service to be done on my car, tune up and a new clutch at the end of the week. The car will be more reliable and it will be possible to go out of town to do some golfing on a Friday.
With Susan traveling up north it will eliminate any possibilities of going together.

Chasing a Vision

2005-12-03T11:13:00.000-08:00

Wed. May 9, Sunny +18 no winds today, but still no rain

Susan is well after the operation. I visited her this afternoon. She is a little unhappy about being drugged but I would assume that it is necessary after the procedure. She said that everything went better than expected. I would expect this to be statement made by the medical staff to quiet the patients' mind. It was nice to talk with her and see that she is well. I left some flowers and a card. Louise had come by earlier in the morning.
I was reminded Susan’s birthday is June 15 not May 15; I always seem to get the dates mixed up.
Mother was in a good mood at lunch so we had a spirited discussion about life. She was on her way to purchase a pair of running shoes.
I am still fighting this cold and should have taken some medication to get rid of these sniffles.
I am looking forward to John and my appointment with this new client on Thursday although I am not getting too anxious about a possible sale.
Mother suggested that Cheryl might like to take up golf. With my schedule I might be able to spend some time with her and golf during the mornings. I have to encourage Cheryl to take some lessons or at the least go down to the driving range for some practice.
Saturday, May 12, Sunny and clear +24, turned windy in the afternoon

The week went by slowly.
I checked out another furniture store to see what they offered.
I visited Susan at the hospital; she was fine and was to be released in the afternoon. No one was around to drive her home, so I helped her with all her flowers and cards, settled her into her home and made sure she was comfortable. Because of the medication Susan is still on, she is quite funny.
John arrived at the show home around 6.30, we chatted till 7.00 when our client arrived for the appointment. We spent an hour going over the home she wanted. We found one that would suit her if we made a few changes. She would be happy with the basement finished, a different color in the family room and more room for her shoes in the master closet. She feels comfortable building on a lot in the west end of the development by the golf course. Her ex husband has some influence with the land developer and might be able to get her a better price on the lot. She will be confirming the lot price, visiting her bank for a small mortgage guarantee on Friday. John will revise the costs and fax over a final "best price" on Friday for her confirmation. She will get back to us over the weekend or at the latest on Monday. She is aware of the time frame, and will let us know quickly so we can get started on this home.
I am trying to remain quiet and calm about this negotiation. It is not necessary, financially, for me to get this sale. It would be nice to be successful in terms of being able to offer her the home and terms that she envisions.
My ego and self, although not tied to this transaction would sustain a boost, considering the turmoil that is happening with Susan because of her to decision to check out a new life style. I will have to be careful to remain consistent in response to her emotional and physiological moods swings as she tries to accomplish what she has started. I will have to look out for myself once again to be able to continue with my life and not create any resentment within myself.
Sheila's birthday /new job party is tonight and I am quite looking forward to the evening. I expect that I am focusing on her as a female and friend to move myself away from the loss of closeness with Susan. I hope that I am not a pest in recreating a friendship with her, though we have been getting together very well over the past year. She has used this friendship to share her fears about the upcoming major change in her life. She is moving to Toronto for her Fellowship in August which would make any relationship between us quite short lived. Perhaps we both need a friendship on a short term basis. The other possibility is we are just needy.
Anyway, I will stay busy with some flying on a regular basis, regardless of the money. Golfing in the early morning will take up some time. I should take a trip south and go golfing on Friday.
Cheryl has settled down a little although her male friend at work continues to provide enough distraction to keep her energy focused.
Lil called to talk about her son’s wedding plans that are progressing nicely. She asked again if I would be coming to the wedding. It is nice to be asked.
Samantha is growing up quickly without any medical concerns. Jonathon is having problems accepting the responsibility of being a father. This is not a surprise, given his immature behavior up to this point. It is sad that his parents denied him the joy of making decisions on his own. That to me, is such a waste.
I was able to work on a business plan for myself.
John faxed the information to our client on Friday but as yet has heard nothing back.

Sunday, May 13, Sunny, some wind +23

Mother's day is quite lovely. Mom is in good spirits with enough people calling her today.
The party at Sheila's was warm and welcoming. Her thoughts and fears that no one would show up to be with her in the evening were unfounded as we all knew. A great crowd of her many faceted friends gathered during the evening to share the special occasion. I reacquainted myself with some people I had not seen for a long time. Most of the people at the party were quite fascinating although I did not have the chance to talk with everyone. With my thoughts to Sheila’s future in the East I was pleasantly surprised to meet and be enchanted by a stunning woman who has been a life long friend of Sheila's.
To my amusement I cannot remember much about her, although we were introduced. Today my thoughts are on her and our discussions during the evening. I have no real knowledge on her status, relationship wise. She made sure that we spent time talking, exchanging stories and thoughts.
No partner or children, an educated (PHD) profession woman working at the University of Alberta in the domain of birds and their environment are a few things I do remember. There is obviously a complicated word describing what she does, she told me what it was, but I have forgotten. A good conversationalist, who listened well, put forward interesting questions and was not put off when I asked about personal questions about her joy of working in her chosen field. I will follow this up sometime later in the week to find out whether she would like to share some time together. Sheila said that her friend is away to the south of the province because of her work. Interesting how these things work out.
I chatted with Peter briefly on the phone about a programming problem.
He said that Hector on his third meeting with the new female in his life, expressed his desire that they become an item. She was quite startled to the point that she told Hector he was really a "nice" fellow but she was not ready for a committed relationship. Peter said that Hector was quite devastated by this announcement. The probability that Hector will be set back emotionally because of this event is very high. If we get together next Thursday I will have to talk to him about his expectations. Does he want a partner to take care of him and his children or does he want someone in his life to share the day to day events? I am quite sure that he is not clear about what he actually desires.
Cheryl and Ken called to arrange a golf time with them east of the city.
Susan called to chat. She is doing well with her recovery and is adjusting to her time off.
I tried to remain quite unemotional and distant. She continues to struggle but is strong in her commitment to focus in on herself.
Monday, May 14, cloudy all day, with hints of a drizzle,+14, it is trying but the possibility of rain is small
The framers are at work next door on the first home I sold. I took some more photos to catalogue the progress.
Spent the morning doing laundry, washed floors and generally cleaned up the apartment. I managed to break the toilet hinge in my vigorous cleaning. I should get the paint and do the bathroom.
Gas is up over 72 cents at most of the stations in town. A few of the outlets are selling at 69 cents. Our client called John today and said she would go ahead with the new home. She has put a lot on hold and will pick up a copy of the agreement this evening. She will meet with John tomorrow if she is ok with the information. Sounds like a go on this sale.
I have set up a flow chart to be able to track the traffic we have at the show home.
I called Sheila last evening to thank her for the party and to gather further information on the bird lady. It turns out her name is Susan. I am turning into another Jim with his Cathy's.
I explained to Sheila that I was interested and would like more information on her situation. She has been divorced for about two years, a 12 year old child that she shares custody with her ex who also works at the U of A. Susan has a PHD in the study of birds and animals as they are related to the environment. Sheila said that Susan threw herself into her work after the marriage of about 16 years came to an end. She is not really looking but would not comment any further.
Sheila is a little hurt and disappointed in my interest in Susan but was resolved to my interest in her friend Susan. Sheila's statement was "do not forget about me" when you are involved with Susan. Sheila will pass on my interest and phone number to Susan and let her contact me if she has an interest. Susan is out of the city till the end of the week.
I have a great many feelings stirring within me. The ones I have for Sheila- we are friends without any possibility of any other type of commitment. We tried it once, it did not work. She is off to Toronto in the fall for a year. I am aware that Susan and she are close friends and there are many dynamics at play.
Getting to know a new person with all the possible outcomes is somewhat intimidating. I enjoyed the time I spent with her it may have been the party atmosphere, the wine or the need to talk to a woman. Perhaps it is just the fact that a female found me interesting. This time of transition for me, with Susan chasing her ghosts is unsettling to say the least.
Dana called last night to check up on me. The industry still has not ramped up so he has had no work. He is doing all the necessary steps to get work in the industry or alternately as a car washer or dish washer. He spent some time Sunday taking photographs with a girlfriend of his. He expressed an interest in the optional camera lens that I had available in my kit bag. I told him that the camera I possessed was a Canon; he had a Nikon so the lens would not be compatible. On second thought I will check out my photo bag. Some of the connections I have are generic and may make the connections to his unit. I will send what I can to him so he can continue playing with his camera. It might lead somewhere.
Warren called and suggested that we play squash in the evening after work. I am not on the cold pills at the moment so it will be interesting to find out how much energy I have in the games.

Profoundness rears its head

2005-11-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

Thursday, April 26, rained over night, changed from cloudy to sunny with windy gusts +20
I finally purchased some pillows at Sears.
After doing some copying at the office I drove to the show home and set up some items.
The basement is being dug for Jim R's home.
Peter called to say that he was coming over to see the showhome and discuss what has been happening in his life.
Susan continues the habit of talking each day by calling to say hello. She does not seem to understand that if she wants to have a change, she will have to be able to stop the little exchanges we have had during the day. I do not think she is fully aware of what she wants and what is required for her to find herself.
Several people called about the truck which has been sold. I have had no call from the purchaser about any problems and no call from the bank that the checque has bounced. I will have to check my account to make sure that the money is there. I am sure that all will be ok with this exchange. I will tell Cory later next week that the truck has been sold. I am sure that he will be a little sad that his great truck has left his life.
John said he had a good feeling about the meeting with Mike and Marion this evening but was not counting his chickens before the eggs hatched.
I will look seriously at a new bed and a tune up for the car when and if the sale goes through. I owe that much to my car.
After talking to another insurance company, I find that the insurance rate for my car will not go down if I move from AMA. I will have to keep the rate at the same level to have protection for collision, theft and vandalism even when the car is paid off.
A pleasant surprise, Peter and Hector came to the show home for our group meeting; Everett and Warren were both engaged somewhere else. We had a great time catching up on the past events of many weeks. I shared with them the trials and tribulations of maintaining a relationship with Susan and her current confusion.
Hector is taking Jill (a new lady he meet through the personals) to supper tonight.
John called to confirm that he had another very good meeting with Mike and Monica, did the initial pricing, will do the final pricing and have them sign it over the weekend. They want to go ahead with this quickly. This is not a hundred per cent but very close. It is nice to have this happen. John and Chris will be happy and I am glad that things are coming to a conclusion.
The times are sadness slow and the minutes long.
I feel sadness since Susan's decision.
Work has been busy over the weekend with some serious people on Sunday. Saturday was very quiet with the weather being very warm, most of the people out walking, shopping or in their back yards. George and Isabelle quite liked the Cascade and will probably build this unit this spring. Jason and Diana returned from Grand Prairie this weekend, said they were looking to build a home, so John and I priced out the unit. I gave them the price; they left but have not returned. Monica dropped by to look at the Artisan again before she picked up the agreement from John at Sherwood Park. On Monday, she called and left a message that they were not going to build a home. John was disappointed and will call them to find out what has happened.
Susan and I went out for supper on Saturday to a local restaurant for a meal that was average to say the best. We had a lengthy conversation that really did not help the situation any more than to confirm that we were both in pain. Not a happy situation. We went to the Casino after the supper, played blackjack, roulette and the slots. We had a bit of fun but left on a quiet note. She is sure that something has to be done by her but she wants it both ways.
Monday was a difficult day for me.
I talked with Cheryl about the situation, her attention and advice helped a great deal.
I am having breakfast with Derek on Friday. I learned that he was in admitting for 6 hours with what he thought was a heart attack. They found nothing but he was quite shaken up. He is unsure whether all that he is trying to accomplish has any meaning any more.
Susan said that Luke is quite shaken with her decision to move on in her personal space and no longer see me. After his coming through several emotional relationships in the near past, he is going to be very unsettled. I hope he will come through it OK.
I expect Louise will have the greatest difficulty coming to terms with her sister's activities. Oh well.
I went looking for a bedroom set and a sofa over the weekend. There certainly is a great variety of looks, materials and prices in the market. The bedroom set at Mobler seems to be the closest that I envision purchasing. With the possible cancellation of the M and M agreement, I will have to postpone my purchase of any bedroom set until the next confirmed sale.
This next sale is certain to come along soon.
Dana called last night to say that he was doing quite fine, with rent paid for the month, some spending money for food. Since he has given up drinking and women along with trying to give up smoking, financially he should be OK. Several irons are in the fire for him as far as work is concerned, so there is a great possibility that he will be working at something he really enjoys, soon.
Tuesday, May 2001. light rain overnight, cloudy in the morning turning to sunshine then clouds moving in during the evening, windy + 14
I continued to spend time in the mornings looking at sofas and beds in a variety of stores. There certainly are some nice leather sofas and chairs in the market. The prices are nice also.
Traffic is very light today.
I purchased two pairs of slacks (dark blue) and a sweater at Kingsway mall.
Have done some thinking regarding the development between Susan and myself. I am still swinging from being very angry with her to admiring the strength she has in trying to obtain the dream she has. It could be a growth experience for both of us if we could get by the emotion of it all. Deep down, I am really not losing anything other than the closeness that we had over the last several years. We have not been intimate for several months so there is no loss except the perceived loss in the future.
I have to look forward with pleasure and anticipation to meeting and enjoying new women.
I expect there will be both good sides and some difficulties in getting to know these women and sharing myself with them.
I am pleased that Dana was able to pick up on my unstable emotions when we had our conversation on Sunday night. I will have to call him tonight to confirm what he sensed was correct and not something in his imagination.
The chances for unexpected adventures are very possible for Susan because of the direction that she is taking at the moment.
We might get back together again, although I have no idea what would have to change in her emotions and mental states for this to happen. I still am not sure whether I wish to maintain a friendship and closeness that would allow her to move ahead to complete her dreams. Would I just get in the way?
I could stick around, get in her way and not allow her to complete her dreams.
Perhaps as Cheryl suggested, I can step back to allow her to realize what she is losing and maybe have it make an impact on her. Loss sometimes makes reality much more apparent.
I talked to Derek today about his health problems and told him I was thinking about him. He seemed pleased. We also discussed the different qualities of mattresses and box springs in the context of sleeping comfort.
I should go back to the very start of this diary and edit the contents. I could add and make comments from my memory or complete my thoughts that I was unable to at the time of writing. This could be uncomfortable. There is the reality of bringing back and reliving what I have chosen to forget. I will do it soon if not tomorrow.
This is the time to grab an opportunity to be bigger and learn what can be achieved in a larger sense instead of taking the easy road of feeling personal loss and self pity. I could learn and experience something new by helping Susan achieve what might be possible in her mind, when someone else would not be so willing to help. If I take the easy route and feel sorry for myself I would lose this opportunity.
We are better than that; Susan is giving us the opportunity to experience this new reality. Will I, should I, and can I take myself by the shoulder and move through this new space with her.
I have continually told my boys that they are better and greater than they believe they are. They have the potential to achieve unimaginable ideas. Why should I choose not to follow this advice and opportunity? They will learn more by action than by words and they do watch me closely, so I have noticed. With a little more thought and time I will be able to convey this new found wisdom and direction to Susan and note how she reacts and lives with this.

The Expected End

2005-10-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

Monday, April 16, Easter Monday, Sunny and breezy, with the wind out of the south that is cold and biting
The weekend went very well for Susan and her family at Holly and Jason’s wedding. I could not make the afternoon ceremonies but was invited to the reception in the evening. It was a small gathering of family where anything could have happened but the event went through without any problems. Susan was able to coordinate and delegate all the activities so everything proceeded smoothly. Jason's family was there participating even though his mother had originally felt left out because she and her son had not spoken for a long time.
Work continues with some traffic over the weekend, mostly lookers from out of town. I had a few interested people making their way emotionally toward a home purchase. Two couples had been in the home before. Three couples are looking at homes in this area. One couple is very interested in the home that we are building as our showhome. I would expect them to have a look at it, call me back to get them in touch with John for further negotiations.
Warren is in town so we are playing squash and getting back in the swing of things. I managed to break the strings of my better racquet in the last game. The strings are able to last only twenty hours of play before they should be redone, Warren informed me.
I have not heard from Dana, Cory or Gillian but expect them to be all in good health and humor.
Dana will have to make some decisions soon if he is not getting steady work in the movie industry. His income should allow him to continue searching for work for another month or so before he has to change his work expectations temporarily. The tentative strike by the writers slated for May 1 will be soon upon them. This event will force Dana to make some decisions..
I am of good mind and humor and continue to come to terms with Susan's inability to get closer to me. The distance and lack of intimacy has become common place and is more of the norm than the exception. With her up coming surgery, I see this continuing for an indefinite period of time.
I am to collect my pay check for my first home sale this week. With the deposit, my credit cards, sears and bank balance should all be happy again.
Cory's truck will be on the market next week at a sale price. The sale will take care of the money he owes me.
Shirley embraces her 50th birthday this next month with a grand party at her place. I will have to arrive with an appropriate gift to highlight our relationship of almost twenty years.
Cory has his birthday next month also. I will arrange to have Dana go with him and purchase a wristwatch of his choosing in the $100.00 range. A move to United States would probably be the best birthday gift that he would wish for.
The potential for sales and income in this sales position is very great, with the only concern being the need to save a certain amount to meet the income tax requirements that will appear next year. I will address this issue when the time appears.
Cheryl is confronting an unusual situation with her current boyfriend and their activities in the romance department. I am sure it is only temporary and they will solve the problem in their own fashion. She could always return to the active young fellow that had so enthralled her in the past few months.
The traffic has been quite continuous for an Easter Monday. Chris, Gary and families plus some grandparents with kids came by to look at the showhome. The energy level in the house went up considerably with the number of children.
John phoned to tell me that Mike and Monica are coming in to do up a wish list on Wednesday evening. This home search is moving along quite nicely. We will give them the personal touch and great service to ensure that they will have us build their new home.
Wednesday, April 18 Sunny with cloudy periods and very strong winds that have continued since MondayBack at the show home today after dropping off the samples for colors for the Jim R home so he could chose the stucco, fascia , soffit and trim colors. This process continues to be a learning experience of what happens when a home is built.
I picked up my restrung racquet from the Sweet Spot. The racquet looks quite impressive; perhaps it will give me the mental edge to win the games that we play. It will be all right if I don't though.
Susan has come through the wedding quite nicely, a few days at work with a few nights of sleep and she is back on track. Holly and Mathew left a gift of a cold for her but she appreciates the attention.
I picked up the check for the Jim R home, deposited it and paid some bills that were outstanding. Now when the income tax rebate check arrives I will be able to apply it to more bills. This check will give me a cushion if I do not make a sale for a while. This is highly unlikely with the traffic and interest that there has been in this showhome.
I have finished a roll of photos including the show home in Sherwood Park along with Cory's truck. I will be able to advertise it in the Journal next week. I will accept any offer that is in the $2000 range to move the vehicle and reduce Cory's debt load. He will feel quite relieved to get rid of a debt that is dragging him down. Without it, he will be able to start saving money.
I am quite amazed at the downward plunge of the smart money magazine's tips on low priced stocks from last November. All but one stock has plunged to about 20% of what it was. The stock market is a gamble at best. Staples has maintained the same level but achieved no earning power over the past six months, not really a good investment. Warren says there are some very good stocks to purchase that will go up in the future and make some good returns in the longer term but has not given me any names so he will not feel responsible if I lose money. I will have to sit down and have him explain in greater detail what he sees in the future.
His birthday is on Thursday. He is spending the afternoon with Sally, a picnic in the park and reflection on the year.
The traffic has been slow but steady. One woman, Debbie came back twice to look over the house. I toured the Artisan with her so she would have an idea how we finished our homes. She is looking for a larger bungalow and showed concern that the lots were moving quickly. She was getting quite excited about the houses and lots. Some possibility here I think.
Talked to Susan in the evening, her cold is getting into her head and chest.
Cheryl called, the work on her house is moving along quite nicely. She is thinking about escaping to the south for two weeks.
Monday, April 23 cloudy but warm, spring has arrived
The weekend went quickly, with good traffic at the showhome.
The couple from Hanna I talked to previously, called Monday to cancel any more activity in their desired new home in Lewis Estates. The Mike and Monica activity continues with their visit to the Artisan show home on Saturday. They said they would contact John early this week. Julie from Stony Plain brought her husband in to see the bungalow and will possibly call to get more information about building a bungalow outside of Stony Plain.
Susan is getting over her head cold, sore shoulder and aches and pains. She worked on Saturday to catch up. She came by Saturday night to continue her confused discussion about possibly being friends. I am not to keen about the relationship changing from the level of intimacy that we have now, to just a friendship. I have no desire to be a guide to her as she falls in love with someone else. We will have to talk more deeply about this situation. I do not know if this is just a spring ritual, as it was last year or if she is really serious about this new direction in life.
Warren’s work schedule is filling up but is still finding time to play squash on a regular basis. He is off to Yellowknife till Friday, then after the weekend he is going to B.C. Everett has sold his construction home and now will get on to building another dwelling that he has been planning for a while.
Dana called last night. He was in good spirits; having worked a few days in the last two weeks, received his refund from Tax Canada and is putting his life into perspective. He spent some time with Cory, shooting pool on the weekend. The writers' strike is still on schedule for May 1 and no companies are starting shows or productions which mean no work till at least the middle of May. Cory continues to work long hours at his graphics job to create an income that is stable and dependable. He suggested that he may fly down to Atlanta to help set up the computers with Greg.
Cory’s paint ball games are exciting and demanding enough so he is happy with the challenge and excitement they bring him.
I went flying Sunday morning, the first time in three months. The weather was severe clear and the flight was incredible so I flew over Derek and Viola's new home. There was a car in the driveway but no one came out as I flew over several times. The flying club sold the new 172. What a short sighted idea. I did not have a chance to get my picture taken with the plane, too bad. Now that I have a little cash flow I should start to fly every two weeks or so.
I bumped into my friend Steve, at a coffee shop before coming to work today. He had just finished his Real Estate course, had written his exam today but felt that he did not do very well. He seemed to be a lot more settled than when he was working for his previous company.
Tuesday, April 23 - sunny, warm day with strong winds moving the clouds in during the afternoon +14
Went out to find some sandals, did not find any but bought some marigolds for the balcony to brighten up the view.
Received some phone calls from interested buyers for the ad I placed for Cory's truck. Terry who viewed the unit yesterday afternoon, came by with his son; test drove the truck and said he would get back to me later in the afternoon to arrange payment.
I cleaned up the apartment, getting rid of some excess paper, books and unused stuff that has been cluttering the closets for a long time.
Susan still has not called. I would expect she is keeping busy and ignoring the necessity to make some sort of decision in her life. It is not a great problem for me at the moment. I am content to let her move in her indecisive circles until she can clear her mind. I would like to make a life with her but I am not prepared to hold her hand and give her guidance in any extra romantic endeavors. I will have to make this known to her, not only to clear my own mind but hers also. I am not too sure why she is so unsettled at the moment other than the concern over her upcoming surgery, cessation of smoking and the fact that we have been going together for about three years. I would suspect that she sees the need to move on or settle down.
Wed. April 25. Cloudy in the morning with sunny breaks in the afternoon with wind
Well, Susan made the decision that she has to find herself and become centered again.
She feels that she will miss out on something of great importance if she continues in this comfortable relationship. Not much success in arguing with her on how good she has it at the moment. I am concerned that the medication she is on, combined with the other stresses in her life has her very confused. But, she is in charge and has to go the direction that she sees fit. I feel very unhappy about the change but can do nothing about it except be sure I take care of myself and my feelings. Her idea of remaining friends is really a difficult concept to grasp at the moment. I will have to remove myself from the routine that we have had so she can change her interaction with me. She wishes things to be different and she does not realize how different they will be.
I doubt very much that we will get back together on any sort of level.
I have decided that being comfortable with myself, enjoying myself and the things I do will fill the time that I have. I am confident there will be women that appear at the appropriate intervals to fill any needs that we both have. I will remain confident this is another segment in my life as I move through the elements. It is sad because I will miss her companionship, her good moods and thoughts. She is going to have to take some big steps to regain any sort of solid footing to be able to come to some decision on who she is and wants she wants in her life. I am unsure of why these events are happening to her at the moment, perhaps it is just things that occur and we have to be flexible enough to learn from them. I shall miss her. I cannot seem to get this relationship bit correct, perhaps I am to nice and make it to easy for the women to move into another part of their lives and search out new worlds with the courage and knowledge that they have gained from me. Anyway, I will continue to think and feel.
I sold the truck last night to a nice young fellow. The cheque should clear, the truck should continue to operate and I will be able to put Cory's debt to sleep. It will make him more comfortable and allow him some flexibility in his financial decisions.
Mother was in a caustic mood during lunch today but changed as I took her on a trip to Spruce Grove to see the homes in that area, with a stop to show her where I worked.
She was going to spend some nickels at the Casino before she went home.
John meet with a potential client in the morning to price out a home to be built in Stony Plain, the client is getting several other builders to quote on the same home, perhaps we do have an opportunity to compete because of our smiles and home quality.
I managed to purchase some casual brown dress slacks at Eddie B's that should do me for a while although I still need some dark blue slacks to complete my wardrobe. I will have to clean out more of my suits that I have not worn in years, no use keeping them for old times sake. If I need one, I have my black one and I can always purchase a new suit that is up to date.
This thing with Susan still erk me, I can only believe that if I give her enough room and distance there is a chance that we will get back together again. A possibility? I wonder how she will explain it to her sister, Louise and brother in law Pat.

Day to day Grind

2005-10-08T11:01:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, March 20 snowing and cold -9
Gillian came into town yesterday and is settling in for a short stay.
She visited with Mom till I got off work and then we went for supper. She is very diligent about her weight watchers diet plan. After she obtained her rental car for the week I showed her the location of the Weight Watchers office. She was to have lunch with a friend and then do some shopping.
I dropped by the Rock Solid office for paper material and supplies. I did some reading at Chapters, bought a coffee maker, coffee supplies and made it to the office by opening time. After setting everything up, I settled in for the day.
Warren is back in town and we are playing squash when we have time.
Gillian is in a good mood with none of her mood swings apparently affecting her.
I left a message for Dana; he sounded so down because he has not worked for such a long time. I will have to send him some information by fax through Cory.
Susan is going for a visit to her doctor about her medical concerns; she seems to have a little more discomfort than she expected.
Mom and Gillian seem to be happy to see each other. We all will probably go out to our home town on Friday to do some business and see Terry and Merci.
Wednesday, March 20 cloudy, cold and snowing -8
I spent the morning talking with Gillian and getting ready for lunch with Mom and Terry. The lunch was pleasant with no awkwardness by any one. Terry told us that Lesel and Kali both had jobs in San Francisco and were settling in. He also said that his oldest son and girlfriend had decided to end their relationship and were moving on with their lives.
Gillian added that she is still concerned with her son but is not as emotional about it as she usually is.
Thursday, March 22, sunny still -6
The sun is melting the snow on the ground as the day progresses. The wind has a brisk cold feel as it blows out of the north. The forecast is for a warming trend that will take us into spring and April.
Gillian and I spent the morning planning for Friday’s events.
I was able to do my income tax with my accountant, visit a friend, Viola, see their new house, drop in and see Fred and Sue, see my sister, Grace and her sons and oh yes have lunch with Terry and Merci in Veg. And then in the afternoon---.
Gillian expressed her concerns about her niece, Cheryl after Gillian returned from the evening at her house with Terry and Merci present. Gillian is frustrated when Terry does not keep his word.
Mother shares these feelings.
Canada's pairs won gold at the world skating championship in Vancouver this year, to the surprise of most people watching.
Simon, Gillian’s youngest son, was fired from his job on a film by saying he would not put up with the abuse he was receiving from his boss. He is in demand in the film industry so there will be no problem with him getting work as soon as he wishes. Gillian continues to shop for material for her future daughter-in-law, Kati's wedding dress in town; she bought a sample to take back to Toronto.
I am feeling a little down after Mike from Fort Sask. phoned to cancel the appointment they had with me due to his wife's illness (he said). He suggested that he will call to reschedule the meeting for next week. This event brings back the ability of a client to say no without really saying no. I have to remember that the sale is not made until the signature is on paper and the waiting period is over. I cannot allow myself to get too carried away with the potential of a paycheck before it actually happens.
Dorothy, a sales friend, confirmed last night that she was selling homes for another home building company down the block from me. When there is an opportunity I will drop by and visit with her.
Monday, March 23 cloudy, windy but warm. Rained this early morning and the air has a feel of spring dampness
The weekend was busy with a serious woman buyer from the University. I am confident that this viewing will result in a sale. A couple of other clients came by looking with definite ideas about what they wanted.
I spent my time with Gillian during my non working time this weekend.
Susan was comfortable doing her own things so I was not included in her life.
I am able to go along with her choices without feeling unsettled.
Friday, Gillian and I went out visit her friends. We made it back in the late evening with everyone quite exhausted. Gillian continues to want to be involved with everyone's lives and is quite confused when people are not interested in spending time together. I am taking the large view of the situation, that it gives me a chance to view the energy of someone that has an addiction to total involvement with everyone all the time.
I was to play squash with Warren today but he has a touch of the flu and has canceled some appointments because of his condition. I have put together some paper and promo sheets for the company and after a few changes by the owners they were approved.
Later in the day, I checked out our other Showhomes in the surrounding areas.
The traffic continues with two appointments created for this week; Thursday, for Val and Paul, and Saturday for Mike and Monica from Fort Sask. My feeling is talk to enough clients and something positive will happen. The people who come through the Show home are nice and they are interested in the product and our company.
Not to sure what is happening with Susan; perhaps it is just my activity and hectic schedule with Gillian but I feel that she is quite distant. This draining emotional activity with Gillian has created a need in me for some support. I am very aware and sensitive to the lack of contact with Susan. I still do not like the fact that she decided to paint the bathroom on Saturday night instead of spending it with me. I do not think I am in the wrong. Time will tell.
Monday, April 2, Sunny but breezy
The weekend went by quite quickly.
Traffic was constant but most of the people were just looking. It was nice to have the appointment with Jim and Linda to show the two homes that they were interested in and make a further appointment for Wed. It was very pleasant to see Susan again and try to re-connect with the feelings that we were sharing.
Mom went with her friends to see Kelsey's baby.
Warren and I played squash on Sunday evening, which was fun but pointed out how out of shape we are. It was good to play again.
I talked to Cheryl Sunday and Monday morning. Her stolen car was found and returned, but in her anxious state she ran into a tree and broke the front parking light. It is not a good spring for her with her men troubles and all her intrusive friends. She will get through it although she is quite jumpy and sensitive. Spent some time at the Rock Solid office talking to Chris and John about what is happening and getting ready to present some prices to Jim and Linda on Wednesday.
Susan seems happy and content again and is getting the painting done in her home this week.
The noisy neighbors from upstairs seemed to have moved over the weekend which was the end of the month or else they are being very quiet. All the refuse from the balcony has being removed and there does not seem to be any midnight callers coming by at the moment. I wonder if they have told all their acquaintances that they have moved on to another place.
I received an advance today, against the sales that are about to occur. Talked to the clients from Fort Sask., they are going to think more about what they saw over the weekend at Rock Solid and will get back to us soon. They are aware of the price increase. So I wait and let it all fall into place as it is meant to be.

Tuesday, April 3. Sunny but with a cool breeze from the south. The south part of the province has been getting snow from the USA for the last two days.
Hard on the ranchers during the calving season, but with cattle prices at an all time high, it is a small price to pay.
Susan called and was in a playful mood, so she convinced me to come over and help her with the family room molding that needs to be in place before they started painting today. The painters suggested that it would take two days to do what is necessary, filling of holes and all prep work. Her house will be wearing some new spring colors for this year.
During the day I dropped by to see Dorothy at her Standard Show home in the adjoining area. Their line of houses is less expensive than the one I am in but we are still competitive when we open the two Story Show home across the way.
I was wrong, the people above me are still in the apartment revealed by an excess of stereo noise and loud singing with their visitors around midnight.
Susan and I had a discussion about her state of mind and the change in her moods; whether it was because of the physical and medical problems or emotional concerns centered on her desire to quit smoking. Much discussion with no real conclusions achieved. She suggested that if she was “in love” with me, she would ask for me to move in with her; regardless of the fact that her son is living with her. Not that easy I stated, as I do have a say in the decision.
After my escapades with my former girlfriend, her ability to change my mind, along with my lack of resolve, I am going to be aware of who is making the final decision and why it is being made.
I have not heard from my sons Dana or Cory in a while.
I am not sure why Dana has not called in a while. He must be working enough to make way on his bills, rent and such.
No traffic flow today, Tuesday, maybe the weather or it’s just the time of week, everyone is busy doing something else today.
It is a still a good time to be alive.
Wednesday, April 11 Sunny, but with a cool wind from the north
The sale, my first, to Jim and Linda is complete with all the necessary signatures and paperwork completed and into the office. Now all we have to do is build the house. My payment should come soon. Now it is time to move on to another sale.
Traffic has been slow with only Mike and Monica, from out of town, visiting us but not making up their mind yet.
We moved into the new two storey showhome home on Saturday, April 7 and all the adjustments are being made. The house has some strong features and colors with the indoor courtyard accenting the home. We have had some positive feedback on the Show home. I expect it to sell soon.
Today I have had some strong interest on the previous Show home; with several people coming by to view both homes.
Susan’s daughter is getting married on Saturday in a small church ceremony. Susan is quite excited and pleased with the total procedure. She is doing all the small things that need to be done to make for a perfect wedding. She is receiving a certain amount of help from her friends and relatives.
Life has been very good to me, with only a little anxiety and tension with the signing of the documents and papers to conclude the home sale. The learning curve is quite steep but the company is very good at what they do.
I played squash with Warren several times this week; with our games improving and giving us the workouts that we are hoping for.
Cheryl has taken back control over some of her life, as far as friends interfering with the time and activities. She continues to train her friends and associates how she expects to be treated. A difficult task for her because this is not comfortable having control over her life. She has almost completed the work in the basement of her current home to be able to rent out the suites she has created. The theft and recovery of her car along with the small dent on the bumper has relegated itself to distant memory, with her stress level lowering itself to a reasonable level.
Susan and I discussed our expectations, needs and desires last weekend and have come up with an understanding, again, about what the next few months will bring. She continues to struggle with some feelings of unease. I am not sure what is going on. Even with all that I have learned in the last while I feel that I do not completely understand what is happening. I do know that I will protect myself because I am important.
Susan’s daughter’s wedding; Susan’s surgery and Luke finishing college are important events in her life. These events will hold her thoughts and attention first and foremost over the next months; I expect to be on the outer edge of her thoughts for a long period of time. I will have to be aware that I do not allow my “little boy” feelings control my actions. Now that I am aware of this process, I feel it should be easier.
Derek continues to struggle with his newly acquired clients’ anger and frustration because of the market decline. He is finding this aspect of his business life very stressful but seems more comfortable after we talked about the situation that he was in.
The senior owner of Rock Solid, the father of the men I work with, came by to talk for a while about the business and his sons. He said that although it is hard for him to get around, he feels better if he works a little each day. He said that he sleeps more soundly each night when he does this.
Susan is spending the week with her friend from Victoria, Bonnie, showing her the sites of the province.
The mens’ group continues even though I have not shown up for a few weeks, Warren, Peter and Hector show up occasionally. I will have to make an appearance soon because I miss the sessions. I am doubtful whether Jeff will make an appearance again; he is well into the new life he has chosen.
To get a better understanding and because I am snoopy, I would like to see Nora again to catch up on what is happening to her and Jeff.
Jim will not be back again I fear. He is into the religious activities of the church that will show him the way to happiness, he feels. It is not surprising that he is following the same direction that his father did when Len was a young child.

Starting a new Career

2005-09-24T12:41:00.000-07:00

Starting a new career
Monday, March 12 windy and warm
I am back sitting at the showhome. Sunday was a bust.
I had supper with Susan and her entire family; it was a good time with a great deal of warmth and family friendship. I had a chance to talk with Susan’s brother in law, Bob about his trip to the Caribbean. He and his wife, Louise, had a red sun burn glow about them from their time in the sun. Mathew was at his best being a very good and fun child.
I had a chance to test out the clutch on my car to see if it needed replacing. It pulled through the emergency parking brake, so it may not be as bad as I had thought. Perhaps it was just some fluid on the clutch in the morning. The Acura people suggested the replacement cost would be about a thousand dollars. This is much more than I expected; but that is part of owning a car.
I talked to Dana last night. He is doing well and enjoying his time in Toronto, even-though he has had no work for a while. He is going to get some money back from income tax which will tide him over until he gets called to work. He feels he is doing very well.
He said that Cory is working hard and enjoyed the paintball extravaganza at the Sky Dome that Cory helped stage.
Cheryl is having some difficulty with Andrew’s activities during this last week end. I suggested that she look at this development in a very serious way. We discussed the many undesirable consequences if the situation is not handled quickly and strongly. She is a little reluctant to do what is needed but I am sure after talking to some other people she will do what she is comfortable doing.
Susan took the day off to rest and get cleaned up after the weekend. Good for her.
Warren is off to Vancouver for the week. I don't mind taking some time off from playing squash; my body is a little tired. Perhaps I will play some racquetball with Susan on Wednesday.
The job situation continues to be slow, I talked to a fellow at Head Hunter and Associates about the resume I dropped off last week. He will create a file on me that will automatically respond to any new jobs that come across his desk. I continue to send out job applications. An interesting application for a primer painter at Aero painting in the area was in the journal this Monday; I will take a drive out to the company tomorrow to investigate this a little further.
Wednesday March 14 Sunny and warm
It snowed about 6 inches last night with most of it melting during the day.
I had lunch with Mom today.
John of Rock Solid called today about working as a sales person for them, he was pleased that I would accept. We are to meet Friday to work out the details.
It is the dream job as I described it. It can be long term or short term. I will play it by ear and see where it takes me.
The only regret is the Thursday meetings with the men will be disrupted; although it seems that I am the only person that shows up regularly. None of the other guys are there on a regular basis. The meeting dynamics will change as they have changed before.
With my employment, my squash games with Warren will have to be played in the evening or earlier in the day.
The decision to become employed again has been a concern to me even though I told myself it should not be; I have not been sleeping well, falling asleep late at night and feeling tired during the day. Perhaps this will change when my routine establishes itself. I look forward to checking out what I have to learn and how much time I have to put into the effort of home sales. John and I have discussed the holiday times that I require. My only concern being the family reunion during the Aug. long weekend. The advance the company passed on to me should be enough to cover any costs I have. I should be able to sell at least two homes to cover the advance I received. Where else can I get a job where the starting time is 3:00 in the afternoon with no one looking over my shoulder. All things considered, I should be able to move my finances along and remain at least at neutral and possibly in a positive fashion with some sideline business. The day was uneventful with no customers coming by except for a vendor selling some candy. The day is cool because of the snow but the forecast is for warmer weather. Hopefully the sky will clear up so I can go flying in the next day or two. With Steve no longer working at his old company I expect we can get out for a flight or two.
Saturday, March 17 sunny and plus 8
I spent Friday morning talking to Chris and John at Rock Solid about what they expected in a sales person for their company. We talked for about an hour and a half discussing all the aspects of employment. Generally it seems to be a nice place to work with potential to make a great deal of money without having to do things that are too disruptive. At the least, I will get paid to sit and should be able to cover my expenses in a general fashion. With the economy being what it is I will be able to sell a few house in the next several months. The support from the office is small but if I make my demands known I will be able to get what I want. I am excited about the start of a new journey and direction.
I went to Steve’s going away party at the Keg. The turnout was very good. Steve is a little shell shocked about leaving the company and is not too sure what he is getting into. He is not even aware of what he is getting out of. Holly, Beth and I were the last ones to leave and it was nice to chat with them. Beth was very tired after a previous late night and Holly was her bubbly self. She has a three week old boy that is her third child and this was her first evening out, without him. Her husband was taking care of the children. Dorothy was at the gathering so I made arrangements to have coffee with her in the next few weeks to find out what she is doing.
Had a chance to talk to my old manager, he is tired looking but said things are going well. Felt strange going back and chatting with them, very little has changed, some of the problems in the company have gotten bigger,
Talked to Cory last night. He had company over and was in the middle of a party so he couldn't talk too much. He is ok and doing well he said. We will talk more in the days to come.
Gillian is in the area for the wedding and will be coming to the city on Monday.
Sunday, March 18 Sunny and warm
Well, this is the second day of being a representative for Rock Solid, nothing has changed except a little higher level of stress, I have this unrealistic sense that I should work harder now that I am responsible to these people, although I am still only responsible to myself. I am guaranteed about four months of income at a thousand a month at the minimum. The possibility of selling houses is great because of the faith I have in my ability. It is something I look forward to experiencing- getting a check for $5,000 to $6,000 dollars at one time. I am setting my goal at selling a dozen homes before Christmas this year. I will have to talk to my accountant about setting up a company to help in the expenses area.
Susan and I had a fun time playing racquetball last night but I was worried with the head cold that plagues her. My anger about missing some shots as we were playing is some concern to me but I was able to handle it well as I became aware of my feelings.
Warren should be back this weekend so we are able to play some squash.
If the weather holds I will go flying this afternoon after work.
Monday, March 19 sunny with cloudy periods, + 5 and breezy
Well, things are turning a little hectic. Sunday proved to be a day filled with activity; two people came in wanting to make appointments to begin the process of building homes. One person I had ignored last month came in and I was able to show him a home that was already built. The other people from Fort Sask. were ready to build with another builder but liked our home better and want to investigate things further. I spent a restless night and am trying to settle the anxiety and nervousness that is in my system. I have to be careful that I don't get to anxious about the slow process of selling a home. If they are going to say no they can do that at any time, this is nothing new in the selling game.
Susan is starting to feel better from her cold and she has spent some time with her dad after his small car accident. Gillian has arrived today, some of her luggage is a little late but Air Canada promised that it would arrive soon. The wedding she was at went well and everyone enjoyed themselves.
The two new groups of people have confirmed their appointment times for Tuesday and Wednesday to start the process of building their dream homes. It is a start.